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And I've learned surrender is

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truly surrender. It is truly.

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It's not manipulation. It's not just

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talk. It's like you set the intention and

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it shows up as it should. And if

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it doesn't show up, you don't force it.

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You don't force it. And I think that's

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the big thing that people might not understand

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because I know ways of working that I can

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get where I need to be really fast if I use my

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mind. but being surrendered is not

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just getting to a certain place or reaching a

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certain amount of people or making a certain amount

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of money. It's being in alignment with the divine

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purpose of my life. And when you're in that

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space... It's not achievement based. It's not, right?

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And you can't lean into what you know

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can get you there in your mind. You

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have to lean into your soul. And when

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you lean into your soul, you trust divine

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timing off of happening right now. Peace

0:45

and riches, blessings. I am Michael B. Beckwith,

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the host of Take Back Your Mind. Peace

1:19

and blessings, everyone, and welcome to Take Back Your

1:21

Mind. I am your host, Michael

1:24

B. Beckwith, the founder of the Agapa International

1:26

Spiritual Center. And just about every

1:28

week, I get to have a wonderful conversation with

1:30

individuals that I love and appreciate. Individuals

1:33

who, in their own way, in

1:35

their own uniqueness, have taken

1:37

back their mind, have aligned

1:39

themselves with their purpose, aligned themselves with

1:41

their unique way that they have to

1:43

be in the world in order to

1:46

deliver their goods. And today

1:48

I get to be with Koya Webb. This is her right here.

1:50

She's here in person. I like it. Yes. And

1:53

you may know who Koya Webb is. But if

1:55

you don't know who she is, I'm going to

1:57

give you a little bit of her biographical background.

2:01

Global lifestyle entrepreneur specializing in

2:03

holistic well -being for such

2:05

a time as this. Known

2:08

as a transformational specialist, she

2:11

encourages sustainable lifestyle changes

2:13

that maximize your ability

2:15

to cultivate self -love.

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Reverse life -threatening conditions

2:19

and experience optimal health

2:22

through her lifestyle design

2:24

method. Koya's Get

2:26

Loved Up Yoga School and

2:28

Community of Teachers inspires millions

2:31

worldwide to practice more self

2:33

-care, social justice,

2:35

and sustainable living. She's

2:38

a highly regarded expert and editorial

2:40

contributor with media outlets nationwide. Koya

2:43

has appeared on CBS

2:45

The Steve Harvey Show. entertainment

2:48

and home and family and has worked

2:50

with the roster of celebrity clients. Recently,

2:53

she was with us on

2:56

our wonderful masterclass, The Frequency

2:58

Factor. And we've hung out

3:00

for a lot of things together. With

3:04

over 20 years of experience in personal and

3:06

professional development, her mission is to inspire, educate,

3:09

and empower individuals and organizations

3:11

globally to achieve optimal health.

3:13

well -being and sustainability through

3:15

holistic practices and Practical lifestyle

3:17

changes listen Put that down

3:19

for me. I know the

3:21

woman Years she'll give you

3:23

maybe a little background on

3:25

that But she's dedicated to

3:27

her spiritual practice. She's authentic

3:30

She speaks about not only

3:32

the highs and the glory

3:34

of what happens when you

3:36

Become activated and you begin

3:38

to embody these teachings, but

3:40

she also speaks about her

3:42

challenges the darkness the grief

3:44

Things that people grow through

3:46

she doesn't hide any of

3:48

that and so is my

3:51

joy to welcome you to

3:53

take back your mind. Thank

3:55

you. You just made me

3:57

cry I'm so tender like

3:59

oh, thank you. I love

4:01

you so much This

4:04

is my spiritual father, y 'all. I

4:06

have a picture they call him for so many

4:09

years now, but it's just been such a blessing,

4:11

you know? Just the day

4:14

that I walked into Agape

4:16

was like taking my mind

4:18

back. You know, hearing your

4:21

words and Ricky Bebe music

4:23

and the blend and the

4:25

whole community. You just took

4:28

this broken, traumatized girl and...

4:31

nurture her to be this

4:33

empowered woman and I'm just

4:35

so grateful. Right. Most people

4:37

when they see you don't

4:39

even know about all of

4:41

that. No. The background and

4:43

where you came from and

4:45

the things you experienced. They

4:47

see this tall African Amazonian

4:49

woman athlete, yoga expert, cook.

4:54

Yes. And much more. And

4:56

recently married. Recently married. He put a

4:58

ring on it. He

5:00

had to put the ring on it. Had to. And so

5:02

they didn't see all of that. So,

5:05

you know, take us through a little

5:07

bit of your background and coming into

5:09

your evolution spiritually as well. I

5:12

feel like most people, I grew

5:14

up in a very fear -based

5:16

environment. And I was

5:18

very afraid to live. I was afraid

5:21

to be myself. I was, I always

5:23

felt like I was doing something wrong.

5:25

I felt very misunderstood. And

5:27

I feel like no matter what

5:29

I did, it was never good

5:31

enough. So I just

5:33

felt, I feel like I didn't fit in.

5:36

I mean, I'm 5 '10". I got big

5:38

feet. I'm brown. You have little feet. Yeah,

5:43

I'll take that. But I

5:46

just didn't, I didn't feel like, I

5:48

felt like everything was like too much

5:50

or too big or too tall or

5:52

too black or too skinny or too

5:54

thin. And I always felt like I

5:56

was trying to morph myself into something

5:59

that I wasn't. And

6:01

it took a many, many,

6:03

many years of like trauma

6:05

and just not really understanding

6:07

why. Until I found

6:09

myself and when I entered a copy I

6:12

remember I felt this like I was coming

6:14

home to myself and When you spoke your

6:16

words, it was the first time in my

6:18

life. I felt it in my soul. Other

6:20

than when I got baptized, I remember when

6:23

I choked, I felt the Holy Spirit for

6:25

the first time. I felt it, and I

6:27

knew it, and I felt it in every

6:29

cell of my body. And that's what I

6:31

felt when I walked into Agape. That's

6:34

what I felt when I started yoga.

6:36

So I knew when I walked in

6:38

that a transformation was about to happen.

6:40

I had no idea. Like,

6:42

wow, it would change my entire life, and

6:44

this would be my life's work. So

6:46

I'm like, He found your

6:49

life's work. I found my life's work.

6:51

So that being that was traumatized, you

6:53

know, what would you tell her now?

6:56

What would this person tell her? I

6:58

would tell her, you gonna be okay,

7:00

girl. It's

7:03

gonna all come around and everything is

7:05

gonna make sense soon. And

7:07

that... know, you are not your trauma.

7:09

You're not your challenges. You're not your

7:11

mistakes. You're a beautiful whole being. I

7:14

would tell her everything you spoken to

7:16

me. Like you are a high vibrational

7:18

being meant for goodness in the world.

7:20

I listened to those words. I believe

7:23

those words, everything you said. Again and

7:25

again, I did the transcendental meditations. I

7:27

took the course of miracles. I mean,

7:29

I, you know, did, you know, what

7:31

was it? Mind fast soul feast. I

7:34

did all the programs and they just

7:36

nurtured. to me and pour it into

7:38

me. And so they really crowded out

7:40

all of the fear -based thinking. In

7:44

nutrition, I went to IAN and we talk

7:46

about crowding out. It doesn't have to always

7:48

just replace everything with all the toxic stuff

7:50

with all the healthy stuff. If you start

7:52

eating healthy, eventually you eat less and less

7:54

of the toxic things. You become healthier. Well,

7:57

the same thing works spiritually for me. It's

7:59

like still had all these fears and

8:02

these negative beliefs from my childhood. But

8:04

the more that I came to Agape

8:06

and read the books and did the

8:08

classes, it started crowding out. And

8:11

my frequencies started to raise. I

8:13

decided to realize I'm starting to

8:15

attract people and opportunities that align

8:17

with this greater evolution of myself.

