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Hey, everybody. Welcome back to Cold Case

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Murder mysteries. I'm your host, Ryan

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Krausz, returning to take another psychological

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detour through a baffling true

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crime case as we endeavor to learn

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what truly happened in the death of

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a twenty seven year old school teacher from

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Philadelphia, Ellen Greenberg, who

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was stabbed to death inside her apartment

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under circumstances in which it seems

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she was alone. So was it

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simply a rather bizarre and rare suicide

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fueled by rage? Or did someone

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else wield the knife? Let's take

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a look. But first, there's

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just something I need to say for my own

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sake and my regular listeners will undoubtedly

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understand why. As many of

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you know, I've had a very hard road

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over the last few years and a situation

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in which prominent people have promised me

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writing opportunities that I earned and

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then just rip the rug out from underneath

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me, leaving me working overtime and

1:02

getting completely burnout, trying

1:04

to correct the fallout from the horrible things

1:07

they've done. What had been

1:09

a difficult everyday struggle turned

1:11

into an impossible journey of

1:13

digging myself out of a hole that

1:16

other people created. And while

1:18

I take responsibility for doing

1:20

that work, those people who harmed

1:22

me and caused these issues need

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to be held to account, even if

1:27

only by my expression of the events that

1:29

transpired. While I have

1:31

had a great experience with nearly everyone

1:33

I've associated with in the entertainment industry,

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there are two monsters Dan

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Harmon and Brian Fuller who

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I am going to address directly and

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extensively in an upcoming episode.

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So why now? Well, on

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my birthday earlier this month, I

1:50

saw news that Dan Harmon's co creator

1:53

on Rick and Morty, Justin Rowland,

1:55

had been charged with domestic violence

1:57

involving corporal injury along

1:59

with false imprisonment of a woman he'd

2:02

been dating. Afterward, people

2:04

started coming forward showing text message

2:06

is from when they were minors that basically

2:09

confirmed what everybody had already realized,

2:11

which is that Justin is a creep who chases

2:14

after children. Dan had offered

2:16

me a staff writing job on Rick and Morty

2:18

beginning in April twenty twenty

2:20

and then rescinded it right before

2:22

I was about to leave for LA. Due

2:25

to reasons that were complete bullshit

2:27

and something I could not understand. For

2:30

several years, as Dan turned his

2:32

back on me, I was left to wonder

2:34

what the hell really happened. I

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literally did nothing wrong at all.

2:38

How could these people call my character

2:40

into question? I mean,

2:42

Dan literally played God

2:45

over one of his writers in the community

2:47

of writers room years ago because

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she didn't wanna get with him. He

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fucking terrorized her, made

2:53

her life miserable, and he's the

2:55

type of asshole who makes excuses

2:57

like your heroes aren't who you

2:59

think they are, to justify his

3:01

shitty behavior of trying

3:03

to uphold in a decency. And

3:05

when the news about Justin hit,

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it dawned on me. Oh my god.

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I bet if I look at the time

3:12

frame on these charges, they'll

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match the time Dan turned his back on

3:17

and they did. The incident

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happened in January twenty twenty.

3:21

And the charges came in May twenty twenty.

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Dan told me explicitly that

3:26

he felt like he owed me another opportunity

3:29

but despite responding that I was willing

3:32

to mop the anywhere he put

3:34

me in order to prove myself, I

3:36

received nothing but silence. That

3:39

was after he told me to do absolutely

3:41

nothing, but continue working on

3:43

my podcast for eight months until

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the writing season started. So

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I did that. I stopped looking for

3:50

other opportunities. And when the time

3:52

came, he just did me dirty.

3:55

Right at the last minute. It

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did so much long term

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damage to my life. My car even

4:01

got repossessed as I was out of

4:03

a job. None of this matters

4:05

to Dan because he's a narcissistic

4:08

piece of shit. But Brian Fuller

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is even far worse, and we'll

4:12

talk about him. A lot. These

4:15

events aren't companies pulling

4:18

out of a business deal. These

4:20

are influential people who

4:22

tried to befriend me and claim

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to be champions of me and my work,

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something that I really needed as a

4:28

neurodivergent person trying

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to earn even one creative

4:32

opportunity. They're the

4:34

type of people who could have easily done

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that for me and promised to

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do so even without my

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asking, only so they could

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turn around and make my life

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hell forever instead. It's

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what miserable, but influential people

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sometimes due to aspiring creatives

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who have no leverage. And again,

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rejection is always fine.

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Backing out of a business deal is

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fine, but lying to

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and gaslighting a genuinely decent

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person who has worked his entire life

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just to earn one opportunity is

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monstrous. They had the

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power to change my life, and

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they did. They destroyed

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it. I've never had a

5:16

terrible experience with anybody in

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the entertainment industry except

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these two people. These

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fucking monsters. I

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was willing to overlook Brian Fuller's

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reputation as a terrible person

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because I know what made him that

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way. I have empathy. I

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was also willing to overlook Dan's

5:35

reputation as someone who

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terrorizes women given

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what he suffered because

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I have empathy. But

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doing so cost me in

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ways I can't even begin to

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calculate. In an upcoming

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episode, we'll talk about why

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these bloated narcissistic wealthy

5:54

man children terrorize other people

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to cope with their everlasting emotional

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wounds. When what they really need

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to do is finally take a good

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look in the fucking mirror, Neither

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of those two clowns found

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me on their own. Their heads

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are way too far up their egomaniacal asses

6:13

to accomplish anything like that. It

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just so happens that the introduction

6:17

of my show to monsters like this

6:20

comes through the far greater decency

6:22

of the women surrounding them. Which

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easily shows you how these women

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believed my work would be a good influence on

6:29

them. It was. But

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for being that insightful and illuminating

6:34

soul, the light I shown upon

6:36

them revealed things they didn't want

6:38

to see about themselves, which were

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subsequently projected onto me

6:42

as fault, leading to being

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cast aside and his circumstance where

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the universe sent me to help. They

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have money. They have

6:52

fame. But they have absolutely

6:55

no substance. And my

6:57

internal flashlight lit up

6:59

those empty places waiting

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to be filled. I'm

7:03

sorry it scared them. Every

7:06

day, I see another writer

7:09

connect to somebody in some way.

7:11

The promises to change their

7:13

life with the smallest measure and

7:15

I cheer for those people always,

7:18

but they're still a part of me that

7:20

is left to wonder why it always

7:22

has to be somebody else and

7:24

never me. It's like I

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watched this happen over and

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over year after year

7:30

and the big party inside where

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all of those people gather is

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completely foreign to my experience.

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I look through the windows in the rain and

7:39

cold trying to lock

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eyes with someone who will see me

7:43

and understand. But

7:46

when the door finally opens, it's

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only the devil. In

7:51

an industry in which ninety nine

7:53

point nine nine percent of everything

7:56

equates to rejection. There

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is simply no room to

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falsely represent yourself as an

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angel with wings trying to

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lift me up, only to

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bring misery, suffering, and

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death to my desperate plight.

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So I truly look forward

8:13

to that upcoming episode. And if

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nothing else has listeners, I'm

8:17

sure it will provide interesting insights

8:19

into human nature. Now,

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shifting gears back to the Ellen Greenberg

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case. It's January twenty

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six, twenty eleven in Philadelphia.

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Ellen Wednesday begins at home,

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which is an apartment and Manny Young

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shared with her fiance, Sam Goldberg,

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who was a local TV producer at

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the time. Before

8:40

work, Ellen talks to her mom on the

8:42

phone, and the elder woman

8:44

suggested she didn't notice anything

8:46

strange about the conversation at

8:48

least nothing to suggest what

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happened next. Around that

8:52

time, as she and Sam had

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gotten engaged, Ellen was preoccupied

8:57

with the planning of their upcoming wedding.

8:59

But on this particular day,

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what was worrisome was a blizzard

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rolling into town. Now,

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in most true crime podcast, where

9:08

the people are saying hosting it, you

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just glance at that info

9:12

and move along and

9:14

primarily because what most true crime

9:16

stories are geared toward is

9:18

placing psychological considerations

9:20

last like they're a sideshow

9:22

or just an afterthought leading

9:24

to profound ignorance about the

9:27

subject at hand that is easily

9:29

avoided by simply prioritizing emotion.

9:32

A murder or suicide begins

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as an emotional consideration So

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examination should start there and

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then proceed into physicality,

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which is why cases like this

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and which there is an obvious truth

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become falsely mysterious,

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but for a good reason. So

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let's start at the opposite end of

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the spectrum with the psychology

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We'll ask, what is weather?

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But more specifically, what is

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the symbolic relevance of what

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we see rendered by weather

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systems? Well, each

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element, so to speak, afforded

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by the weather as it comes from

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the sky, is meant to

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embody the creator but in a very

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specific binary way,

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evolutionary refusal or

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conversely acceptance. Weather,

10:22

as it is literally the changes in

10:24

our physical atmosphere, must

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manifest those changes as a

10:28

result of projecting from our emotional

10:30

world. In our insufficient, even

10:33

pitiful mines, due to the social

10:35

veil, we believe the

10:37

weather or elements simply

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exist to satisfy a physical

10:42

component of life, but

10:44

nothing does that. There is no such

10:46

thing as normalcy. There is

10:48

only symbolic imagery

10:50

to tell a story. So

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everything is an emotional idea

10:56

projected upon a physical pallet.

10:58

So if you look out your

11:00

window and see that it's snowing,

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that visual derived from emotional

11:05

projection has not only been

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created to satisfy your individual

11:10

psychological world and those of

11:12

every other person alive at the

11:14

time who might see it, but

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also collectively incorporates

11:18

our emotional life in

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total as a species. The

11:22

weather is not just something that happens

11:24

and it does not happen in the same way

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for everyone outside of

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its physical context. It

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projects from the emotional

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world to have a consistent meaning

11:35

among people physically such

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as there's six inches of snow on the ground.

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But emotionally, that snow

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has been crafted just for

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you. For that

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reason, all weather elements

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mimic the creator's ascension in

11:50

reverse. So for instance,

11:52

we understand the universe

11:54

itself or the creator or

11:57

god is the rising or

11:59

ascending white light. Essentially,

12:01

electricity comprised of many

12:03

tiny parts that disunited

12:05

in the big bang and need

12:07

to come back together as one. So

12:10

to manifest that idea in

12:12

physicality, we just get out

12:14

our emotional mirror and reverse

12:16

it. That means instead

12:18

of the white light rising and

12:20

coming together on the way

12:22

up to form one

12:24

thing, it falls apart on

12:26

the way down. The

12:29

more snow that comes, AKA,

12:31

the more white light that does

12:33

not rise, which could be

12:35

defined as the more unwilling you are to

12:37

evolve, the more snow

12:39

you get. It's basically

12:41

saying If you won't rise, I'll

12:43

bury you in it, or I'll drown

12:45

you in it if we're talking about

12:47

rain, which takes on the same

12:49

effect with rain drops.

12:51

As they collect just like

12:53

the snow, you start to have

12:56

problems related to movement, specifically

12:59

forward and upward mobility,

13:01

which are the backbone of evolutionary

13:03

necessity in ascending from

13:05

Earth. The same goes for lightning

13:07

strikes. If you won't rapidly

13:09

climb the evolutionary ladder

13:11

or Jacob's ladder to God above

13:13

or the straight white line of ascending

13:15

light or electricity, It simply

13:18

comes back down on you

13:20

again and again, but instead of a

13:22

straight line, it's disjointed.

13:24

Over and over. So the reason

13:26

people get really excited for Snow

13:28

Day spend at home is that evolution

13:30

stops and therefore so

13:32

does the expectation of ascension.

13:34

And by extension, the

13:36

guilt of not moving forward

13:38

evaporates. So

13:40

if you got snowed in, day

13:42

one would be great. But there's a reason

13:44

we have the term cabin fever and

13:46

it's because the toll of not moving

13:48

forward begins to set in after a

13:50

while. And of course, that's why

13:52

the cold, more than anything

13:54

else, has fueled our evolution.

13:57

It works toward the overarching goal

13:59

of evolution, which is simply

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this, get back inside.

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So if you simply go

14:06

back inside tied by going into your house

14:08

physically, your comfort is

14:10

short lived. But if you evolve

14:12

emotionally in the direction of going

14:14

back inside within the context of

14:16

interdimensional evolution heading

14:18

back to the beginning in the infinite

14:20

loop. The resources

14:22

flow. For instance,

14:24

if I see a blizzard coming

14:26

and decide to sit on my ass

14:28

watching TV, free of concerns

14:30

related to the snow, my path

14:32

forward in life stops, meaning

14:34

gainful evolution. But if I

14:36

go out into the snow, and

14:38

use technology to literally plow

14:40

a path forward where there wasn't one

14:42

before and fuel evolution in

14:44

that regard. People will offer me

14:46

handsome rewards. Now,

14:49

on the color scale, which

14:51

originates as an emotional idea, as

14:53

we talked about in the last episode in

14:55

relation to a fetus, the

14:57

brightest color, so to speak, which is not

14:59

a color, but the combination of all

15:01

colors is white. Now

15:03

since that is an emotional idea

15:05

at its root, it means the physicality

15:08

of it, which we would expect

15:10

to take on a meaning of being hot.

15:12

Actually reverses that idea

15:14

and makes white weather elements

15:16

or snow coldest. The

15:19

idea is that what's coming down is

15:21

reversed in a context of

15:23

the white light falling down and

15:25

apart rather than rising and coming

15:27

together. So instead of

15:29

the white light like a white

15:31

flame being indicative of the

15:33

greatest hate rising and dissipating,

15:36

It shows us the opposite, which is

15:38

the greatest extent of

15:40

cold falling and solidifying.

15:42

It has to mirror the

15:44

white light ascending is the creator

15:47

just as it would be with the father

15:49

during a heterosexual active

15:51

intercourse between man and woman. And

15:53

of course, that makes reign

15:56

AKA the transparency or the

15:58

transition between Jesus and God in the

16:00

form of the holy spirit. Rain

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equates to our emotional abyss.

16:05

The place to which we descend

16:07

emotionally into the unconscious

16:09

mind and make our

16:11

unrealized selves conscious

16:13

by bringing them into the

16:15

light where we will take on that

16:17

new identity. So that's

16:19

represented by Jesus. So

16:21

that's represented by something like the

16:24

Jesus character, the embodied man

16:26

crossing the threshold of the holy spirit

16:28

and becoming transparent

16:30

through disembodiment, leading

16:32

transparent rain as

16:34

the water used for the cleansing.

16:37

It walks on your head from

16:39

above, drop after drop.

16:41

Instead of you, walking on the water

16:43

below your feet as a

16:45

manifested means of

16:47

creating a visual horror

16:49

from your emotional necessity to evolve.

16:52

So instead of all of the

16:54

water being together as a

16:56

body of water below your feet

16:58

as one thing like this singularity,

17:00

you have it all broken

17:02

apart above you and coming down

17:04

on your head instead. It

17:06

just reverses it to make it

17:09

a horror instead of a

17:11

successful evolutionary movement.

17:13

When loss forces you to

17:15

become someone new, the tears flow

17:18

down your face in the same

17:20

way as a warning about what

17:22

will happen if you stop moving.

17:24

You're going to drown emotionally

17:26

So during times of grief and reflection,

17:29

the tears flow and to

17:31

show our emotional wound of

17:33

not wanting to change, what

17:35

do we desperately do? Wipe them

17:38

away. We dry up the

17:40

abyss because the abyss means

17:42

leaving behind what was

17:44

and becoming the thing we're meant

17:46

to be moving forward. The

17:48

more one has evolved, the

17:50

less necessity there is for water used

17:52

to cleanse in the abyss And therefore,

17:55

when the cleansing has been done, it

17:57

dries up. So the idea

17:59

of telling people not to cry

18:01

over something is a means of telling

18:03

them to move on. If there

18:05

are no tears, there is no

18:07

abyss. So when you

18:09

cry, the body and mind are essentially

18:11

just saying, hey, you

18:13

need an abyss in which you'll

18:15

change. So like for instance, if

18:17

your partner passed away and here

18:19

you are crying and you

18:21

realize, shit, I need to go down into

18:23

the abyss and become somebody

18:26

else, somebody new and the

18:28

basis or theme of

18:30

that the premise for your change is going to be,

18:32

who am I without the other

18:35

person? So when we

18:37

encounter loss, we have to

18:39

recalibrate our future selves,

18:41

and that happens through

18:43

change in the abyss. And so the

18:45

symbolic necessity for

18:47

pushing that idea or precipitating those

18:50

movements is the tears

18:53

of crying. So when clouds are

18:55

white and not about to

18:57

rain, they appear weightless

18:59

high in the sky and floating

19:01

with ease. Yet if we take

19:03

those clouds down the color scale to

19:05

gray by mixing some

19:07

darkness with that white light,

19:09

what do we notice about the

19:11

cloud cover? It's not only much

19:13

lower but seemingly dense

19:15

and heavier due to

19:17

water and not even close to

19:19

appearing weightless Instead,

19:21

the clouds seem

19:23

right overhead, closing in,

19:26

menacing in a way that they seem like a

19:28

wall between the light above

19:30

and the resulting darkness below.

19:32

And what do we say the sun finally

19:34

does in situations like this?

19:37

Which is the same as we describe when we see

19:39

the light through that cloud comer.

19:41

We call it a breakthrough. You

19:43

can see the light, which always

19:45

equates to truth. Yet, what

19:48

will become important to us here

19:50

is that nature of what's

19:52

being blocked by the

19:54

cloud. If the sky wasn't

19:57

gray, what color would it

19:59

be? Blue. Blue

20:01

is the color of that which is

20:03

new or blue shifted light and red of course

20:06

represents that which has passed us by

20:08

or red shifted light. In

20:10

the universe, as I've mentioned

20:12

many times, when you view the stars going away

20:14

from us or older stars,

20:16

their light is red shifted.

20:18

While younger stars or those which are

20:20

coming toward us are blue shifted.

20:23

So when the weather yields rain

20:26

or which are literally called precipitation

20:29

because that's what they're trying to do in

20:31

kicking your emotional world into gear

20:33

to change. The first thing that

20:35

gets extracted is the

20:37

color of that which is new

20:39

or changed, blue.

20:41

The blue sky disappears because

20:44

the weather is saying in the context

20:46

of precipitating your actions to

20:48

come. There is nothing new,

20:50

AKA, blue sky to which you can

20:53

ascend, which means you can't become the

20:55

rising white light and

20:57

instead will become. Trapped.

20:59

The snow buries you while

21:01

the rain drowns you as a means

21:03

of limiting your movement and

21:06

foreshadowing the ours. Dagnancy brings

21:08

into your life physically by

21:10

indulging it emotionally.

21:12

And so if we look at

21:14

those ideas of drowning

21:18

or being buried alive, what

21:20

do we understand would

21:22

be rendered by that? Asphyxiation

21:25

or suffocation. Right?

21:27

Well, of course, our victim,

21:29

in this case, on an emotional

21:32

level, is going to be

21:34

seeking suicide methods

21:36

related to what, suffocation.

21:38

Now, If it

21:40

rains too hard or snows too

21:42

much, what happens? It

21:44

becomes harder and harder to

21:46

move until finally

21:49

get stuck and die if you don't change.

21:51

The wrath of nature is

21:53

simply the call to evolve.

21:55

When the first humans

21:57

with the capacity to find or

22:00

build shelter got rained

22:02

or snowed on, the physical

22:04

conditions precipitated by

22:06

these events cause them to

22:08

ask one question and

22:10

one only, which is the

22:12

backbone of evolutionary function.

22:15

How do I get back inside?

22:17

Just like a baby born from

22:19

its mother's womb suffers the

22:22

emotional fallout of never being able to get

22:24

back in we, as

22:26

a species, have that

22:28

collective wound of being born to that

22:30

which abandons us and

22:32

therefore ask How

22:34

do I get back inside? If

22:36

you're a heterosexual man,

22:38

you're born from a woman, grow up

22:41

deal with your wound of not being able to

22:43

get back inside the mother's womb

22:45

through sexuality, which

22:47

means that for a man like this

22:49

and physicality, the transcendence of

22:51

becoming the father through the

22:53

ascending white light creates a

22:55

baby. In

22:57

your life, By way of

22:59

perception, you believe that babies

23:01

are the basis for evolution for

23:03

creating the next generation

23:05

and a wonderful thing and they are.

23:07

But beneath that societal veil

23:09

of cuteness, the ugly

23:12

truth is that we manifest

23:14

the idea of becoming the father

23:16

over and over in physicality

23:19

as a means of coping with

23:21

our inadequacy of not being able

23:23

to transcend him emotionally.

23:26

Babies are born from the ego

23:28

and not from the authentic self.

23:31

has only one true

23:33

identity, the one. So

23:35

every time you indulge this

23:37

manifested physicality, of

23:39

becoming the father with

23:41

embodiment instead of creating

23:43

emotional movement toward disembodiment over

23:46

time, the creator simply kills those

23:48

people you create. All of

23:50

them, no matter how many

23:52

little smiling faces you

23:54

pop out, that which has created

23:56

us will kill them. It

23:58

might happen at birth or more than

24:00

a hundred years later, but

24:03

embodiment always and without

24:05

exception leads to

24:07

slaughter. By design, we

24:09

live in a society that's been

24:11

designed to fail to precipitate

24:14

constant change. One that is

24:16

therefore veiled by

24:18

necessity instead being the product of long doing

24:20

and free will in the form of bad

24:22

people and choices, but it

24:24

all takes place within the

24:27

context of evolutionary roadmap

24:29

that succeeds because

24:31

beneath that veil of perception,

24:34

all that we see and do

24:36

is necessary. Just like characters

24:38

in a movie, we don't

24:40

know that despite our arrogant

24:42

assertions of free will and choices

24:45

and being an autonomous creature who controls

24:47

its own destiny, underneath

24:49

that veil, we are truly

24:52

pompous simply moving images on a

24:54

screen and dulls to

24:56

fulfill the purpose of being

24:58

products of dramatic necessity utilized

25:01

to tell a story. So

25:03

on January twenty six,

25:05

twenty eleven, as a Blizzard Frozen,

25:07

and understand Ellen Greenberg is

25:10

going to be stabbed to death in a

25:12

situation in which her

25:14

psychological disposition played a

25:16

part. It needs to be our primary focus.

25:19

Here, as the weather would be

25:21

considered extraordinary in the

25:23

form of a blizzard, The

25:25

first thing we'll ask is what that means

25:27

to a person intuitively.