8:20

And the work works if you

8:22

work it. And it started

8:24

working for me. And the more it started

8:26

working, the more I dove in deeper and

8:28

deeper. And I continue to be a student

8:31

of the work, to be a student of

8:33

love. I remember your light because I remember

8:35

seeing you and I remember inviting you to

8:37

do something at the Revelation Conference. You did.

8:39

And you inviting me to speak was like,

8:41

what? give me

8:43

to speak, oh my goodness, the world

8:45

stopped and it was amazing. Yeah, I

8:47

could see all of that. And so,

8:49

I know recently, your mom has made

8:51

her transition, passed over into the land

8:53

of the ancestors, life after life. I

8:55

know you feel a little tender about

8:57

that still. Yeah, but

9:00

you had to use all of your

9:02

work, your inner work to navigate through

9:04

that, because you guys were close. Yes,

9:07

my mom was my biggest

9:09

cheerleader, you know, and I

9:12

just, it was unexpected.

9:15

Her mother is still alive, my grandmother.

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She's 90 years old, so. I

9:20

didn't expect from my mom to

9:22

transition. And so it's still

9:25

very shocking for me. It's still not real.

9:28

And so the anger that I had

9:30

inside and the confusion, it was overcoming

9:32

me. It was dimming my light because

9:35

at first I was so high when

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I went to her and I was

9:39

there for a week in the hospital

9:42

dealing with how the hospital can treat

9:44

you. And then at home and dealing

9:46

with all of the family dynamics and

9:48

just holding it all, to holding it

9:51

all, holding it all. And then when

9:53

she transitioned, I broke. I

9:55

just broke. And I felt

9:57

so angry and so dark. And I

10:00

remember grabbing a mason jar and squeezing

10:02

it so tight and slamming it into

10:04

the counter and all this glass just

10:06

shot into my hands. And my hands

10:08

were dripping blood and I realized like,

10:11

oh my goodness. I'm I'm

10:13

self -harming and I wasn't doing it intentionally

10:15

and so I I put my hands in

10:17

the Epsom salt bath I had made for

10:20

myself because here I was trying to stack

10:22

my rituals trying to balance out Yeah, but

10:24

the grief and the anger and the confusion

10:26

that I'd been holding on for those two

10:28

weeks holding space for my mom and my

10:30

family and all the things it overcame me

10:32

and the my mind was swirling with a

10:34

million dark thoughts that I had I felt

10:36

in that moment I had no control over

10:38

and so as I put my hands into

10:40

the bath I just I was like, God

10:42

help me. And my husband, Darren,

10:44

went and, you know, he was like, do you

10:47

want to go to a hospital? I was like,

10:49

no. He was like, okay, I'm going to get

10:51

some bandages. And as he bandaged my hands, I

10:53

was like, I need help. And I

10:55

just went to sleep and I prayed. And

10:57

that's when my mom came to me as

10:59

a first time as an ancestor. And she

11:02

said, it's okay. I'm here you

11:04

are my strength you are my legacy and

11:06

she just spoke life into me and I

11:08

feel like she's giving me every gift like

11:11

I can I have stronger intuition I'm seeing

11:13

things I've never saw before I'm like kind

11:15

of overwhelmed by it and like even now

11:18

like I'm shaking I'm vibrating at a frequency

11:20

I've never felt before and I'm just praying

11:22

she gave me the gift she gave me

11:24

a lot of gifts and I just want

11:27

to hold it all and make her proud

11:29

yeah that's that's what happens when they pass

11:31

over They go through their life review, and

11:34

they're celebrated by so many people on

11:36

the side, but that's when you receive

11:38

your gifts from them. So

11:40

when you prayed at that moment, did

11:43

you reach a certain frequency

11:45

in your prayer? Because

11:48

oftentimes they cannot connect with you at

11:50

the level of fear, or they connect

11:52

with you at a level when you

11:55

finally like accept it. You know what

11:57

I mean? Did you, is that what

11:59

happened in your prayer? I felt like

12:02

in that moment, if I can go

12:04

back to that moment and describe my

12:06

frequency, it was a frequency of surrender.

12:08

I had just like, because

12:10

usually when I go into the bath, I just

12:13

surrender and I let all the day like melt

12:15

into the bath. And so as I put my

12:17

hand, and the toe was feeling with blood like

12:19

so much, I like never seen this much come

12:21

from my body and like these hands. And

12:24

so I just surrendered into the

12:26

water. I surrendered, and then

12:28

in that surrender, I felt everything release.

12:30

Like I felt like I was releasing

12:32

the frustration and the anger into the

12:35

water. And that's when she can meet

12:37

you. Yeah. Yeah, when you surrendered and

12:39

release, that's when she can meet you.

12:41

She couldn't meet you at the other

12:43

places, because she's not vibrating there. No.

12:45

You know, so as soon as you

12:47

went to that moment of surrender. Yeah.

12:49

she was able to. Do you still

12:52

feel connected, still contacting

12:54

you? 100%. And I still cry

12:56

every day, but I'm moving forward

12:58

strongly every day and my gifts

13:00

and my mission and my legacy,

13:02

because I'm sure that dark energy

13:04

that sometimes can come back up

13:06

in different ways might want, if

13:09

I let it, if I nurture

13:11

it, it will overcome delight. But

13:13

I already know from your teachings

13:15

that I have to nurture the

13:17

strength, the truth, my legacy, my

13:19

mission, not my fears, my frustration,

13:22

my missing of my mom and her

13:24

physical presence, because that makes me vibrate

13:26

at a lower frequency. And so a

13:28

lot of people ask like, you know,

13:30

how do you, you know, really take

13:32

that grief and, you know, find the

13:34

gratitude and find a way to move

13:36

forward. I'm like, the way to do

13:38

it is one day at a time,

13:40

one breath at a time. And choosing

13:43

every breath is a choice to choose

13:45

love, to choose peace. to choose, I

13:47

got this. And I just choose every

13:49

day. Every day I choose love. One breath at a time.

13:51

This is powerful. I love this. I

13:54

know I wanted to get into this

13:57

with you because you're so transparent in

13:59

whatever process you're going through, but you're

14:01

also a practitioner. You actually practice this

14:04

stuff. So it's not just book learning

14:06

or academic knowledge. You actually

14:08

are a practitioner. And so it

14:10

shows up in every area of

14:12

your life. you know, your prayer

14:14

life, your nutrition as well, you

14:16

know, and so, you know, this

14:19

pivot just a little bit into

14:21

your nutritional aspect of life, you

14:23

know. Yes, people always ask me,

14:25

and I think we were asked

14:27

on that master class, like, if

14:29

you had 30 seconds to share

14:31

with people what they could do,

14:33

what would it be? And

14:35

the thing that I said was breath

14:37

work, number one, because I believe breath

14:39

is spirit, and... That inhale and exhale

14:42

is balancing and aligning you with spirit.

14:44

I truly believe that. And then stacking

14:46

your rituals. I love that statement. Thank

14:48

you. used to be for stacking your

14:50

rituals. Stacking your rituals. It really works

14:52

for me. And I've been sharing about

14:54

it for the last two years because

14:57

what I realized is that I'm a

14:59

servant leader. I love to serve. You

15:01

see, I'm serving in the church. I'm

15:03

making the food. I'm on stage. Wherever

15:05

you want me to be, I will

15:07

be there. but I

15:09

didn't realize that I have to love

15:12

myself and practice self -care and self

15:14

-love as much as I serve. And

15:16

it's not like serve 80 % and

15:18

self -care 20%. It's serve 50 %

15:20

and self -care 50%. And I realized,

15:22

it took me a long time to

15:24

realize I needed that type of balance

15:27

because I love doing a lot of

15:29

deep work for many, many people. And

15:31

I was like, oh yeah, I got

15:33

a massage. I took a

15:35

day off. Oh, no, no, no, no,

15:37

no. You need... you need

15:39

the green juices, you need the herbs, you

15:42

need the ashwagana, you need the massages, you

15:44

need the runs every day, you need the

15:46

sun, you need time and nature. So all

15:48

these things are pouring in because you have

15:50

so much that you're, you know, even traveling

15:52

that you experience is that's not high vibrational.

15:54

And so I need a lot of other

15:56

things that are high vibrational. And to your

15:58

point, the nutrition. Cutting

16:00

out toxic food, cutting out animal

16:03

products helps me vibrate at a

16:05

higher frequency. Eating foods that

16:07

are fast transit foods like fruits, vegetables,

16:10

nuts and seeds and I don't mean

16:12

just vegan foods. I mean whole plant

16:14

-based foods and they give me energy.

16:16

Otherwise, I'd just be drained and tired

16:18

and somewhere asleep. Yeah,

16:21

this when you talk about stacking, that's what I

16:23

do. Yes, you know, I mean, I love my

16:25

my my bath is all the different salts. I

16:27

love all my green drinks. I love all my

16:29

greens. my foodies. I love all my fruits. I

16:32

love waking up in the morning and

16:34

opening myself up with the breath work

16:36

and being so grateful and thankful that

16:38

I'm alive. And I ask for strength

16:40

to handle any assignment that comes into

16:42

my day because most of the stuff

16:44

that you handle is not necessarily on

16:47

a to -do list for the day.

16:49

Because the stuff that comes in that

16:51

you have to deal with. So I

16:53

ask for the nimbleness and energy to

16:55

handle all of that. But what you're

16:57

describing is a way of living. It's

17:00

not just a temporary lifestyle. not

17:03

offering that to people. We're offering, this

17:05

is how you live your life. And

17:08

then joy becomes your base. Doesn't mean sadness

17:10

is not going to pass through. Doesn't

17:12

mean challenges are not going to happen. But

17:15

you have a baseline of joy, which

17:17

is what people feel in you. Yes.

17:19

You know, they feel there's energy. Coil

17:22

is on the stage. And I

17:24

love that because I get that from

17:26

you. You know, and I think it's

17:28

so important and I'm always going to

17:30

give you your flowers and not only

17:32

you, but also Ricky BB and Akili

17:34

and Reverend Harleen and the spiritual family

17:36

that nurtured me because I think people

17:39

feel like they could do it themselves.

17:41

There's so many of my students like

17:43

I did this and I did that.

17:45

It's like, but. And I

17:47

know I'm a mentor, but we're your other

17:49

mentors. You have to have a team and

17:51

a tribe of mentors pouring into you and

17:53

realize that we're not meant to do it

17:56

alone. And I think it's so important to

17:58

have people that you listen to, the books

18:00

that you read, and constantly pouring the positivity,

18:02

because when you turn on the news, when

18:05

you turn on social media, what are you

18:07

getting? A lot of the negative stuff, a

18:09

lot of the fear, the competition, the comparison.

18:11

So you have to have people like yourself

18:13

always listening and nurturing. When

18:16

Darn and I started our spiritual walk together

18:18

and we were listening to different teachers and

18:20

I put you on for the first time.

18:22

He's like, I like him. I was like,

18:25

that's exactly how he's my favorite. Let's listen

18:27

to more of him. And I just felt

18:29

so good because I knew that you were

18:31

going to speak to his soul. And I

18:34

feel like you have to find a teacher

18:36

that really resonates with your soul or you

18:38

can get lost in the rubble. Right. In

18:40

my twenties. you know, most of

18:43

my teachers were on the other side.

18:45

You know, and I had relationships with

18:47

them. You know, they

18:49

were alive to me, because I would leave my

18:51

body and have conversations. And it's

18:53

interesting now, a lot of my teachers are

18:55

on the other side and friends, because they

18:57

passed over. You know, Carlton

19:00

Pearson has passed over, Nirvana Gale has passed

19:02

over, Carl Anderson has passed over, Barbara Fields

19:04

has passed over, he's all my friends. Barbie

19:06

King has passed over. You know I mean?

19:08

They've all passed. So I have a different

19:10

relationship with them. I have a group of

19:12

people that when I'm about to speak or

19:14

about to do something challenging, I just call

19:16

them in. You know, Blanche Nelson,

19:19

Ethel Franklin, Nirvana Gale. I call them

19:21

in. This is Sprinkles. I

19:23

call them in and they're sitting

19:25

in a circle because years ago,

19:27

we would meet every Saturday at five

19:29

in the morning and meditate this

19:31

one little circle I had together. And

19:34

we develop telepathy. And

19:36

so they're all gone now. Right. You know

19:38

what I'm saying? Yeah. So I'll still call

19:40

them in, I can still feel. One

19:42

time they came through and I asked them, I

19:45

asked Dr. Dan Morgan, who

19:48

was the founder of a guidance church

19:50

religious science, you know, I

19:52

asked him something about to hold me in prayer

19:54

for something. And he says, Him and Homer Johnson

19:56

another teacher of mine is passed over. He said

19:59

we don't need to do that anymore. I said,

20:01

what do you mean? They

20:03

said you're doing it. You're good.

20:05

You're good man. You're good. I

20:07

said, no, no, I still won

20:10

your prayer. Right, right.

20:12

I really resonate because I never felt

20:14

it so strongly until my mom's transition.

20:16

Yes, my mother too, absolutely. I'm like,

20:18

oh my goodness, I get a deeper

20:20

relationship. So I actually do feel like

20:22

I have an even deeper relationship with

20:24

my mom. I don't know if you

20:26

knew the background about my story with

20:28

my mom, but we weren't as close

20:31

growing up. And I remember seeing these

20:33

mother -daughter retreats and these women with

20:35

good relationships, mother -daughter relationship, and I

20:37

was like, I want that. You know,

20:39

and I think it's so important for

20:41

us to allow ourselves to be inspired,

20:43

not jealous or envious, but inspired. I

20:45

believe inspired means in spirit. And when

20:47

you're inspired, it aligns you with spirit.

20:50

So in that moment that I was inspired,

20:52

I was aligned with spirit. And I said,

20:54

I'm going to, you know, develop a closer

20:56

relationship with my mom. So for the last

20:59

12 years, once a year, we go on

21:01

a trip. We've been to Thailand together, to

21:03

Mexico together, beautiful resorts in Cal, and I

21:05

just love that I got that opportunity with

21:07

my mother, but it's only because I set

21:10

the intention. And then when

21:12

I told my mom, she's like, I would love that as well.

21:14

And I knew she wanted to travel, right? And

21:16

so we met each other. And so

21:18

I'm so happy. She even got yoga

21:20

certified in Thailand with me. And everybody

21:22

was younger than her. And she didn't

21:24

care. You had closure before she left,

21:27

even though it was a shock to

21:29

you. It was. And moved you off

21:31

center. You still had that

21:33

heart closure. You didn't have a lot

21:35

to forgive. I

21:37

don't know if it was before, but definitely

21:39

after. Before, I didn't feel like I had

21:42

closure. I feel like, you know, an open

21:44

wound. That's how I felt.

21:46

I felt like... Because she left? Yes.