25:30

That's the key. You are

25:32

designed to absorb symbolism

25:35

intuitively unless you're

25:37

analyzing something with the express purpose

25:39

of finding such things. Our

25:41

minds are constructed of the

25:44

unconscious or below the surface

25:46

and subconscious the gateway

25:48

between the unconscious and the

25:50

conscious and then finally, the conscious

25:52

or rational mind.

25:55

Things residing in the unconscious

25:57

mind are intuitive, while

25:59

that bridges a gap between the

26:01

unconscious and unconscious in the form of

26:03

the subconscious is the place

26:05

from which intuitive ideas

26:07

finally become realized in the

26:09

conscious mind. The subconscious

26:11

is the junction between

26:13

that, which is only intuitively realized

26:17

below a darkness and that which is

26:19

explicitly understood above in

26:21

the light. So in terms

26:23

of your perception, heavy

26:26

snowfall, limiting movement, and

26:28

making you feel trapped with no way

26:30

out can deeply affect your

26:32

emotional state through symbolic

26:34

imagery and the absence of your

26:36

explicit understanding of why it's

26:38

happening at all. And if

26:40

it happens, because you

26:42

utilize your conscious mind to ask

26:44

yourself, what's wrong?

26:46

The conscious mind can't lead you

26:48

down the right path because

26:51

it simply has no knowledge of that

26:53

which resides and you're unconscious.

26:56

So what happens is this,

26:58

your brain makes a connection intuitively

27:01

through symbolic imagery in your

27:03

unconscious and then also

27:05

does the same through your conscious

27:07

mind. But with the necessity,

27:09

for there to be a correlation between

27:11

the internal feelings and

27:13

external events in our physical

27:16

reality. For instance, if

27:18

heavy snow is falling, reversing

27:20

the idea of the white light

27:22

ascending and solidifying

27:25

as one, or rising to become the father,

27:27

then what that snow represents symbolically

27:29

and in physicality is

27:31

the coming of the father

27:33

but even more specifically the

27:36

notion that the father

27:38

won't stop coming down on you

27:40

instead of going the other

27:42

way, meaning evolving. Upward.

27:45

So we ask ourselves, in

27:47

the context of this story,

27:49

as the Blizzard brings heavy

27:51

snowfall that afternoon, which

27:53

traps Ellen and Sam inside

27:55

their home. Who would be the

27:57

emotional idea of the

27:59

father on the inside that

28:01

parallels the projected physical

28:03

reality of the snowfall effect

28:05

seen outside. That's

28:08

how our reality is built, what

28:10

she sees when looking out at

28:12

the weather and what it makes her

28:14

feel in terms of being trapped by

28:16

the father coming down on her instead

28:19

of making her rise, is what

28:21

she's feeling on the inside

28:23

in relation to something negative in

28:25

her personal life. So a

28:27

snow coming down is symbolizing the father

28:30

coming down on her again and

28:32

again, burying her

28:34

making it hard to move instead of helping

28:36

her rise and making her feel

28:39

weightless. We're specifically talking

28:41

about a failure to

28:43

transcend. To becoming the father.

28:45

That's the reason for the

28:48

precipitation. Growth. Just

28:50

like it is in the relationship between

28:53

living things, and water.

28:55

Without precipitation, on

28:57

a physical level, we'll

28:59

die and the same is

29:01

true emotionally. Now,

29:03

if we examine Ellen's life

29:06

just on a cursory level, what

29:08

should be immediately apparent is

29:10

that the man trans tending

29:12

to become the father, so to speak,

29:14

by marrying her as a husband and

29:16

taking the place of her father symbolically

29:18

is her fiance, Sam,

29:20

and he's the only person there.

29:23

No matter how thorough the following

29:26

details about this death become, There

29:28

won't be a point at which

29:30

we can identify the presence

29:32

of an Wintry. And

29:35

that's because If you manifest the idea of the

29:37

snowfalling as the father coming

29:39

down on you and trapping

29:41

you, then the opposite, which is the

29:43

white light rising, ends

29:45

and the father disappearing until he

29:48

returns. Here,

29:50

the events precipitating this death

29:52

seem to follow suit.

29:54

Let's take a look. There's no

29:56

way for us to know exactly when Ellen

29:59

died, but it seems as though her

30:01

computer was last used around

30:03

four forty five PM or Sam,

30:05

according to CCTV at the building

30:07

where they live, enters the gym

30:09

downstairs in the basement at four fifty

30:12

four PM. He

30:14

only stays down there approximately

30:16

thirty five minutes at which

30:18

point he heads upstairs and

30:20

according to him finds a

30:22

surprise. The door to their apartment

30:24

is locked, but it's only the

30:26

bar latch that a person wouldn't use if they

30:28

wanted to open the door a bit, to

30:30

engage with someone outside in

30:32

the absence of unlocking it. Sam

30:36

knocks, but he doesn't want to break down the

30:38

door, so he waits outside

30:40

and calls Ellen. She doesn't pick

30:42

up. He texts her and soon

30:44

after sends an email. The

30:46

texting continues for about twenty

30:48

five minutes give or take. As

30:50

Sam tries to get a hold of Ellen but

30:53

fails. His text would later

30:55

show that he became increasingly

30:57

annoyed but there were no threats or

30:59

references to anything like a fight

31:01

that precipitated the action of not responding

31:03

to his messages. The text

31:05

didn't indicate that he felt like she was doing

31:08

this purposely along with

31:10

shutting him out of the apartment. What's

31:13

interesting, however, is

31:15

that even though Sam doesn't

31:17

say or write anything that

31:19

foreshadows violence hiding behind it,

31:21

he does seem to show a lack of concern

31:23

for Ellen's well-being. None

31:25

of this communication is asking,

31:28

are you okay? There also

31:30

doesn't seem to be any urgency

31:32

to break down the door. Given

31:34

that Sam's workout was thirty

31:37

five minutes, and his fiance was

31:39

contacted continually for no

31:41

less than twenty five minutes

31:43

thereafter, and the door doesn't get

31:45

broken down until six

31:47

thirty PM. One would think

31:49

that Sam might adopt a level of

31:51

urgency conducive to

31:53

believing. This is an

31:55

emergency, but he

31:57

doesn't. After having no luck upstairs getting

31:59

into the apartment and not wanting to

32:01

break down the door, Sam goes

32:03

to the doorman in the main lobby

32:06

and asks him if he can help to break

32:08

down his apartment door. The

32:10

guy refuses, of course, but says

32:12

he's willing to call Ellen

32:15

to which there is no response. He

32:17

also says in lieu of that that

32:19

they can call the police and Sam

32:21

doesn't Wintry do that yet. So

32:24

Sam goes back upstairs to break down

32:26

the door. But let's pause

32:29

to ask why Sam hasn't

32:32

opted to call somebody like one of Ellen's

32:34

friends or her mother

32:36

to see if they can call her and get

32:38

a different result. It

32:40

seems like a good idea.

32:42

But upon further reflection,

32:44

you realize that insinuating

32:46

that she wouldn't answer the

32:48

door for him but wood for her mother or friends

32:51

means that he's done something

32:53

terribly wrong to have

32:55

her lock him out. And in a

32:57

situation in which she's

32:59

about to be found dead, that

33:01

looks beyond suspicious. Now,

33:04

Sam does break down the

33:06

door around six thirty PM. He

33:08

causes very little damage to

33:10

the lock. Though the photos do

33:12

seem to suggest that the drywall is

33:14

cracked and the screws were at least

33:16

partially pulled out to make that happen.

33:18

It seems Sam put a light shoulder

33:20

into it, so light in

33:22

fact that he literally managed to

33:24

get lots of people to wonder

33:27

he ever broke down the door at

33:29

all. And what does that say

33:31

if we look more closely? When

33:33

he broke down the door, he

33:35

did so very gently and with

33:37

no urgency, which is counterintuitive

33:40

to how someone should react

33:42

in a circumstance in which they believe

33:44

the person inside, even

33:47

their fiance, would have no

33:49

reason to be unavailable for

33:51

so long. He left

33:53

at four fifty four PM

33:55

and broke down the door over an

33:57

hour and a half later. So

33:59

I do think, within that

34:01

time frame, he could have ascertain

34:03

that she wasn't sleeping or

34:05

in the shower. But it's hard to say. Sometimes

34:08

when we don't want anything to be wrong,

34:10

but intuitively know there is

34:13

something quite wrong, we use denial to fend

34:15

off scary thoughts. So this is

34:18

when Sam enters the apartment

34:20

and finds Ellen dead in

34:22

the kitchen lying

34:24

in a pool of blood. It's not entirely apparent

34:26

from the nine eleven call

34:29

what position she's in

34:31

at the time. But we can

34:33

see from the crime scene photos associated blood that she

34:36

was on the floor in front of

34:38

the cabinets. It's

34:40

possible she was seated with her back against them

34:42

or even flat on her back.

34:45

But what we can say

34:48

that If she was moved, it was only in terms of

34:50

positioning, and there's no chance the

34:52

crime happened

34:54

elsewhere. Now, she's

34:56

been stabbed twenty times with

34:58

a ten inch serrated kitchen knife

35:00

from the block on the counter, which was

35:02

found tipped over but otherwise undisturbed. Ten

35:06

of the wounds have damaged

35:08

the area on the back of her head

35:10

and neck and there's a

35:12

large deep gash in her

35:14

scalp along with a deep wound

35:16

to the abdomen. The

35:18

remaining eight injuries all consisted

35:20

of stab wounds to the chest area

35:22

with the final one being

35:24

the serrated knife plunged at

35:26

least four inches into her heart.

35:29

And left there with her grip

35:31

still on it. Depending on the

35:33

source, Ellen seems to have possibly

35:35

been either right or left handed

35:37

but what's consistent in the reporting is that

35:39

the knife was found in her non

35:41

dominant hand, which is

35:44

a technique sometimes employed by the rare people who

35:46

stab themselves and then blame someone

35:48

else or make their

35:50

death appear to be as the result

35:52

of someone either as

35:54

a form of revenge or

35:56

simply to diminish the shame

35:58

involved by never allowing anyone

36:00

to definitively

36:02

suggest that it was just a

36:04

suicide. Cindy James is a great example.

36:06

She seemingly perpetrated an entirely

36:10

un substantiated stalking event over a

36:12

long period of time in which a

36:14

phantom repeatedly entered

36:16

her home and

36:18

terrorized her until finally she succumbed to

36:20

him through death. The mentally ill,

36:23

specifically those either on the

36:25

verge of psychosis, or entrenched

36:27

in it manifest the home

36:30

or even just the indoors as

36:32

the brain in the worst

36:34

possible way.

36:36

And therefore, because an emotional life or

36:38

psychological disposition can't be

36:40

seen, neither can the

36:42

perpetrator manifested

36:44

by it. The victim

36:46

is crying out in silence for

36:48

everybody to realize that when there

36:50

is nowhere left to look

36:52

inside the home, the problem

36:54

should be realized as being inside

36:56

her head, but she can't

36:58

tell you she's not willing. If she

37:01

could, you wouldn't have ended up at a place that

37:03

she was communicating through symbolism, which

37:05

is what the psychotic

37:08

often do in the absence

37:10

of truly being able to vail their

37:12

communications in subtext

37:15

and be understood. Accordingly, in this Ellen

37:18

Greenberg case, there's no sign of a

37:20

physical struggle in the kitchen

37:22

despite a stabbing involving

37:24

twenty wounds There are

37:26

no smears from anyone's

37:28

shoes in the blood nor are there

37:30

defensive wounds or foreign DNA

37:32

from strangers anywhere on

37:34

Ellen's body. Furthermore,

37:36

with the bar latch being

37:38

engaged and no sign of entry or

37:40

exit in the fresh snow on the

37:42

balcony or anywhere else, there simply

37:44

doesn't seem to be a way to

37:46

substantiate an intruder. So

37:48

with Cindy James, who is

37:51

strongly rumored to have suffered a

37:53

very abusive childhood in relation to

37:55

a father figure that continued to

37:57

haunt her emotionally

38:00

Preventing her from ever breaking free because she couldn't talk

38:02

about it. We find her

38:05

manifesting a phantom absent embodiment

38:08

to signify the father.