21:50

And I didn't think she was going to

21:52

leave. But felt like your relationship was good.

21:54

Yes, our relationship was really healthy. Our

21:57

relationship was really healthy. And

21:59

I feel like even she

22:01

taught me in her transition,

22:03

she taught me how... to

22:05

surrender without giving up? I

22:08

love that. Surrender

22:11

without giving up. Listen, break

22:13

that down. Yes. And

22:15

she taught me that even though she

22:18

was surrendering and she was transitioning her

22:20

body, She didn't give up

22:22

on me or relationship or anything. Her

22:24

legacy lives through me. And

22:26

I think it's so important to me because

22:29

I can surrender relationships now. I can surrender

22:31

things that don't align. I'm not giving up

22:33

on my mission and I'm not giving up

22:35

on people. I'm just willing

22:37

to surrender anything that's out of alignment

22:40

with my highest and greatest good. To

22:42

let go of To let go. That

22:44

which doesn't serve and that which isn't

22:46

vibrating. Yes. At the level you want

22:48

to vibrate at. Exactly. And trust the

22:50

flow of life. Right, right. And she

22:52

taught me that surrender and you can

22:54

trust the flow of life. And I'm

22:56

just holding on to that. Like I

22:59

have her ring around my necklace and

23:01

I hold her really close to me

23:03

because every day she's teaching me. And

23:05

I never, again, this is the closest

23:07

person that's ever transitioned and I never

23:09

knew what to experience, what to expect.

23:11

And it's just miraculous, the

23:13

relationship you can have with someone after

23:15

they transition. I have

23:17

great relationships with those who have gone over.

23:20

In my early days, they were

23:22

more important than the people that

23:24

I could see. And now,

23:27

40 -something years later, so

23:29

many people have gone over. They're my buddies.

23:31

But I still have people here, obviously. I

23:34

have a whole community of practitioners, et cetera,

23:36

and friends. But I

23:38

think people need to hear that they

23:40

can have a beautiful relationship with the

23:43

unseen and the invisibles as we call

23:45

them. Absolutely. Because they're still here. Absolutely.

23:47

You know. And they're a little bit

23:49

more purified. Yes. Because they've cleaned up

23:52

some things. And they're more themselves. their

23:54

humanness is not here. And

23:56

that's what I realized. It's like, in

23:58

our humanness, we go through this trauma

24:00

and all these things. But when someone

24:02

transitions, it's pure spirit. So you're getting

24:05

the pure essence of all they were.

24:07

They're not even attached. Like, I ask

24:09

questions about, you know, some things that

24:11

happen in the humor. And

24:13

my mom is just like, you

24:16

know, that was just part of it. That was part

24:18

of the journey. but you don't

24:20

have to be attached to that. You can surrender that

24:22

too. Surrender your anger with yourself

24:24

or anyone else with your family. And

24:27

she just taught me how you want to

24:29

surrender all of that human stuff that makes

24:31

you vibrate a lower level and just fall

24:33

into love and stay in the vibration of

24:36

love. And we can do that on earth.

24:38

We can do that earth. The main teaching

24:40

is to do it now. Exactly. And take

24:42

it with you. That is what she's teaching

24:44

me. To do it now. Don't wait. Right.

24:47

Because the old theology was you

24:49

know, die and go to heaven. But

24:51

what we're teaching is purify now. Yes, you

24:54

can experience heaven on earth. Right here. And

24:56

take it with you everywhere you go. Because

24:58

there's infinite dimensions. Or you can experience hell

25:00

on earth. Oh, there's a lot of hell

25:02

earth. I've been there. For

25:05

two days, I felt like I was in hell

25:07

in bed and it was not good. Turn on

25:09

the news. that part. part. You know, you

25:12

can see a lot of hell. But listen,

25:14

get loved up. I love that title. Thank

25:16

you. That's your yoga online class. Yes. But

25:18

you do it in person as well. How

25:21

did that emerge? Get Loved

25:23

Up Emerge because I realized that as...

25:25

First of all, I just got to say.

25:27

Yes. Get Loved Up is the best title

25:30

in the world. Thank you. I appreciate that

25:32

because some people made me question that

25:34

title. No, when you did that, I said,

25:36

oh, that's great. I should have got that

25:38

myself. Thank you. Thank you. I

25:41

appreciate that. You don't understand how much because

25:43

so many people are like, oh, get loved

25:45

up. And to hear that from you, it

25:47

means a lot. So I'm just going to

25:49

inhale that and hold that. And

25:52

the reason it came to me is because that's

25:54

when I realized that you are loving others to

25:56

the detriment of yourself. You're

25:58

loving and loving, and you have this

26:00

high expectation for people to love you

26:02

like. Well, you have this high expectation

26:05

for people to love you like you

26:07

love them. And that's not the way

26:09

it works. You love to your capacity

26:11

and not beyond. And then you take

26:14

care of yourself. And

26:16

that's how you train people to love you. by how

26:18

you take care of yourself. Exactly. And

26:21

so get loved up was a

26:23

reminder to love myself first and

26:25

most. And my philosophy is

26:27

love yourself, love others and love the

26:30

world in that order. But it starts

26:32

with self love because, you know, I

26:34

think Lisa Nichols said on stage, you

26:36

know. you can't pour from an

26:38

empty cup and you have to fill your cup

26:40

and let people sip from your saucer. And so

26:42

the moment that I heard that quote, I was

26:45

like, okay, I got to fill my cup, because

26:47

I can let people sip from the saucer. And

26:49

I have not stopped doing that, but I've learned

26:51

to do it better. Because at first it was

26:53

just a check, to do, to do, to do.

26:55

And my to do list got exhausting. My self

26:58

care list got exhausting. I'm like, I'm tired because

27:00

I'm trying to get up and run and I

27:02

need some more sleep. I

27:05

can't it. I'm

27:07

counting my steps and I'm exhausted. And I

27:09

realized that it has to be in balance

27:11

and harmony. And I think that's so important

27:13

because a lot of high performance and high

27:16

achievers, they're doing all the work. And then

27:18

they're even doing their self care like work.

27:20

And now I've learned it has to be

27:22

more intentional, more mindful. And the biggest word

27:25

for me now is more sustainable. If your

27:27

self care isn't sustainable, if your work is

27:29

not sustainable. It's not going to last for

27:31

long. And it's not going to do you

27:33

and others as much as it could if

27:36

you made sure it was in harmony and

27:38

balance. And that's why I love holistic health.

27:41

Absolutely. You're a prime example of it

27:43

too. And then you have... Your podcast,

27:46

the Lifestyle Design podcast. What was your

27:48

mission behind starting that? And I've been

27:50

on that podcast. We had a great

27:52

time. Oh, we had an incredible time.

27:54

That show is still one of our

27:56

highest -viewed shows because I was vulnerable

27:58

then, and it was at a time

28:01

that Agape was going through a transition.

28:04

And because it was like my home, it was

28:06

affecting me very deeply. And I never got a

28:08

chance to speak to you about it. And then

28:10

we got a chance to speak on the podcast.

28:12

So it was really good. And I think not

28:14

only... help me heal through a heart transitional time,

28:17

but it helped a lot of people listening heal

28:19

as well. Because a lot of times people don't

28:21

realize that. transitioning, whether it's

28:23

a person or a job or something,

28:25

a structure that really nurtured you, it

28:27

comes with its own level of grief.

28:31

And in grieving, you have questions. And

28:33

luckily, in my grief, my mom was there to

28:35

answer a question. And eventually, I think it was

28:38

like maybe even one or two years later, in

28:40

that grief of a great transition of someone who

28:42

I see as my spiritual father, having

28:44

those questions answered meant so much. And I don't

28:46

think I think I told you, but I don't

28:49

know if I can tell you the depth. of

28:51

just being able to sit with you and talk

28:53

with you and ask you questions to just hear

28:55

your response was so nurturing And

28:57

because of the comments, I know it was nurturing for

28:59

other people just to hear from you. Because a lot

29:01

of times we go through hard time, we just want

29:03

to shove it under the rug, like just get past

29:05

it as soon as possible. But really

29:07

taking time, you got to go through it. You got

29:09

to grieve it. You got to talk about it. And

29:12

that's what I'm trying to do more. I want to

29:14

be, I've never been this vulnerable in my life. I'm

29:16

even shocking myself even today. I

29:18

am shocking myself in my vulnerability. watched

29:20

you. You're doing great. I mean, when

29:22

you were on then. the frequency factor,

29:25

master class, even before that, even when

29:27

we were in South Carolina with Jessica.

29:30

Yes. Yeah, that was powerful. That was powerful,

29:32

and your body was going through something at the

29:34

time, and you kind of, you

29:36

did your thing, but you were very transparent, and

29:38

it was just very beautiful to watch. Thank you.

29:41

You're a great example. Thank you. You taught

29:43

me that. You know, and what I did

29:45

in that moment, because I was traveling a

29:47

lot, and my immune system was breaking down,

29:50

and you taught me. You take your supplements,

29:52

you drink your teas, and you would do

29:54

like a little dance. And we were both

29:56

in the room like dancing and shaking. And

29:58

I said, and I started saying this

30:00

affirmation because you always taught us to do affirmation. I

30:03

said, I am well in every cell. I am well

30:05

in every cell. I am well in every cell. And

30:07

do you know? I did not

30:09

sneeze. I did not. But then after,

30:11

I broke down. But

30:13

doing it, I was good. I remember

30:15

one time I had this at this

30:17

community, at this center. I

30:20

had the flu, so this was years ago, I

30:22

had the flu so bad that I literally, you

30:25

know, I said, oh man, I don't have time to tell

30:27

this guy I can't come. And

30:29

so I was waiting in the lobby,

30:31

not the lobby, was a little small

30:34

room, sleeping. And

30:36

then I heard my introduction and the

30:38

system minister was introducing me, saying all

30:41

these great things about me and I

30:43

just pulled myself up. and came onto

30:45

the podium, and his spirit just took

30:47

over. Bam! And I just rolled

30:49

with it. And as soon as I finished, I

30:51

got back in the car and drove home and

30:53

fell out with the baby. Yes! And

30:56

that's what I feel. You know it's

30:58

all spirit. It's all God. Because you

31:00

just surrender. You're like, take me, use

31:02

me. I am a vessel. And

31:05

that's how I feel in life. I just

31:07

want to be a vessel. And I want

31:09

God to use me for good works.

31:11

And that's it. I want to surrender my

31:14

ego, surrender my judgment, surrender all of the

31:16

things that I feel like I need to

31:18

be and just surrender to whatever it

31:20

is. Surrender is not giving up. It's surrendering

31:22

to a higher part of yourself. It's surrendering

31:25

to God and you're an emanation of God.

31:27

You're surrendering to the best part of

31:29

you, emerging in a very powerful way. You're

31:31

letting go of everything else so that it

31:34

can come through and be you. Mm

31:36

-hmm because the presence wants to know itself

31:38

as your life. Yes, because it already knows

31:40

But it wants to know itself as you

31:42

and it wants to know itself as

31:44

me Yes, and so we have that's why

31:47

I believe there's a destiny within all of

31:49

us I know and we're here to

31:51

tap into it say yes to it's render

31:53

to it and allow it to unfold in

31:56

a powerful and great way Now you still

31:58

doing your podcast I am.

32:00

I've slowed down a bit because I've

32:02

been, you know, married and then the

32:05

transition and everything. And so right now

32:07

we're on a little hiatus, but it's

32:09

still alive in me. I love having

32:11

these deep conversations and I'm just surrendered

32:14

and I'm waiting for the team. You

32:16

know, I'm looking for the right team

32:18

in Atlanta and LA, and

32:20

I'm just waiting for it. Tell me, let me

32:22

ask you this. You lived in LA, you were

32:24

with us at Agape. I know. And then you

32:26

moved, it was just kind of a mecca, you

32:28

know, of a lot of, you know, we got

32:31

a vegetarian vegan response on every corner, you know,

32:33

yoga studio every corner. Yes,

32:35

they make fun of us because

32:37

they say if you turn the

32:39

nation upside down all the nuts

32:41

are gonna roll in the California

32:43

Well all the fruits will be

32:45

here. Yeah, but but now you

32:47

move to Atlanta, right? So what's

32:49

what's the difference culturally? For

32:53

you just a lot of people and I've

32:55

never said I lived in Atlanta, right? Right

32:57

to Morehouse College, and I live there. Yes.

32:59

Nice one. Yeah, I I love Atlanta and

33:01

I love LA I think

33:04

I surrendered. And I didn't know

33:06

I was surrendering to Atlanta specifically. Again,

33:08

I just surrendered. And I didn't know if I was

33:10

going to end up in Atlanta or Florida, if I

33:12

was going to stay in LA. I was looking for

33:14

homes in Nashville, but I knew I needed to transition.

33:17

And what had happened is that

33:19

building and building and building during

33:21

the pandemic and keeping my team

33:23

of 21 together all through the

33:26

pandemic. And then my biggest event

33:28

was the get loved up online

33:30

virtual retreat and had so many

33:32

incredible leaders teaching and speaking. 8

33:35

,000 opt -ins on Zoom

33:37

and I brought my whole

33:40

yoga teacher training online and

33:42

using tech to still teach

33:45

and I burned out. I

33:48

was working from 5 a .m. Sometimes

33:50

to 10 p .m. Regularly scheduled 8

33:52

a .m. To 8 p .m. Stuff

33:54

on the calendar, but of course I

33:57

had to wake up and do myself

33:59

care before that and then after that

34:01

so I was just really and then

34:03

that's when clubhouse was around so I'm

34:05

3 a .m. In somebody's chat room

34:08

ready to get up and speak and

34:10

share about you know what I was

34:12

building with the retreat and Then I

34:14

finished it it was incredibly successful. People

34:17

like yourself and Marie Forleo,

34:19

and I had spiritual leaders,

34:21

wellness leaders, entrepreneurs, extremely successful.

34:24

And then afterwards, I sat

34:26

in my bathtub and I

34:28

cried. After everything was over.

34:30

After everything was over. Not

34:32

only was I burnt out,

34:34

I was alone. And I

34:36

just turned 40. And I

34:39

asked myself, like, why

34:41

am I crying? And

34:43

I was like, I'm lonely. Because all this

34:45

success, and I had no one to share.

34:47

I had been through a string of toxic

34:49

relationships that were very challenging. Butterfrogs before the

34:52

prince showed up. Oh my goodness. And I'd

34:54

given up. Before that, I

34:56

was just like, you know what? Whatever.

34:58

I'm not even worried about it anymore.

35:00

And in that moment, it was like,

35:02

no, you want romantic partnership. And just

35:04

like everything else you've manifested in your

35:06

life, you have some trauma. some childhood

35:08

trauma and some trauma that's happened in,

35:10

you know, experience assault and things like

35:12

that. You've talked about it, but you

35:14

haven't dealt with the impact that it's

35:16

had on the way you view men

35:18

and relationships. So I dove

35:20

deep into Queen of Fools' work and

35:22

I did womb healing and I, you

35:25

know, really dove deep. And that's when

35:27

I read Homecoming by Dr. Tema on

35:29

my way to Atlanta. I knew that

35:31

I was going to go through a

35:33

deep healing phase. What I didn't know

35:35

is that it was going to take

35:38

three years. Because people ask you, like,

35:40

how long is this going to take?