38:10

Each time she tells

38:12

anyone of the man in black, there's

38:14

never any proof he was there. To the

38:17

contrary, what appears to have happened

38:19

in each incident is that

38:22

even though she tried to make it appear like someone

38:24

else hurt her, she

38:26

did it to herself.

38:30

Abused people can often remain loyal to the

38:32

dysfunction into adulthood and

38:34

specifically and most often

38:36

through a conduit

38:38

of secrecy but because

38:40

that secrecy prevents release,

38:43

sometimes people blow and

38:45

that lava comes out. But in

38:47

the own blood. What I

38:50

see here, to this point

38:53

in the story, is an

38:55

evolutionary issue related to transcendence and the father.

38:58

Our entire evolutionary narrative

39:00

is about the absence of

39:03

the father, meaning leaving him at

39:05

the beginning in the infinite loop

39:07

and going back to him at the

39:09

end, having become him by way

39:11

of technology or sophistication

39:14

just like a child growing to an

39:16

adult through the guidance of a parent.

39:18

So no matter what we do in life,

39:21

we can't escape becoming

39:23

the father we left behind

39:25

and repeating that same

39:28

fate eternally. That means

39:30

that if you left an abusive

39:32

father behind by growing up

39:34

physically, he will remain with

39:36

you, disembodied

39:38

thereafter, in that context of the same entity emotionally.

39:40

So if there was

39:42

abuse involved in your childhood,

39:45

combined with that repetition and secrecy

39:47

of which I speak, it

39:49

might later manifest as that

39:52

man coming after

39:54

you physically when he's not really

39:56

there. If we refuse the emotional enlightenment and

39:58

indulge secrecy and denial, fire

40:02

grows down below in our

40:04

unconscious mind due to

40:06

lack of release and makes us

40:08

experience anxiety

40:10

so bad. That will do

40:12

anything to get out

40:14

except break the silence and

40:16

cycle of abuse so that

40:18

red giant grows

40:20

inside you, but specifically

40:22

inside your unconscious mind in

40:24

an effort to precipitate movement

40:28

without explicit

40:31

understanding. Feelings are

40:33

simply emotional weather, so to

40:35

speak, and emotional

40:38

precipitation. And the feeling of anxiety manifested

40:40

is like being on fire,

40:42

you need to get away

40:44

and put out the fire

40:47

but no matter where you run or what

40:50

you do, it just keeps

40:52

on burning because it's really

40:54

inside you. You're

40:56

supposed to be moved to look down

40:58

there, realize the truth,

41:00

and act accordingly. But

41:02

if you're past the point of repair,

41:05

All you'll find is the

41:07

literal version of that through

41:09

a manifestation. So

41:12

James ultimately set

41:14

her basement on fire and

41:16

stood there in the flames screaming

41:18

to be rescued swearing to

41:21

the existence of a phantom man who

41:23

set the blaze but took

41:25

off. When nobody could be

41:27

found, she just pointed to a man

41:29

walking down the street who promptly

41:32

took off running. At

41:34

first, they desperately wanted to

41:36

believe that man was guilty,

41:38

but soon realized he was

41:40

running from her because she was crazy. She was

41:42

psychotic. Whomever that was

41:44

had nothing to do with the

41:48

fire. But look at how

41:50

proximity combined with desperation

41:52

make that man a suspect even

41:54

in a situation in which the

41:58

subject of the complaint is severely mentally

42:00

ill. And here, in

42:03

this story Ellen, What

42:05

we learned is that she was suffering

42:08

from extreme levels of

42:10

anxiety. So as

42:12

Cindy James was unwilling

42:14

to face her demons. She was

42:16

also unwilling to get help

42:18

by default of blaming the

42:20

downfall of her emotional world in

42:22

internally on false considerations based in

42:26

physicality. The person coming to get

42:28

her was in

42:30

the past in form an

42:32

abusive father figure. So

42:34

here, in this case

42:36

involving Ellen Greenberg, the

42:38

source of her mental illness

42:41

which does seem to have

42:43

descended to psychosis, has some sort

42:45

of a correlation to a

42:48

man breaking her heart. It could have

42:50

been in childhood involving a

42:52

male family member, or

42:54

it could have been as recently

42:56

as her relationship with Sam.

42:59

Whatever happened, it was

43:01

painful at first, but just

43:03

a prick. And over time,

43:06

the wounds got deeper

43:08

and deeper. Until finally, the last one

43:10

was the one that killed her. It

43:12

went into her heart. It

43:14

broke her heart. That's

43:17

what happens here There is a very clear narrative

43:19

in that idea. And when we

43:22

examine the numerous wounds around the

43:24

head and neck area of

43:26

Ellen's body, What

43:28

we see is that some of them are

43:30

what we would describe as hesitation wounds,

43:34

meaning the cars of

43:36

stabbing herself induced hesitation

43:38

or perhaps more practically

43:41

conservatism which led her

43:43

to gauge these strikes in

43:45

a manner that she wouldn't do

43:47

one thing in the end, and

43:49

the revelation of it, this

43:52

truth, is so sad from looking

43:54

at the wounds that start

43:56

out pricking her at about

43:58

zero point two centimeters

44:00

and then gradually get deeper

44:02

and deeper. Finally

44:04

rendering death with a single blow to

44:06

the heart. What we

44:08

clearly see is a

44:10

concentrated and

44:12

calculated effort to not

44:14

feel any more pain than

44:16

she had to endure in

44:19

order to bring herself peace.

44:22

So what did Ellen's search history

44:24

reveal on her computer

44:26

just weeks before

44:28

her death? She browsed

44:30

through a website dedicated

44:32

to experiencing a painless

44:35

death through suicide. Even a

44:37

month In December, Ellen searched online for

44:40

suicide methods, even indulging

44:42

the idea of suffocating herself

44:46

by putting a bag over her head. People

44:48

comment about this crime scene

44:50

in the context of there being

44:53

very little blood given the

44:56

intention of a stabbing and

44:58

twenty wounds leading to death

45:00

perpetrated with a

45:02

kitchen knife. And that efficiency is due to the

45:04

perpetrator not using

45:06

one ounce more effort

45:08

than what was necessary because

45:11

it amounted to what?

45:16

Pain. In the weeks leading up to

45:18

her death, Alan even

45:20

began seeing a therapist and

45:22

also started taking medication

45:24

for anxiety, which seemed out

45:27

of control. This is someone headed down the

45:29

drain and desperately fighting her

45:31

inner demons along the way.

45:33

There's no question her struggles were going

45:35

to have a seriously debilitating

45:38

effect on her relationship with

45:40

Sam. And that whatever issues

45:42

arose due to her heightened sensitivity,

45:45

any one of those altercations to

45:48

follow even if minor could have

45:50

sent her over the

45:52

edge. We have to think of the

45:54

cumulative psychological toll

45:56

of her ongoing plight and

45:58

how thinking of suicide but

46:02

not acting built the

46:04

explosion to follow. She

46:06

wanted to go out easily and

46:10

but was pushed to

46:12

greater violence and greater haste because simply

46:14

she was not getting the

46:16

release she needed.

46:18

And so She

46:20

exploded. That became blood.

46:22

Now, the victim always

46:24

tells us that disembodiment was

46:26

in relation to a cleansing in

46:29

the abyss leading to the white

46:32

light and does it through symbolic

46:34

imagery. Even if your

46:36

poor little

46:38

Josephine Otero hanging from a sewer pipe while the

46:40

disgusting BTK master base to

46:42

completion in front of you. Either

46:44

way, the straight line of the

46:46

white light

46:48

symbolizing the father will be present.

46:50

So in this case, while

46:52

Ellen allegedly has one hand

46:54

on the knife in her chest,

46:56

The other is clutching a white towel from the bathroom. So

46:59

if you ask yourself what

47:01

that would be for inside

47:04

the bathroom. I mean, it seems that white towel

47:06

would be to dry yourself after a cleansing

47:08

in the abys of the shower. Or if

47:11

it was a hand towel, cleansing

47:14

and the sink. Now

47:16

in our evolutionary narrative,

47:18

the body or Christ dies

47:20

and we are cleansed of that blood

47:23

over the course of our evolution by

47:25

way of suffering that ultimately

47:28

brings the purity of the

47:30

white light. So here to symbolize that binary

47:32

function, one of Ellen's

47:34

hands holds the knife that

47:36

leads to the suffering and spilling

47:38

of Christ blood

47:40

that facilitates this embodiment

47:42

by crossing the threshold of the holy

47:44

spirit and walking on water.

47:47

You walk on water by

47:49

rising from the abyss cleansed

47:51

of blood or mortality.

47:54

At which point, you ascend

47:56

further to become the straight

47:58

line of the white light.

48:00

So the body of evolution or heart

48:02

is Christ and the disembodied mind that we become ultimately

48:05

is God. Therefore,

48:07

in one hand, Ellen

48:10

symbolizes the killing of the body

48:12

or heart by way of the straight

48:14

line via the knife in

48:16

her chest. And with the

48:18

other hand or binary

48:20

counterpart, on the other side of her

48:22

body, she shows us the result

48:24

of that which is the straight

48:26

white line of the tau to manifest the idea of becoming

48:28

God. In between those

48:32

two places, in the

48:34

middle just as would happen with

48:36

Christ crossing the threshold and becoming

48:38

the holy spirit, her dead

48:40

body would

48:42

decompose entirely if left there long

48:44

enough, satisfying the idea

48:46

of disembodiment but in a

48:48

manifested physical way. So, We

48:51

have a complete evolutionary narrative

48:54

apparent here on the floor. We

48:56

can see what she was trying

48:58

to do. Now on our bodies,

49:00

action or manifestation of

49:02

ourself visually occurs

49:04

below the mind in the body.

49:08

Action is the what, specifically what

49:11

happened. Yet above in

49:13

our brains is where

49:15

we know, why. Therefore

49:18

since this is manifested in

49:20

physicality, we'll find that

49:22

truth above the bridge, so to

49:24

speak, or above

49:26

the surface or above the place where the body gets

49:28

left behind in the

49:30

abyss. Here, that's the

49:32

countertop. Below is the

49:34

dead body just like

49:36

Christ gets left down in the abyss

49:38

as a mortal human and

49:40

rises as a deity

49:42

to disappear. So here

49:44

on the counter is where we

49:46

find what Ellen was doing before she

49:48

died. Symbolic

49:50

imagery will tell us why this event happened. And again,

49:52

we have to get out our emotional

49:54

mirror. Now, what I

49:56

believe most likely happened here is

49:59

that these two had some type of climactic

50:02

argument that both emotionally and

50:04

physically, yet for the same

50:06

purpose, drove them apart.

50:08

Here we go. On the

50:10

counter above Ellen, we have a

50:12

large amount of fruit.