35:42

And I'm like, six months. I'll be

35:44

back. I was surrendered. So

35:46

guess what? Stuff kept not happening. Things

35:48

kept not coming through. And I was

35:50

like, OK, OK. And I

35:52

was truly doing the work. I was doing the work. I

35:55

still wanted things to happen, but it just wasn't a lot.

35:57

And I just surrendered. And I did

35:59

the healing work. And I was provided

36:01

for for the last three years. As

36:03

God promised, I was provided for. I

36:05

maintain my lifestyle through everything I learned

36:07

with online marketing and entrepreneurship and building

36:09

community. I was able to sustain my

36:12

community. I did have to let my

36:14

team go and downsize to about like

36:16

from 21 people to seven, but I

36:18

just surrendered and I truly allowed the

36:20

divine to guide me through the last

36:22

season. And so now I'm kind of

36:24

ramping back up. That's why you said

36:26

with the podcast, I was like, I

36:28

don't have an answer for you because

36:30

I'm so surrendered and I've learned Surrender

36:33

is truly surrender. Yeah, it is truly not

36:35

manipulation. It's not manipulation. It's not just talk

36:37

It's like you set the intention and it

36:39

shows up as it should and if it

36:41

doesn't show up you don't force it You

36:43

don't force it and I think that's the

36:45

big thing that people might not understand because

36:47

I know ways of working That I can

36:49

get where I need to be really fast

36:52

if I use my mind But

36:54

being surrendered is not just getting to a

36:56

certain place or reaching a certain amount of

36:58

people or making a certain amount of money.

37:00

It's being in alignment with the divine purpose

37:02

of my life. And when you're in that

37:04

space... It's not achievement based. It's not, right?

37:06

And you can't lean into what you know

37:08

can get you there in your mind. You

37:10

have to lean into your soul. And when

37:12

you lean into your soul, you trust divine

37:14

timing off of happening right now. You're breaking

37:16

it down so beautifully. You know, hey, I

37:18

studied from the best. I studied

37:20

from the best. You're not manipulating.

37:23

begging, you're beseeching, you're letting go and

37:25

letting God for real. Not the guy

37:27

in the sky, but the presence. It's

37:30

never an absence. And that is

37:32

a difficult thing for people, particularly for

37:34

people who are achievement -oriented, because

37:37

they want to do the three steps that

37:39

get you to success. But when

37:41

you surrender, it's more like

37:44

you're morphing from the caterpillar, everything just

37:46

kind of... doesn't belong to you dissolved

37:48

so that the next stage of you

37:51

can emerge and you manipulate

37:53

that nope You can't you have to

37:55

release yourself to it. Yes. Yes, every

37:57

day and I realized because in my

37:59

heart of like, you know, building community

38:02

and empowering, I was doing a lot

38:04

of things as I was building and

38:06

growing and expanding that was out of

38:08

alignment with my truth. But I was

38:10

moving so fast and I was working

38:12

with so many different people that had

38:15

so many team members that sometimes when

38:17

you grow so much so fast, you

38:19

lose yourself. So I was losing myself

38:21

a little bit more every day until

38:23

I woke up and was like, where

38:25

am I? You know, and I was

38:28

just like, how did I get here?

38:30

I started off just posting online just

38:32

to keep myself accountable for my yoga

38:34

practice. And then next thing you know,

38:36

I got 40 brand deals and I'm

38:39

speaking on stages around the world. And

38:42

grew up somewhere and I saw you with

38:44

the yoga situation. Yeah. And it was beautiful.

38:46

But then I had to check in with

38:48

my soul. And I said, you

38:51

know, what is. right now,

38:53

your highest desire in life.

38:55

And I had to be

38:57

honest with myself. It was

38:59

companionship. And I was like,

39:02

so now what? And then Spirit was

39:04

like, there's work to do. And

39:07

so as my lifestyle design

39:09

podcast is about going through

39:11

the cycle of healing, building,

39:14

and then thriving. And the fact

39:16

that once you get to thrive, It

39:18

can happen all over again. It's a

39:21

cycle. It's a cycle. It's cyclical. And

39:23

so what I realized is that after

39:25

building up, I was going through a

39:27

healing phase again, especially when it came

39:30

to, again, the relationship. My relationship with

39:32

myself, my trauma, my wounding, and I

39:34

just went really deep into it. And

39:36

I did the work. And then I

39:39

went back out there like. You are

39:41

gonna attract someone that's in alignment with

39:43

you someone that wants to live the

39:46

lifestyle because in my head before I

39:48

did the healing work I was like

39:50

I'm never gonna find someone like I'm

39:52

511. I'm super spiritual. I'm vegan I'm

39:55

just the dating pool is getting smaller

39:57

and smaller and smaller You know and

39:59

I was getting goose eggs when I

40:01

was going to the online dating and

40:04

I was just like Goose zero zero

40:06

matches zero matches. No one's matching. No

40:08

one is over 6 '3", spiritual, vegan,

40:11

you know? No. And they're

40:13

not on the app if they are,

40:15

you know? And so I felt very

40:17

discouraged, but I know that... in my

40:19

spiritual work, you just have to have

40:21

faith. And your faith has to outweigh

40:23

your fears. In my first book,

40:25

Let Your Fears Make You Fears, that's what that was about. Your

40:28

fierceness and your belief in yourself and

40:31

your belief in God has to overcome

40:33

your fears, your lack of confidence, your

40:35

limiting beliefs. And if it doesn't, you're

40:37

going to be waiting longer until it

40:39

does, until you master frequency of everything

40:41

that you desire. So I started to

40:44

feel better. And then I attracted this

40:46

incredible man, right? Little did

40:48

I know I had a lot more trauma

40:50

that I was gonna have to deal with

40:52

but because I'd done the work and because

40:54

I am a student of the practice and

40:56

even though I am a teacher and growing

40:58

community I will forever be a student. Forever.

41:00

Forever be a student. Absolutely. I'm a student

41:02

forever. So now that you

41:04

pivoted to this conversation, how did you

41:06

meet your man? Well, I met him on a

41:09

dating app. I can't say which one because, you know, there

41:11

might be a pay deal later. We'll

41:15

get into that. I know

41:17

my role. And so I

41:19

met him on a dating app, which I was scared to

41:21

do, by the way, because when you're public, you're

41:23

nervous. So I definitely kept my social media off. But I

41:25

was like, I'm having trouble on

41:27

my own because of said trauma. And I

41:30

felt very insecure when it came to dating.

41:32

And my mom was actually the one that

41:34

told me, she said, you just let men

41:36

pick you. It's like this guy, and you're

41:38

like, oh, I'm dating him. And then this

41:40

guy, oh, I'm dating the next guy. And

41:42

guy says, you look cute. I'll take you

41:44

out to dinner. And all the next thing

41:46

you know, you're in a relationship. She's

41:49

like, you need to pick your guy. I

41:52

was like, okay, well, the only way I

41:54

know how to pick my guy is to,

41:56

and I also needed practice. I was out

41:58

of practice. What do I really want in

42:00

a man? It's one thing, the physical things,

42:02

but how do I want to feel when

42:04

I'm with a person? So I really like

42:06

the work. I got really clear on what

42:08

I want to feel in a relationship, the

42:11

touch and the connection and to walk

42:13

with God and all of these things.