50:14

So right away, the

50:16

manifestation of the abundance

50:18

of fruit tells us to look in the emotional mirror,

50:20

and what we'll see being

50:22

hidden is a truth that

50:24

something on an

50:26

emotional level is not

50:28

bearing fruit in this

50:30

home. So what might it be?

50:32

Let's concentrate on the

50:34

fruit Ellen has actually

50:36

been engaging as the shapes, AKA symbols she

50:38

indulges in construction will guide

50:40

us to correlations with rational

50:42

ideas derived from reason

50:44

and logic.

50:46

So the first thing we see in that regard is an

50:48

orange that has specifically been

50:50

peeled and then cut in

50:54

half. What is being conveyed here is that

50:56

when the protective layer of the emotional

50:59

wound or lie was

51:02

favor of the truth

51:04

below, it caused a having

51:06

or split between two

51:09

previously connected elements serving as

51:12

one unit. The cutting of

51:14

an r engine two once

51:17

peeled is acknowledgment of permanent

51:19

disunity caused by a lie. So

51:21

what we see in the fact that the orange peel

51:23

has been removed is not only just

51:25

that a lie has been exposed as

51:27

the raw vulnerable

51:30

truth beneath, but that the circle or peel

51:33

has been broken. A broken

51:36

circle is indicative of a broken

51:38

bond, so

51:40

it isn't any surprise that Ellen had taken off her

51:42

engagement ring and left it in

51:44

the bedroom right before the incident.

51:46

The split in question relates

51:50

to the couple. Now, as the circle is the home

51:53

in our evolutionary narrative and

51:55

moving along the color

51:57

scale toward red, while

52:00

expanding indicates the end, we

52:02

should see a manifestation of

52:05

reducing that red circle and

52:08

taking it back across

52:10

the color scale to a place

52:12

conducive to a fresh

52:14

start or something

52:16

new, meaning starting anew. And of course, we would

52:18

want an abundance of that

52:20

in our lives, yet to

52:22

get there to have

52:24

those fresh starts, we

52:26

constantly have to be cleansed of the

52:28

expanding red giant over

52:31

and over. The red giant, like the fire

52:33

in Cindy James' basement,

52:36

precipitates the truth by

52:38

forcing tragic

52:40

fate if there's a fire in your basement, you have to run up

52:42

the fucking stairs and out of the

52:44

house. And that's basically how

52:48

sociopath or even somebody

52:50

psychotic, jail breaks a criminal act in which symbolism

52:52

is employed rather than

52:55

reason than logic. So

52:58

here, the circle, so to speak,

53:00

on the counter, starts as

53:02

a very large circle that

53:04

has nearly

53:06

grown red in the form of the orange. And of

53:08

course, it's an orange

53:10

giant rather than a red one because what

53:12

it's saying is that this

53:14

act is going to precipitate the

53:16

next increment on the color

53:18

scale, which moving in that direction

53:20

from orange

53:22

would be. Red, and so the red giant is coming

53:24

next. This is foreshadowing

53:26

the red giant. And of course, that happens.

53:29

She spills her blood right after this.

53:32

Okay. So let's just give a quick

53:34

example of how

53:36

evolution uses the breaking or peeling of the circle.

53:38

For instance, in the

53:41

legendary nineteen eighties

53:43

movie silver bullet, the

53:45

horror movie, which is based on the Stephen King graphic

53:48

novel, we have a

53:50

young protagonist who is in

53:52

a wheelchair. And

53:54

there's a girl who likes him. And of

53:56

course, she's not in a wheelchair. And so when

53:58

her father sees her with

54:00

him, he thinks poorly

54:02

of this and he

54:04

comments to her about how she shouldn't

54:06

be hanging out with him. And of

54:08

course, that's a very

54:10

primitive way of behaving and he needs to evolve and so

54:12

what happens is that since

54:14

he's wrestling with this in

54:16

his mind, he

54:18

then goes into the house and he's watching a wrestling

54:21

match on TV. He

54:23

suddenly hears noises outside,

54:26

meaning, noises in his head, and he goes outside

54:28

to the greenhouse. And when

54:30

going in, he realizes that

54:35

it seems like the plants are shaking.

54:37

Right? There are these green

54:39

plants or green growth hanging

54:42

above, meaning

54:44

suspension, and they're in these orange pots.

54:46

And suddenly, these pots start

54:48

falling off the growth. They

54:51

start falling off the plants. They're

54:54

breaking, just peeling off like

54:56

the orange peels, and they're falling

54:58

to the ground. And what's happening is

55:00

that these horrors are

55:02

manifesting to say dude, you need to change, you need

55:04

to take off that protective layer

55:06

because the idea is that as we

55:08

evolve, we

55:10

move away from being

55:12

the beast and toward

55:14

being the light. And

55:16

so basically, he's at a

55:18

greenhouse and above him is only light

55:20

and transparency, meaning universal

55:22

truth and the light of God. And

55:24

here we have this growth

55:27

telling him you have to

55:29

break the orange circle because if you

55:31

don't, what happens next is gonna be

55:33

the red circle or the red giant.

55:35

And so he's looking at these potted

55:37

plants breaking, and he's not getting it.

55:39

And so because he's not getting it

55:41

just like in this case

55:43

we're talking about, The next thing that's

55:45

gonna come is deaf. And what happens is the abyss

55:48

which is below the

55:50

floorboards, a

55:52

werewolf blades right up through the boards and drags

55:54

him down into the abyss and

55:56

kills him. And so that's symbolically

55:58

saying that he remained

56:02

the beast and so he's being pulled

56:04

back down into the abyss rather than rising

56:06

by being accepting of the kid in

56:08

the wheelchair and saying, hey, that's great

56:11

a year with him. He seems like a great kid. So

56:14

he was wrestling with the idea

56:16

of trying to evolve

56:18

or not and since

56:20

he did not act and he's just

56:22

sitting there, nature precipitates

56:24

a circumstance in which he

56:26

has to get up and go deal

56:28

with this physically, and because

56:30

he doesn't get the message, he

56:32

doesn't read the symbolic advertisement. One

56:34

ends up happening as he gets

56:36

killed. Because he never

56:39

moves emotionally. So once

56:41

the truth is forced out about

56:43

the split, by way of

56:45

the red or achieving release such as when we

56:47

have a really bad argument with a

56:50

significant other that leads to a terrible

56:52

revelation putting the relationship at

56:54

risk of

56:56

a split. Sometimes the truth that has been

56:58

revealed makes moving forward

57:01

irreconcilable against the work it

57:03

would take to get there. Or

57:05

the work it would take to reduce the

57:08

expanding red giant or

57:10

circle of

57:12

the past. So think of a fruit that needs to be consumed very

57:14

fresh, meaning it can't build

57:16

up its outside armor or protective

57:19

layer of lies, that

57:21

hides what's vulnerable beneath. So

57:24

if you're eating it, you're always

57:26

getting a fresh start. Now

57:30

again, think of something that's

57:32

blue, like the blue shifted light

57:34

we talked about that

57:36

signifies what's coming toward us, AKA,

57:38

the future, or what's new. And

57:40

because that new light or

57:43

future is represented by blue,

57:45

it's also much cooler like

57:47

calming from an argument when compared

57:49

emotionally. And like I said, reduced greatly

57:51

in size. Now, that

57:53

argument leading to the removal of

57:55

the engagement ring would

57:57

have taken place as a result

58:00

of strain on the

58:02

relationship requiring a fresh

58:04

start. So what we see here

58:06

on the counter is a

58:08

strainer full of blueberries

58:10

that has already gone through a

58:12

cleansing. It's an endless bowl

58:14

of symbolic

58:16

fresh starts. Yet it's bullshit because it's the

58:18

manifested equivalent of the

58:20

emotional issue that's

58:22

consuming Ellen. Therefore,

58:24

she manifest the idea

58:26

of consuming it instead, allowing

58:28

herself to believe the relationship will

58:31

bear fruit in a fresh start

58:34

once they cool off and begin

58:36

anew. It's what she's

58:38

trying to believe here even if

58:40

only on an intuitive level and

58:42

not rationally, yet blueberries

58:44

aren't going to save anyone's

58:46

relationship. To the contrary, guess

58:49

what these berries are known

58:52

for. Blueberries have one

58:54

prominent health benefit that is

58:56

advertised above and beyond

58:58

any other consider They improve

59:01

arterial flow, which is

59:03

another obvious way of saying

59:05

they increase your blood

59:07

flow. And what happens next even before

59:09

the blueberries can be eaten

59:11

is that Ellen's blood flows

59:13

all over the floor. Now,

59:16

the seam will also tell us

59:18

where the problem really was.

59:21

So if we ask what type of fruit is

59:23

most often used to describe a human

59:26

head that would be

59:28

a melon. And here

59:30

we have a melon sitting next to

59:32

the knife block that's knocked

59:34

over, which makes it appear as

59:36

though the straight lines of

59:38

the knives stuck inside just like the stab wounds

59:40

below on Ellen are

59:42

aimed at the melon even

59:44

seemingly going

59:46

through it at that

59:48

angle. What is being said

59:50

symbolically is that the

59:52

circle that needed to be broken was an

59:54

emotional cycle inside of

59:56

her head. Which is normally indicative

59:59

of abuse. You have to

1:00:01

use the ascending straight line

1:00:03

of evolution to break the

1:00:05

cycle. So the theme of the symbolic

1:00:07

imagery found on the counter above

1:00:09

Ellen and physicality is

1:00:12

bearing fruit. Which means

1:00:14

the truth beneath that

1:00:16

protective layer or lie,

1:00:18

like the shedding of the orange

1:00:20

peel and having of the

1:00:22

fruit inside is the

1:00:24

opposite according to the

1:00:26

emotional mirror in the sense

1:00:28

that it was a lie. The

1:00:30

relationship was no longer

1:00:32

bearing fruit. So she

1:00:34

manifested that idea. But

1:00:36

we can see from this setup that she

1:00:38

desperately wanted her relationship to

1:00:40

Bear fruit, she simply did not have

1:00:43

an emotional solution. And because

1:00:45

she had no emotional

1:00:48

solutions left,

1:00:50

we see what would happen in the aftermath, which is a

1:00:52

physical solution and that took

1:00:54

place. The fact that her

1:00:56

relationship was no longer

1:00:58

bearing fruit, was consuming

1:01:00

her inside emotionally, and so

1:01:02

she decided to reverse course and

1:01:05

manifest the consumption of

1:01:08

born fruit outside physically again to

1:01:10

manifest false balance, but

1:01:12

it's a lie. So you can see

1:01:14

why she was moved to take a

1:01:18

more dream measure. Now, if she

1:01:20

manifests a sentient or

1:01:22

going up

1:01:24

by disembodying, through a

1:01:26

cleansing, then what we understand

1:01:28

from the orange structurally

1:01:30

is that Sam must separate and

1:01:32

go down in his effort to manifest a cleansing

1:01:35

that will bring a fresh

1:01:37

start, except men think

1:01:39

a little differently. We think in

1:01:41

a context of architecture most

1:01:44

times, meaning we build what

1:01:46

needs to be manifested,

1:01:48

but also fix the structure of things that are

1:01:50

broken. So in this instance,

1:01:52

we should see Sam espousing

1:01:54

physical manifestations

1:01:56

of the ideas of both building and repairing something. And

1:01:59

since men think in the

1:02:01

context of physical strength, due

1:02:04

to our evolutionary past, it will be in a

1:02:07

context of getting stronger. So

1:02:09

we have to ask, what is

1:02:11

the male version

1:02:14

of the strainer here. How is Sam going

1:02:16

to manifest the idea

1:02:18

of reducing that stress or

1:02:22

strain AKA reducing the

1:02:24

emotional red giant. Well,

1:02:26

just like Ellen seems to want to

1:02:28

heal the

1:02:30

Sam is going to tell us through his actions that he wants

1:02:32

to work things out. Therefore,

1:02:34

he literally goes downstairs

1:02:36

in the opposite direction separating

1:02:40

from her like the orange heves once

1:02:42

the truth has come out. And

1:02:44

this manifesting reconciliation

1:02:47

by doing something literally called working

1:02:50

out. And strangely, he's wearing

1:02:52

timberlands at the time, which are

1:02:54

styled in the form of

1:02:56

construction boots.