42:15

So I got very clear on just

42:17

like I visualized my home and my

42:19

community and everything else. I got really

42:21

clear on what I want to end

42:23

divine partner. And so when he showed

42:25

up, I was like. This

42:27

feels like it. But then

42:29

I got scared because of trauma. I hadn't dealt

42:31

with all the trauma. So I tried to run

42:33

away. But he was so strong and ready to

42:35

hold space for me. And that's, I feel like

42:38

how you know you've met your divine partner. Not

42:40

only are you ready for them, they are ready

42:42

for you. And you will have to do work

42:44

together. But it's almost like a balancing act of

42:46

them holding space for you and you holding space

42:48

for them as you rise together. And

42:50

so to find that in partnership has

42:53

been incredible. Beautiful. So you got

42:55

your nutrition, you got your yoga, you

42:58

got your stacking of your practices, you

43:01

got your relationship. Is

43:03

there a next? Yes, there is. Well, the

43:05

other thing that I realized in this season

43:07

of my life, when I had the kind

43:09

of breakdown, I didn't have, I

43:11

had a big community and I knew a

43:13

lot of people, but I didn't have a

43:15

depth in relationship. There's no one

43:18

I could really call in that moment and really

43:20

explain what I was going through. And

43:22

I realized that because I was moving so

43:24

fast and everybody's busy, because sometimes in LA,

43:26

everybody's got their next thing going on and

43:28

you just run past people. I

43:31

was on the phone with these three

43:33

other women and I'm gonna shout them

43:35

out because I absolutely love and adore

43:37

them, Nick, Ra and Natalie. And they

43:40

were on the phone with me and

43:42

we were talking about doing this group.

43:45

together on the app, you know, and we were

43:47

going to do this collective group and I just

43:49

broke down crying. And I was like, I just

43:51

want to have dinner. I just

43:54

want to have dinner. I need a hug. I

43:56

just broke all the way down. I was done.

43:58

I was burnt out. I just want

44:00

to hang out. So do you know

44:02

we start hanging out every Tuesday

44:05

here in LA and all three

44:07

women were in Mexico at my

44:09

destination wedding as my bride and

44:11

groom. And that is a testament

44:13

to be honest. Yeah, you said

44:15

what you needed. Tell the truth. I don't want

44:17

to be starting a whole other business. Yeah. Yeah.

44:19

I want to just hang out right here. Yeah,

44:21

I just want to hang out. just hang out

44:24

and friends? And they held me. They were so,

44:26

so, these powerful women just held me. And every

44:28

time I come to LA, we try to get

44:30

together. Sometimes all of us get together or just

44:32

a portion, but we still maintain that connection. And

44:34

I think, well, I know it was because I

44:36

was vulnerable in that moment. And not only did

44:38

I need it, they needed it too, you know?

44:40

And I think that's the beautiful. voiced it. I

44:43

voiced it. Yeah. And I think that's the beautiful

44:45

thing about being vulnerable is that you remind people

44:47

what they need as well. So

44:49

right now, in taking

44:51

back your mind, what's your main go

44:54

-to? I

44:57

take back my mind realizing

45:00

that I am here for

45:02

a reason and a purpose,

45:04

and I am here for

45:07

God. And that

45:09

whenever I get too far

45:11

into what the world is

45:14

telling me, what others think,

45:16

caring what others think, it

45:18

takes me out of alignment

45:20

with my spiritual mission. So

45:23

I like to surrender my

45:25

mind and really align. with

45:28

spirit, and I call that divine alignment. And when

45:30

I feel that divine alignment, to me, that is

45:32

taking back my mind. It's taking it away from

45:34

the news, taking away from those limiting beliefs, taking

45:36

it away from the demands other people have, because

45:38

if it's not aligned with spirit, I tell some

45:41

people, you know, well, you're supposed to do this

45:43

and that. I was like, well, talk to God,

45:45

and God will talk to me, because I'm not

45:47

feeling an alignment with that right now. And if

45:49

I'm really supposed to do it like you say

45:51

I should, well, God's gonna tell me. So you

45:54

talk to God. I have told that to people

45:56

as well. Right? they still tell me something and

45:58

I say, really, well, I have to hear from

46:00

God. Right. Because then you

46:02

know. appreciate what you're saying. Where is the

46:04

second hand? Yes, this is second hand information.

46:06

And it doesn't, I don't feel the spiritual

46:09

alignment right now. And I think when you

46:11

really live your life like that, it's sad.

46:13

Like, I still grieve when I lose friends

46:15

transition or with friends and then, you know,

46:17

something happens. And it's still super hurtful, but

46:19

I'm learning that's just part of life. That's

46:22

just part of growing and evolving. seasons. They're

46:24

seasons. As they say,

46:26

seasons, reasons are lifetimes. And

46:28

you have a few that are lifetime friends.

46:32

A lot of them are seasonal. And

46:34

you appreciate that season. They've come to

46:36

heal, they've come to be a mirror

46:38

to you, they've come to reflect things,

46:40

but sometimes that season is over. And

46:43

you forgive, keep all the good memories.

46:46

and then roll with your homies. That is

46:48

so true. And I finally learned that you

46:51

have heard it for a long time, but

46:53

I'm finally, I feel like embodying that in

46:55

my life and being okay with it, you

46:57

know, because sometimes you just ruminate, right? You

46:59

play back like, oh, how could have that

47:02

been? What could have I, what could I

47:04

have done better? You

47:06

know, but then you get in this mental

47:08

loop and you got to take back your

47:10

mind and say, you were good, all

47:13

is well, be peace. and let

47:15

go, surrender. I teach three

47:17

ways you move through that. One, acceptance.

47:21

You don't go into wishful thinking. I wish I

47:23

would or could or should not. You have to

47:25

accept. This is the relationship right now. It's not

47:27

how it used to be. Don't

47:30

acceptance. Two, harvest the good.

47:32

You just go in and harvest

47:34

every good and perfect thing that

47:36

came out of that relationship. And

47:38

then three, forgive all the rest.

47:40

I love that. Forgiveness. Forgiveness

47:43

is the key. Like I've done, I

47:45

do this practice called transformational letter writing

47:47

where I actually say exactly what I

47:49

really think and feel and just get

47:51

all of any frustration and if I

47:53

feel like I was wrong or misunderstood

47:55

or I just get it all out

47:57

and then I do some breath work

47:59

and then the second part of that

48:01

is Apologizing.

48:03

Apologizing to myself as me and then

48:06

apologizing if I feel like I was

48:08

wrong. I say I apologize to myself

48:10

for them. Right. And then I let

48:12

it go. Yeah, because you know why?

48:14

They're you. Right. Spiritually, we're

48:16

all connected. We're all connected. And I've

48:19

had so many times, because I teach

48:21

that practice now, I have so many

48:23

times when people say, oh my goodness,

48:25

right after I did that, someone texted

48:28

me and I experienced after one letter

48:30

the next day, that person called me

48:32

and was like, I'm so sorry. And

48:34

they completely apologized. I've had that happen

48:36

like verbatim one time, but many times,

48:39

you know, days or weeks later, the

48:41

person will reach out or call me.

48:43

Absolutely. I was in this meditation experience.

48:45

And there was this guy that had

48:47

been trained by, he was an older

48:50

gentleman. He had been trained by Paramahansa

48:52

Yogananda. He was at BioCybernaut. And

48:54

he didn't want to do his forgiveness

48:56

work, but he just wanted to meditate.

48:59

And so the facilitator, told

49:03

him, James Hart, to

49:05

go in and do forgiveness work. He

49:07

wouldn't do it. Finally, he

49:09

did it. And there was some benefit James was

49:11

telling us. You could see it on his brainwaves.

49:14

And then the next day, his sister called him.

49:17

He hadn't spoken to his sister in 20 years. At

49:20

least 20 years. And she had

49:22

called the office, and then they'd put him

49:24

in touch. And James was

49:26

like, wait a minute. We didn't know you

49:28

had a sister. Whose last

49:30

time you talked to her is 20

49:32

years ago, but the moment he went

49:34

into his forgiveness She picked up on

49:36

it and called and there was a

49:38

tearful reunion. So forgiveness is powerful because

49:41

it creates It opens up you start

49:43

to pay your telepathy bill So that

49:45

you can actually be in contact again.

49:47

Right. That is so true. And I

49:49

just also experienced that. That's another thing

49:51

that happened with my mom's transition. I

49:53

hadn't talked to my sister in two

49:55

years. In two years.

49:58

And in holding space with my mom,

50:00

one of the things that I was

50:02

doing was energetically praying for forgiveness for

50:05

me, for her, and just everything in

50:07

the family and things like that. And

50:09

you know, my sister walked. into the

50:11

hospital room she wasn't coming for many

50:13

days she walked into the hospital room

50:15

and we embraced and when we embraced

50:17

I just felt light energy light energy

50:19

light energy powerfully like charging both of

50:22

our bodies and I just held on

50:24

to her like for 15 seconds just

50:26

I have never felt this type of

50:28

power flowing through me and then that

50:30

made it on We've been connected. We

50:32

both forgave each other. We talk to

50:34

each other. But the healing happened in

50:36

that moment. And you know, because I've

50:38

told you about it now. I was

50:41

in tears. She was in tears. And

50:43

you can't explain it. And I know

50:45

that was mom. It wipes everything. Wipes

50:47

the slate. It was because every other

50:49

thing is just stuff. It's just stuff,

50:51

man. just stuff. But we felt that

50:53

light. And it will it important. And

50:56

it does. But the spirit. Spirit can wipe

50:58

all that away. I'm also

51:00

glad. about the fact you're going to

51:03

come on and be a part of the Rhythmia Life

51:05

Advancement family. I'm looking

51:07

forward to that. That's going to be great

51:09

because they need to have this energy there.

51:11

Thank you. have a lot to bring. I'm

51:13

excited. Yeah, they're doing good work there. A

51:15

lot of good forgiveness work there. It's

51:17

powerful. Let me ask you this. Yes. How

51:20

can they reach you? Oh, how can you reach me?

51:23

Coya web on everything right coya

51:25

web .com ko y a w

51:28

e bb on instagram coya web

51:30

i'm on youtube as well i

51:32

would say like instagram is my

51:35

main platform and then my website

51:37

and then i also have a

51:39

Community where i we are in

51:42

this every week I go into

51:44

my community and we're charging up

51:46

together. We're doing forgiveness work together.

51:49

And I have a community cohort every

51:51

week on Wednesday and also have a

51:54

mastermind community of entrepreneurs and we're building

51:56

sustainable mindful businesses together. And so if

51:58

you feel like you don't have a

52:00

community because you provided such a community

52:03

for me and I'm always going to

52:05

be a part of that community, I

52:08

realized that people need communities

52:10

where they feel safe, where they feel

52:12

love, where they don't feel judged, and

52:14

I feel like the more of us

52:16

create these safe communities, the more we

52:19

can heal together and move forward and

52:21

bring that light energy into the world.

52:23

It's necessary because people are feeling so

52:25

separated right now, they're anxious, and

52:28

it's a call for greater entrepreneurship

52:30

right now. Not to depend on

52:32

anything, but God through you. Yes.

52:36

and how powerful that is. And it's absolutely

52:38

priceless, but it will get you through everything

52:40

you could possibly go through in your life.

52:43

Any other last words? I

52:46

just want to say thank you to

52:48

everyone listening. Thank you for being here

52:50

and thank you for saying yes to

52:53

you. If I could leave you with

52:55

anything, just remember who you are. Take

52:58

your mind back and live

53:01

powerfully from your soul. That's

53:04

all. And love yourself, love others, and

53:06

love the world one day at a

53:08

time, one breath at a time. That's

53:12

it. I

53:14

love you. And

53:17

we are blessed.

53:20

are blessed. This is called your web. Need

53:23

I say more? It's

53:25

so kind. We're going to change the world

53:27

one person at a time in your inclusion.

53:30

Yes, I like that. Peace and blessings. Peace

53:32

and blessings, one day at a time, one breath at

53:34

a time, one person at a time. And

53:38

I like the way you

53:40

dance. Dance, dance, dance, dance,

53:43

dance. Dance, dance, dance,

53:45

dance. It's a praise, dance,

53:47

dance. See

53:49

why I love him? Y 'all

53:51

see this, right? Thank

53:53

you. See this, right? Thank you for

53:55

changing my life. Thank you for expanding

53:58

my life. Thank you for practicing. Thank

54:00

you. Peace and

54:02

blessings, everyone. Yeah, you're going to watch me hug

54:04

him 10 times, so just what it is. Peace

54:14

and blessings. I truly

54:16

hope that you are enjoying

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sitting, being aware

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57:58

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58:01

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58:03

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58:05

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58:07

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58:09

fiat, an ambassador, an

58:13

emanation of that changeless

58:15

life, anchoring

58:17

wisdom, intelligence. creativity,

58:20

love, and joy on earth

58:22

as it is in the

58:24

highest vibration and frequency. We're

58:27

going to do this for just a

58:29

moment in meditation. I want you to

58:31

have your feet firmly placed on the

58:33

ground, have your back erect without being

58:35

rigid. Close your eyes and give yourself

58:37

permission to extract your attention away from

58:39

the world of what? The world of

58:41

appearances, the world of effects, the

58:44

world of circumstances and situations.

58:47

Remove your attention from that. Instead,

58:50

embrace an intention to wake

58:53

up to your glorious nature,

58:55

the life you had even

58:58

before your parents were born,

59:01

even before you took an

59:03

incarnation, that life that is

59:06

timeless and ageless and eternal.

59:10

That is your intention to wake up.

59:15

Now, as you embrace this intention, Notice

59:18

that the body is breathing. And

59:26

you're just witnessing the breath. The

59:31

breath is allowing you to be present in

59:34

this moment. And

59:41

if any thoughts emerge, any

59:44

emotions, any

59:46

inner conversations, any

59:48

reminiscing about the past or a projection

59:51

into what is called the future, you

59:54

just look at it without

59:56

intervening and you're

59:59

becoming more and

1:00:01

more aware that

1:00:03

you the

1:00:06

awareness not the

1:00:09

content passing through. Hmm

1:00:43

if attention drifts come

1:00:45

back, be aware of

1:00:47

the breath, be

1:00:49

aware of the feeling

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tone of your intention

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to wake up to

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your glorious nature and

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witness everything else that

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emerges. thoughts feelings emotions, sensations

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of the body, sounds in the room,

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they're all passing through

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your awareness. you the

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awareness? Let

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stillness speak to you, The

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quietude have its way with

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you, the

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solitude, be

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your inner

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sanctum of

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spiritual

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sobriety. Allow

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the eternal to

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be active, That

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you may carry the

1:02:47

eternal into time. You

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may carry the eternal into time

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and space. You

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may carry love and

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peace into the world.

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All of this is happening now. We

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give thanks for this, for

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this pause that

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refreshes And

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allow the peace, the love,

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the joy, the harmony to be

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so the activity

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of our awareness is

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happening now. And

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so it is. Amen.

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Thank you so much for

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joining in in this moment

1:03:32

of reflection and dedication to

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waking up to our glorious

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nature. Have a most

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beautiful and magnificent

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