1:02:58

You put them on with the intention of building something or

1:03:00

going to work on something. They

1:03:02

take you through the place. It's as

1:03:04

tough as to walk in life. And

1:03:07

that's what he's saying here. Sam

1:03:10

is going to work things

1:03:12

out with Ellen so they can build

1:03:14

something together. But first,

1:03:16

he needs to undergo the cleansing of the red giant to

1:03:18

cool off. So for him, it

1:03:20

isn't the orange is leading

1:03:22

to blueberries, It's

1:03:24

the expansion of his muscles through activities like

1:03:26

running and lifting weights, which cause

1:03:29

what? We know it has to

1:03:31

be the same as what Ellen

1:03:33

is experiencing. Right? But they're

1:03:35

gonna be on opposite side, so

1:03:37

she's gonna have improved

1:03:39

arterial flow out inside the body and he will

1:03:41

mirror that with his improved arterial

1:03:44

flow within the

1:03:46

body. So

1:03:48

Improved arterial flow to the necessary

1:03:50

places inside you precipitates

1:03:53

healing that specifically makes

1:03:56

you grow. Stronger.

1:03:58

But you can only run-in

1:04:00

place at the gym. You

1:04:02

don't go anywhere. And no

1:04:04

matter how much you lift, or how

1:04:07

often the strength will only be physical. And

1:04:09

so here, Sam is taking

1:04:11

the same route of

1:04:14

indulging physicality rather than

1:04:16

an emotional solution. So

1:04:19

when Ellen tries to manifest

1:04:21

her ascension from the abyss, it's

1:04:23

only physical, which means when

1:04:26

Sam rises after his workout,

1:04:28

the ascent will happen simply

1:04:30

by way of

1:04:32

the elevator. And emotionally, he will have gone

1:04:34

absolutely nowhere at all. That's

1:04:36

what happens. He goes

1:04:38

up only in the form of

1:04:40

going up on the elevator and comes

1:04:43

back to the apartment. Obviously, there's no way

1:04:45

for us to know exact what

1:04:48

took place prior to the death in question, but I

1:04:50

think the following information offers a

1:04:53

clue. Now, here's where it

1:04:55

gets strange, or I

1:04:58

should say, it already got strange because unbeknownst to

1:05:00

anyone else at that moment of

1:05:02

truth, Sam has already made a

1:05:04

phone call and received one

1:05:06

in return.

1:05:08

Which draws a lot of suspicion. Before

1:05:10

Sam broke down the door or

1:05:12

showed any level of concern for

1:05:15

the horrors inside, he apparently

1:05:18

used his cell phone to not

1:05:20

only call a good friend, but

1:05:23

to subsequently answer a call

1:05:25

soon after, from that guy's father who was

1:05:27

an attorney. So after

1:05:30

the gym and

1:05:32

the texting, when it becomes apparent the door need be

1:05:34

broken down. Sam first

1:05:36

calls a contact who then seems

1:05:38

to get in touch with his father

1:05:42

an attorney. But the big question is this, of

1:05:44

course. Why does Sam need

1:05:46

an attorney at this point? He

1:05:50

hasn't even expressed an

1:05:52

inclination to believe something is

1:05:54

wrong. He's not

1:05:56

acting urgently and that makes us wonder if it's because he

1:05:58

already knew there was a

1:06:00

problem, a big one, in fact,

1:06:02

because he caused it in

1:06:04

the form. Of

1:06:06

murder. Now, we could

1:06:08

say that Sam killed Ellen

1:06:10

and simply cleaned up

1:06:12

before leaving only to

1:06:14

return to a staged

1:06:16

accident, one he wanted the doorman

1:06:18

to find with him so the

1:06:20

doorman could validate that the bar

1:06:22

latch was not broken.

1:06:24

It sounds perfectly reasonable, but

1:06:26

from start to finish in this

1:06:29

case, nobody seems to substantiate

1:06:31

a notion of murder passed the potential

1:06:34

for it. There just isn't

1:06:36

any solid evidence that a murder

1:06:38

was committed unless you

1:06:40

want to examine the prophecies of

1:06:42

medical experts rather than the

1:06:44

realities of

1:06:46

what occurred. The danger in having experts look

1:06:48

at wounds postmortem is

1:06:50

that they can make no allowance for the

1:06:52

victim's unique experience in

1:06:54

their assessment.

1:06:56

Their assessment is born of generality, which is

1:06:58

the safe and effective play. But it

1:07:00

also means that in times of

1:07:04

exceptional circumstances, we can end up

1:07:06

with assertions of impossibility

1:07:08

and situations in which it

1:07:10

simply cannot be measured in a manner

1:07:13

that excludes possibility. Alan

1:07:16

received a wound to her spinal

1:07:18

cord due to one of the

1:07:20

stabs that a medical examiner deemed

1:07:23

consistent with paralysis that would

1:07:26

prevent further motion. And

1:07:28

therefore, that set off a

1:07:30

firestorm of people believing that we

1:07:32

would have a completely

1:07:34

disabled victim being stabbed to death leading to a crime

1:07:36

scene absent of struggle. That's

1:07:38

a little ridiculous.

1:07:40

Possible? Yes.

1:07:42

Of course, but we don't have enough in the way of entering an

1:07:44

exit along with the stabbing

1:07:47

itself to suggest the

1:07:49

presence of an intruder even

1:07:51

if that intruder is Sam

1:07:54

himself. The perfection that would

1:07:56

have had to accompany his

1:07:58

movements is off the

1:08:00

charts. So I believe

1:08:02

Sam didn't find Ellen

1:08:04

until breaking down the door.

1:08:06

But given the fact he already

1:08:08

called an attorney, It seems

1:08:10

clear he was concerned about

1:08:12

liability, which at its

1:08:14

core asserts that he knew the likelihood of

1:08:16

what had

1:08:18

happened. I believe he very

1:08:20

simply suspected that she had taken

1:08:22

her life either because she

1:08:24

had threatened it right before

1:08:27

he left. Or was otherwise in very bad shape psychologically at

1:08:29

that point, meaning at the culmination

1:08:31

of an argument. And

1:08:34

he feared the consequences of

1:08:37

forcefully breaking down a door with a dead

1:08:39

woman behind it for reasons any innocent person probably

1:08:42

shouldn't have to explain

1:08:45

beyond the idea that it would look

1:08:47

like a maniac barged in an attacker. And if that maniac is

1:08:52

you, the police might not look

1:08:54

for anyone else, so you better think carefully about how you approach this. That's

1:08:58

clearly why Sam wants

1:09:01

someone meaning the doorman to accompany him as he breaks

1:09:03

down the door because that will verify

1:09:05

that it was not

1:09:08

broken down until

1:09:10

they both had arrived and verified

1:09:13

it to be true.

1:09:15

Instead, Sam does it as

1:09:17

lightly as possible, breaking the

1:09:19

door barely and leaving many to wonder if it

1:09:21

had ever been broken down at

1:09:24

all. It's

1:09:26

been so gested that he might have just walked

1:09:28

in and out freely and caused

1:09:30

the damage of his own volition

1:09:33

in the aftermath to fool the

1:09:35

police. But if he went down to the doorman and

1:09:37

the doorman accepted only to

1:09:39

find the door

1:09:42

already broken down, it would be game over for Sam.

1:09:44

So I truly doubt he did

1:09:46

that. I believe the reality of

1:09:49

what likely occurred in

1:09:51

terms of a suicide dawned

1:09:53

on Sam as he grew

1:09:55

impatient. It's even possible that Ellen had become so angry

1:10:00

that she set him up to break

1:10:02

down the door in a situation in which her suicide would then seem

1:10:06

to be murdered. Then the neighbors would hear him

1:10:08

yelling and banging on the door

1:10:10

and finally breaking it down before

1:10:13

she ends up dead. It's certainly not

1:10:16

kind to speculate that a victim might

1:10:18

have been thinking such a bad thing,

1:10:20

but in the heat

1:10:22

of the moment, it's realistic. I honestly

1:10:24

think she was manifesting the idea of

1:10:26

killing herself physically so that when Sam

1:10:29

arrived to find

1:10:31

her dead of stab wounds, he

1:10:33

could see how he killed her over time, starting with those

1:10:35

little pricks and finally

1:10:39

breaking her heart. And when

1:10:41

it comes to help, it happens too late when he comes to break down the door. So it

1:10:43

almost seems like Sam

1:10:46

has been set up to

1:10:49

experience an emotional narrative based in the symbolism of what she's

1:10:51

trying to say. These

1:10:56

death seems are always intended

1:10:58

for an audience, whether it's a lover or the police. But either

1:11:00

way, in the

1:11:03

end, you'll know how

1:11:06

they died and why? If

1:11:08

he came to realize why he

1:11:10

had been locked out and tried

1:11:13

to rush in to save

1:11:15

her, it would be too late. And right there is

1:11:17

the ugly motive for most

1:11:19

violent incidents like

1:11:22

this even when it's suicide and

1:11:25

not murder. Revenge. I

1:11:28

think this result was

1:11:30

rendered by it emotionally. It reckons silible

1:11:32

relationship that ran its course. And that

1:11:34

angle is being suppressed by the surviving fiancee, Sam,

1:11:39

in an effort to limit or even negate his

1:11:41

liability in the matter. If

1:11:43

he was found to

1:11:45

have driven her to this ending,

1:11:47

In any way, there could be culpability, whether in a criminal sense

1:11:50

or even just in terms of

1:11:52

incurring civil

1:11:55

penalties. So let's quickly talk about the content of the nine eleven call,

1:11:57

and I think what we'll see is

1:12:00

someone who is desperately avoiding

1:12:02

knowledge of the situation at hand

1:12:05

because he doesn't want to admit anything over

1:12:07

the phone. The less he knows and professes to

1:12:10

know on the call,

1:12:13

The better. It is so obvious this

1:12:15

person spoke to an attorney beforehand because he

1:12:17

is going to proceed

1:12:19

to deny some fairly

1:12:22

obvious elements that are apparent.

1:12:25

But I think what I really

1:12:27

find bothers is that most people

1:12:29

look at this case And instead of considering

1:12:31

that he has already talked to an

1:12:33

attorney, they're like, oh my god.

1:12:36

The nine eleven call

1:12:38

is so strange and it's not. It's

1:12:40

not strange at all. It is

1:12:42

perfectly in alignment with what an attorney would

1:12:44

tell you to

1:12:47

do in situation which is to

1:12:49

faint as much ignorance as possible and to say

1:12:51

as little as you could possibly say on

1:12:55

the nine eleven call. That's what he

1:12:57

does. It isn't mysterious. It isn't

1:12:59

strange. It is strategic.

1:13:02

But to a certain extent,

1:13:04

It's also bullshit because what he's

1:13:06

doing instead of telling the full serve is trying to limit his liability. So

1:13:12

for instance, he is just going

1:13:14

to happen to not notice the knife buried in Ellen's chest. Sam

1:13:16

goes through the

1:13:19

nine eleven call, with a strong

1:13:22

and apparent desire to limit his liability as much as possible. In terms

1:13:24

of saying what he knows

1:13:26

on a recorded phone call, but

1:13:30

I think we'll see that

1:13:32

his selfishness stems from being in

1:13:34

survival mode. Once Ellen is dead,

1:13:38

and he's left under suspicion,

1:13:40

his greater concern is no

1:13:42

longer her, but availing himself

1:13:45

of suspicion and we hear it in

1:13:47

his answers. Again, as selfish as

1:13:49

it sounds, it's still true that

1:13:52

once Ellen is dead, which she

1:13:54

obviously was by that time,

1:13:56

the only person Sam

1:13:58

could save was himself.

1:14:00

Despite anything he did

1:14:02

wrong, he had every reason to believe he

1:14:04

should limit his liability in

1:14:07

the event someone had died

1:14:09

inside the apartment. I mean,

1:14:11

if she was searching the Internet

1:14:14

for ways to suffocate herself a month prior to her death and

1:14:17

already browsing

1:14:20

euthanasia info. It's

1:14:22

very likely Sam knew of her worsening mental illness and that she was on the brink

1:14:28

of disaster. When he only

1:14:30

got silence upon knocking on that door, his intuition

1:14:33

kicked in and

1:14:36

he knew She was

1:14:38

dead from suicide. I have literally been in this position. I have been that person

1:14:43

at the door with somebody dead on

1:14:46

the other side from his suicide. I know what this is like. And when you knock on

1:14:48

that door, you

1:14:51

fucking know it. And what's

1:14:53

also terrifying is that you're like shit. I have to go in there. And if this

1:14:56

person who has been severely mentally

1:14:58

ill for a very long time

1:15:00

and title

1:15:03

is dead, that could cause

1:15:05

liability for me. Right?

1:15:08

People look out for

1:15:10

themselves in a context of survival

1:15:12

when they are no longer able to

1:15:14

help the other person. So when I

1:15:16

went to the door and knocked on

1:15:19

it and couldn't go inside, my

1:15:23

concern became my liability

1:15:25

because I was trained over

1:15:27

the course of years

1:15:30

to understand that one day when I came home,

1:15:32

my severely mentally ill alcoholic mother

1:15:34

would be dead of a suicide.

1:15:37

I always knew that. It was just

1:15:39

a matter of what day it was going

1:15:41

to be. There were many times where I

1:15:44

walked in and there was

1:15:46

either a suicide and planning or one that had failed because she passed

1:15:48

out from being drunk

1:15:51

or anything in between. And

1:15:54

so when you live this kind

1:15:56

of life and you come home to

1:15:58

your door and you don't know that

1:16:00

you can actually walk inside and find

1:16:03

everybody alive, you do start to think about things like

1:16:05

your own survival and your

1:16:07

own liability because you

1:16:11

have already been down the road with

1:16:13

this person who can't be

1:16:15

fixed. You just

1:16:18

know it. So I don't see Sam's behavior as

1:16:20

that straight. I see it as

1:16:22

intentional. He is trying to limit

1:16:27

potential liability. So when Sam spoke with that

1:16:29

attorney, undoubtedly he was told

1:16:31

to limit what he

1:16:34

said to nine eleven in the strictest possible terms,

1:16:36

the foremost consideration of

1:16:38

which would be to

1:16:41

know how

1:16:44

she died. So in the call, Sam

1:16:46

seemingly pretends to not see the knife and moves forward under

1:16:48

an assumption that

1:16:51

she hit her head. Which

1:16:53

is plausible even if only barely because she truly

1:16:55

does have a bleeding gash on her head

1:16:57

that could lead one to

1:16:59

believe she fell. Yet,

1:17:02

there's a ten inch steak

1:17:04

knife buried in her chest and Sam

1:17:06

makes no mention of it as

1:17:09

though he doesn't see it, which

1:17:11

is total bullshit. He's trying to

1:17:13

get them to come out without

1:17:15

telling them she's been stabbed

1:17:17

because a stabbing makes it seem

1:17:19

as though he's guilty, especially with the

1:17:22

door broken down. So

1:17:24

he says there's a lot

1:17:26

of blood and she's on the

1:17:28

floor. Something that

1:17:30

leads him to believe she might have hit her head. He doesn't want to say what happened.

1:17:32

Right? Because in

1:17:35

this context, it can still

1:17:39

look like an accident until they come

1:17:41

to their own conclusions when

1:17:43

they arrive. Yet, what he

1:17:45

doesn't see coming is that If a

1:17:47

person hits her head and subsequently loses

1:17:49

blood and consciousness, the nine

1:17:52

eleven operator is likely

1:17:54

to request that the caller

1:17:56

performs CPR, which is just

1:17:58

a bit difficult given the big fucking knife in her chest.

1:18:04

So when the nine eleven

1:18:06

operator says, let's do CPR, Sam actually asks

1:18:09

if he

1:18:12

has to. He really does that. Meaning,

1:18:14

am I obligated to help my dying fiancee

1:18:16

I found bloodied

1:18:19

on the floor? It's so incented if

1:18:22

you can't even believe what you're hearing, but the point is this. If he

1:18:25

says he'll

1:18:28

do CPR, not only is he going

1:18:30

to have to touch the victim's chest, right where the knife handle is essentially

1:18:33

implicating himself with

1:18:36

physical evidence but he's

1:18:38

also going to have to tell the operator that the knife is there, which he doesn't want

1:18:40

to do because then

1:18:42

it will require an explanation

1:18:47

in a circumstance in which he's been told

1:18:49

to feign as much ignorance

1:18:51

as possible. Yet once

1:18:53

the operator says, let's

1:18:56

do CPR, and he feels

1:18:58

obligated. It creates an end game in which he has to mention the knife

1:19:00

to get out

1:19:03

of doing said CPR and

1:19:05

touching the victim where that knife handle is buried. So

1:19:07

he suddenly pretends in like

1:19:09

the manner of an epiphany

1:19:12

that he just

1:19:14

realized, oh my god, there's a

1:19:17

ten inch knife in Ellen's chest,

1:19:19

like he somehow didn't see it

1:19:21

before. And the operator proceeds

1:19:23

to, of course, tell him that

1:19:25

he should now refrain from the CPR and stop touching the victim

1:19:28

altogether, which is

1:19:30

exactly what he wants. He

1:19:34

then says she must have

1:19:36

fallen on the knife and then

1:19:38

modifies that to say she

1:19:41

could have stabbed herself. Clearly,

1:19:43

behaving like this is going to

1:19:45

draw a lot of suspicion as we

1:19:47

can see he's in

1:19:49

survival mode in one form or

1:19:52

another. But here's the thing.

1:19:54

The physical evidence in no

1:19:57

way show that he has modified

1:19:59

or manipulated the story. Rather, it's only in the telling that we

1:20:01

appear to witness evasion

1:20:03

on his part. Now,

1:20:07

one of the elements that prevent some

1:20:09

from seeing this as a

1:20:12

suicide is the

1:20:14

appearance of wounds on both the front

1:20:16

and back of the victim. Like,

1:20:18

would she really stab herself in the

1:20:20

back of the head and neck?

1:20:22

Yes. Let's consider horror

1:20:24

movies for a moment, particularly

1:20:26

the ones involving slashers. The

1:20:29

killer is most often seen first in

1:20:31

the film as being behind

1:20:34

the victim. Foreshadowing wants

1:20:37

to come when they next meet face

1:20:40

to face instead. The reason

1:20:42

for this is that when

1:20:44

you manifest the emotional idea

1:20:46

of past, present, and future in

1:20:49

a physical human body.

1:20:51

What's behind is the past

1:20:53

where you stand is the

1:20:56

present or perpetual now and

1:20:58

in front is the future. So on an emotional level, what

1:21:02

happens to us is that an issue from past follows

1:21:04

us into the future and

1:21:06

by lurking behind us before

1:21:11

catching up. And then when that problem catches up, it

1:21:13

follows us into the future,

1:21:15

trying to kill

1:21:18

us, chasing us down, while we run always putting it

1:21:20

behind us again. Now,

1:21:22

let's use a prominent

1:21:24

horror movie to

1:21:27

provide an example one that includes a

1:21:29

cleansing at a kitchen countertop performed by a killer who comes both

1:21:32

from behind

1:21:35

and the front to trap the

1:21:38

final girl where she stands in the perpetual now or at the

1:21:40

present. In scream,

1:21:43

the original movie What

1:21:45

was initially believed to be one killer turns out to be two at

1:21:47

the end when

1:21:51

the protagonist Sydney finally

1:21:53

confront them outside the kitchen. One is in front of her and

1:21:55

the other behind, no

1:21:58

matter which way she

1:22:00

turns, Sydney

1:22:02

runs into the kitchen and

1:22:04

goes straight to the countertop,

1:22:07

specifically in the spot where

1:22:09

the dishwasher is located. And

1:22:11

hunches over with one arm crossed

1:22:13

over her lower abdomen. What

1:22:15

the universe is

1:22:17

saying in symbolic imagery using the

1:22:19

dishwasher which holds cleansed white circles

1:22:22

is that you can't cleanse

1:22:24

the circle to

1:22:26

make it white, you must break the circle to

1:22:28

make it the straight line, and the only

1:22:30

way to do so is through extraction

1:22:33

of the womb. So again, the straight

1:22:35

line of her forearm defensively covers

1:22:37

the womb. That happens through

1:22:40

a disembodiment process

1:22:42

involving AI. But since Sydney is refusing to evolve,

1:22:44

the manifested horrors of her

1:22:46

past and future selves come

1:22:49

looking for her to force in tragic

1:22:52

fate what she refused emotionally and

1:22:54

do so by way of the

1:22:56

straight line or

1:22:59

the knife and gun. So as she

1:23:01

stands against the countertop, she has Billy behind

1:23:03

her with a knife and stew in

1:23:05

front of her with a gun,

1:23:07

both threatening to kill

1:23:10

her. But then those two come

1:23:12

together in front of her,

1:23:14

literally merging until they touch

1:23:17

Wintry their heads side by side

1:23:19

suggesting that they have become one entity

1:23:22

from two separate entities.

1:23:24

And this is the

1:23:27

past and future merging in

1:23:29

the now to bring tragic fate. And so the

1:23:31

last thing they have to do since

1:23:33

the two of them have

1:23:36

already merged is

1:23:39

to get inside her, meaning with

1:23:41

the knife or the gun,

1:23:44

which is a metaphor

1:23:46

to scribing the fact that both

1:23:48

Billy and Stu specifically

1:23:50

committed this crime because

1:23:52

they wanted Sydney for

1:23:54

sex and couldn't have her. So

1:23:56

it's a failed transcendence narrative. They're

1:23:58

failing to become the father. Using two

1:24:01

teen guys as

1:24:04

opposing ideals of not

1:24:06

being able to get inside her, meaning one can't get inside her because she's approved

1:24:08

and the other

1:24:11

because she's not interested manifests

1:24:14

the idea of the protagonist not being willing to submit her authentic

1:24:16

self, so it's come

1:24:19

time to force change. behind

1:24:24

or the past and in front

1:24:26

or the future and then merge

1:24:31

with Sydney in the present perpetual now, all while telling

1:24:33

her they're going to kill her

1:24:35

by getting inside her with

1:24:37

this straight line of the

1:24:39

knife and gun precipitating

1:24:42

the necessary release of the Red Giant. So since they, past and present

1:24:48

have merged, all that's left to

1:24:50

do now that they've converged upon the target or the perpetual now

1:24:53

is to get

1:24:56

inside her or merge with her

1:24:58

to become one, which is dealt with here in the context of becoming

1:25:00

the father as

1:25:03

they've kidnapped hers and

1:25:06

made him disappear. So Sydney fights back, changes and slays the emotional

1:25:08

demons, so to

1:25:11

speak, from the past, ensuring

1:25:14

that the future is corrected as

1:25:17

well. Therefore, in her

1:25:20

narrative, Billy and Stu, AKA,

1:25:22

past and future, are killed and disappear absent

1:25:24

those horrors, while in Ellen's

1:25:27

narrative, in this case,

1:25:29

she didn't fight

1:25:31

back, and therefore, when

1:25:34

she was found since it was

1:25:36

an emotional issue, those manifested killers with

1:25:38

the knife were no longer present because

1:25:42

they had merged with her, AKA,

1:25:45

killed her. So instead,

1:25:47

all we find is her

1:25:50

dead body. So instead of Sydney living,

1:25:52

we have Ellen Dead. Again,

1:25:54

Sydney realizes the killer in

1:25:56

front of her and then

1:25:59

sees the one behind which causes her to

1:26:01

turn again and subsequently realized that either way she

1:26:03

goes in trying to run will

1:26:05

take her right back to

1:26:08

the problem. The lesson

1:26:10

is this. The only way out is through. That's how you break the

1:26:13

circle with the

1:26:16

straight line. And so

1:26:18

with the heart symbolizing the body of Christ and the straight line of emotional

1:26:20

evolution, the only

1:26:23

way to transcend Ellen

1:26:26

chooses the shortcut of putting

1:26:29

a blade, the straight line,

1:26:31

through her heart, the red

1:26:33

giant in its form of a

1:26:35

circle to compensate and symbolic imagery. Her way

1:26:37

out, though a physical option rather than due

1:26:39

to emotional change, still

1:26:43

came as a matter of going right

1:26:45

through to get out of

1:26:47

her circumstances to escape,

1:26:49

so she just manifests

1:26:52

the idea of the only

1:26:54

way out is through, but instead of the emotional line of evolution, it is

1:26:56

the physical line

1:26:59

of the knife. When

1:27:01

peace can't be found emotionally, a person is left to find it

1:27:04

physically. So think of

1:27:06

the Delphi girls on the

1:27:08

bridge the

1:27:11

killer approaches from behind or the past, and

1:27:13

when they turn to face him, he's

1:27:15

in front now,

1:27:17

before merging with them while holding the straight line

1:27:20

pointed at them. Past

1:27:22

present future represents the

1:27:25

triangle of the emotional

1:27:27

wound which is easily found in symbolic imagery on

1:27:29

Christ's crucifix. The three

1:27:32

wounds or stakes

1:27:34

that cause them create a downward facing

1:27:36

triangle on his body that is

1:27:38

widest at its base on each

1:27:42

hand and then narrows to a point below on

1:27:44

the merged feet. As we

1:27:46

ascend in our narrative and

1:27:49

take flight, the notion of walking

1:27:52

becomes obsolete and it

1:27:54

happens through emerging binary

1:27:56

necessity to become the

1:27:58

singularity. So both feet are nailed together

1:28:00

to signify that Christ can't

1:28:02

walk. But if you look

1:28:05

at the upper stakes, what

1:28:07

you'll notice is that they cause positioning to make it

1:28:09

seem as though Christ is spreading

1:28:11

his wings because

1:28:15

he is. That triangle is a wing span and

1:28:17

it represents taking flight through

1:28:19

our evolutionary ascension

1:28:22

narrative or moving from a horizontally oriented

1:28:25

evolution across Earth to

1:28:27

a vertical one that

1:28:29

will disembody us when we go back

1:28:31

inside or evolve through dimensions,

1:28:34

absent of embodiment, and

1:28:36

therefore, we're equipped with

1:28:38

the body we're ultimately intended

1:28:40

shed and a mind were meant

1:28:42

to keep. The crown of thorns is simply a manifestation

1:28:45

of a grouping of

1:28:47

those emotional triangles. Utilized

1:28:51

to show how much pain

1:28:53

will we cost emotionally AKA

1:28:55

to the head if we

1:28:57

refuse to evolve and

1:28:59

break the circle. This intersection of

1:29:02

horizontal and vertical evolution is a junction that involves

1:29:04

terrible suffering so

1:29:07

the cruise effect simply manifests the idea of

1:29:10

being pulled apart between

1:29:12

opposing ideals of going

1:29:14

forward and up to reach

1:29:17

the top. Therefore, the triangle goes

1:29:19

horizontally and vertically to a

1:29:24

point. Notice that Christ is

1:29:26

off the ground suspended but bearing weight. It's

1:29:28

a manifestation of the

1:29:30

suffering that will take place

1:29:34

in the emotional idea of

1:29:37

becoming weightless as God

1:29:39

in disembodiment. Anyhow, that physical

1:29:41

convergence of the seeker in

1:29:44

the sock we see in horror

1:29:46

movies is the past and future selves trying to merge in the present

1:29:48

or the now and

1:29:51

create the new you. So

1:29:54

you essentially become a manifested version

1:29:57

of the holy spirit, and that's

1:29:59

how we get people in

1:30:01

scream looking back at ghostface when they're

1:30:03

killed. His straight line of the knife after stalking them

1:30:06

from behind in the

1:30:08

past and

1:30:10

in front of them in the future,

1:30:12

converges upon the present and

1:30:14

gets inside them. But since

1:30:16

they have refused the new identity

1:30:18

associated with the emotional change goes

1:30:21

phase, absent of identity

1:30:23

is basically no phase

1:30:26

in it's waiting to be filled by whomever

1:30:28

you were supposed to

1:30:30

become but never did.

1:30:32

That's why masks are

1:30:34

so popular in movies. On an

1:30:36

emotional level, the thing we run from

1:30:38

most is the monster we're becoming and

1:30:43

unknown so terrifying that we run and hide

1:30:45

until we're forced to fight back and kill it or worse succumb to

1:30:48

it. The idea

1:30:51

is that the horrer as supposed to

1:30:53

follow you out of the past and into the future or at

1:30:56

first come from

1:30:59

behind you intuitively and later in

1:31:02

front explicitly so that your awareness of it physically matches

1:31:04

how you'd become aware

1:31:07

of the emotional necessity of

1:31:11

change. First, you're unaware, ignoring

1:31:13

it in the past,

1:31:15

then realize it

1:31:17

intuitively, And finally, when it appears before you on

1:31:19

your path headed into the future, you collide

1:31:24

with it and a desperate

1:31:26

plight for survival that forces you to change to accommodate. So the killer

1:31:29

in a

1:31:32

horror movie follows the same path

1:31:34

of being unrealized in the unconscious mind and only intuitively

1:31:36

felt, like when they

1:31:39

appear behind the protagonist, and

1:31:42

then slowly but surely, they circle their way around to the front, becoming more explicitly

1:31:48

realized until finally, they're

1:31:50

seen. The killer behind is the unconscious mind,

1:31:53

which is only

1:31:56

realized intuitively and

1:31:58

not seen, while the killer in front is the rational or conscious mind in which you are

1:32:01

able to realize

1:32:04

the killer explicitly,

1:32:06

yet the junction between in the form of your body and mind or the perpetual

1:32:09

now represents

1:32:12

the subconscious and

1:32:15

the subconscious is simply the gateway

1:32:17

between those two worlds.

1:32:20

That's what we

1:32:23

are as individuals nothing more than a

1:32:25

gateway between that which is only realized explicitly in

1:32:28

symbolic imagery or

1:32:31

physicality and that which is only

1:32:33

realized intuitively or based

1:32:35

in emotional considerations. So

1:32:38

when Ellen shows you that she

1:32:41

was attacked from both the rear

1:32:43

and the front, what

1:32:45

she's manifesting is

1:32:48

the convergence just outlined here. But

1:32:50

most importantly, only sign of a struggle in this

1:32:52

case is

1:32:55

in her emotional life. There isn't one at

1:32:58

the crime scene, which means

1:33:00

that in

1:33:02

all likelihood, It was actually in her

1:33:04

head. So despite Sam's

1:33:07

obviously suspicious behavior, I

1:33:09

find this to be

1:33:12

a suicide. There has been a call

1:33:14

to investigate further, but there won't be anything defined beyond

1:33:16

searching for reasons to

1:33:19

blame the fiancee while In

1:33:21

truth, the woman he'd been living with was so desperate to

1:33:23

suffocate herself by placing a

1:33:26

bag of her head

1:33:28

that clearly,

1:33:30

she didn't care about their

1:33:32

future together. She was not any

1:33:34

less selfish in this situation. Sam

1:33:37

seemingly thought only of himself when she died. And I'm guessing

1:33:39

it was because on an

1:33:41

emotional level, leading up

1:33:44

to this, he

1:33:46

knew she was ultimately going to

1:33:49

do this to him. I

1:33:51

see some really bad choices

1:33:53

here. But none made in a context of malice. I

1:33:55

don't think they were trying to hurt each other.

1:34:00

Sadly and to the I think

1:34:02

they were actually trying to stop and it became apparent

1:34:05

death was the

1:34:08

only way. I

1:34:10

think the victim intentionally made

1:34:12

the method of death as vague

1:34:14

and convoluted as possible so

1:34:17

that the resulting misdirection and could

1:34:19

accommodate enough suspicion about murder that

1:34:21

nobody would prove it to ever

1:34:23

be suicide. That desire

1:34:26

is abundantly apparent to me

1:34:28

from the structure here. What she seems

1:34:30

to have wanted is enough to point the finger

1:34:32

at Sam and enough

1:34:34

to point it at her

1:34:37

but never enough to discern true fault. And do you know

1:34:40

describes better

1:34:43

than anything else? Just

1:34:47

about every relationship we've ever had

1:34:49

with another person in this life

1:34:51

that once blossomed and

1:34:54

then fell apart. Sometimes it's their fault when things

1:34:56

go wrong, and sometimes

1:34:58

it's ours. But in

1:35:02

the end, no matter where we point the finger

1:35:04

and assign blame or regardless of

1:35:06

what we choose to believe to

1:35:10

get by, peace only comes when it's

1:35:12

over and never

1:35:15

before. In Ellen's mind, someone

1:35:18

was breaking down the locked door to her emotional world, and she was trapped

1:35:20

inside. But

1:35:25

since the truth is that

1:35:27

our emotional problems are not embodied, the killer wasn't

1:35:30

found in the apartment.

1:35:33

He disappeared when she died

1:35:35

because he'd been inside her head. And

1:35:40

because the harsh lesson

1:35:42

was rendered through tragic

1:35:44

fate. The monster never

1:35:46

returned. But neither did Ellen

1:35:49

In their place, the only things that remained were the silence

1:35:52

of a

1:35:55

voice without words. A

1:35:58

light without darkness and

1:36:01

the warmth of a

1:36:03

father hidden within calling on

1:36:05

her to finally

1:36:10

come home.