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that's the biz, you know, we do over here. We highlight

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the low lights. And I always say, These

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are the stories behind the storytellers. Very

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excited to have this guest here. First

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time on the HoneyPat. Ladies

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and

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gentlemen, please welcome Miss Pat. Welcome

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to the HoneyDew. Miss Pat.

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Thank you for having me.

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Thank you for being here. It's been a long time. We've been

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trying to make this happen. We have. We've

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been back and forth and back and forth. I come

1:42

here and I can't make it. So thank

1:44

you for being

1:45

patient. You're welcome. Thank you for being here.

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Look, I'm really excited to talk to you. But before

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we do, plug and promote everything you

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wanna

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promote, please. Go to miss pat comedy

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dot com for all my tour dates. I

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have a TV show called the misspecial on

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BT

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Plus. It just dropped the third season.

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Yes. Congrats today. So make sure

2:04

you go and watch the new season of the

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men's patch show. If you're not familiar with the men's patch

2:08

show, you got three season to

2:11

get into. Okay? Three funny ass

2:13

season. Yeah. Yeah. I watched it. And I watch

2:15

it. Thank you. I do. Yes. I have BT

2:17

Plus because I signed up for all kinds

2:19

of packages. And I wanted

2:21

to again to I'll set it to you before we record

2:23

him, but congrats. Because to get even a second

2:26

season these days with everything that's out there

2:28

is

2:28

huge. So to have a third one's really you're really

2:30

doing something. You know, we

2:32

we work really hard over

2:34

there to stick out because, you

2:36

know, BT Plus is a new platform. They

2:38

I don't even think they're three years old.

2:41

If they three years

2:41

old.

2:42

So did you start your first season when

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they launched then? Well, they was already out.

2:46

So they might be four years old. So when we first

2:48

got there. They was pretty new. Mhmm.

2:51

And so I was a little worried in the beginning.

2:53

I'm like, oh, I when when they told us

2:55

BT because it was Hulu show, they

2:57

did it. They dropped it. Awesome. And

2:59

so we were sitting there waiting. BT

3:01

Plus it up. And I was like, what the hell is BT

3:03

Plus? Never heard of it. And then

3:05

when we got into it, you know, I tell my co

3:07

creator all the time I say, I think we're at the

3:09

right place, well, they allow

3:11

us to be us. Ain't nobody there? They

3:13

don't understand what it is to be us in a

3:15

miracle. They understand that the jokes

3:18

were written, and it brings over I think

3:20

I know miss Pence Show brings over a lot of

3:22

diversity. For BT Plus. So,

3:24

you know, I was just happy they picked us up and

3:26

and they rolled with

3:27

us. They let us go there. Yeah.

3:30

What I love about you though is you jump them back

3:32

with all of us a long time ago. Ari

3:34

and Eric -- Yeah. -- Abrams and those guys.

3:37

Like, even before everything got

3:39

crazy and popular and you've been you've

3:41

been right there in the pocket the whole time

3:43

just killing

3:44

it.

3:44

I'm trying I'm trying to you know,

3:47

it it my first podcast I have a date was

3:49

Eddie Ellis.

3:49

Was it Eddie at first or Eddie at first? Eddie

3:51

at first. I didn't know the fuck of podcast was,

3:54

didn't know anything about podcast. Somebody

3:57

was one of the one of my friends was listening

3:59

to any of at the time. He was

4:01

like, I also invited with some real stories. And he was

4:03

like, you should try this podcast. Yeah.

4:05

What's a podcast? So I flew

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to

4:08

LA, and I did it.

4:09

You did. And the next thing I know I was getting

4:11

invited on every white boy

4:13

in the city park.

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I felt like a looker. I was just

4:20

passing me around more stories. More stories.

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More stories. Well, your stories are unlike

4:25

anybody's stories. I mean, you've got

4:27

an unlimited supply of

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them. And I have there's I have my favorites. Jimmy

4:30

Carter's one of my favorites. I

4:32

just did that on Jimmy Kim. I love

4:34

it. Shot

4:36

through the titties, one of my favorites, selling

4:38

selling drugs outside where you could look

4:40

right in the school

4:41

window.

4:42

This is one of my favorites, dude. There's so

4:44

many of them. Before the exclusion

4:46

with no drugs. Oh, yeah. Right. Now

4:48

you can't do that. No. I was grandfathered

4:51

in by the time. They realized that she

4:53

was even alone. I was, like, y'all,

4:55

like, talking to me because I was here before he looked

4:57

at the sign was.

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So here's what I do wanna know because

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the wild stories they're out there, like,

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what is life like now for you?

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Like because I know

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I'm from Baltimore. I'll never lose

5:11

that chip on my shoulder. I always

5:13

have my shoulders up and there's

5:15

always at least one finch fist

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clenched. How how do

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you adapt to quote unquote

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regular life? Like, you said you told

5:23

me before you live in an all white neighborhood? Like,

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what is life like? For miss Pat

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once you get out of that

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lifestyle, let's say.

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You're talking out of the celebrity lifestyle?

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No. Not not the slip. I'm talking about what

5:36

is life like? Just even if you what

5:38

is it like leaving a life

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of

5:40

drugs, crime, all of that,

5:42

like that transition.

5:44

I've been married almost thirty some years. So

5:47

But now you're telling these stories and people

5:49

your neighbors are hearing

5:50

this, the people your kids go to school what they're hearing

5:52

is, what is life like for you? I mean,

5:55

everybody's interested in the stories. I don't

5:57

think people really judge if they do. They don't

5:59

say

5:59

shit. And if they do, I don't care. don't

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get any people that slide up to you at the vent or

6:04

whatever. Like, I heard you on that. Do you know what I mean?

6:06

Fuck. Yeah. Well, sometime what they I they

6:08

hear me all the time on Rolga. And they love

6:10

the stores. And the ones that don't like I tell

6:12

them, I say, hey, I'm like a fast food restaurant.

6:14

You gonna pass ten more, ten of them to

6:16

get to me. So take your pig.

6:18

I'm not here to please you. I'm fifty

6:20

years old. I don't give a fuck. Are you fifty

6:22

years old? Yeah. I'll be fifty one in April. I said,

6:24

I don't give fuck. don't have time to be,

6:27

you know, like, we did a we did a bit

6:29

just on season three at a Spectrum, and

6:31

we say VOTOX got

6:33

more chemicals than than the flip. Revlon.

6:35

And this lady was like, you're gonna take I'm

6:38

gonna write into b t for you. I said, lady,

6:40

get the fuck out of my inbox. I gotta get the

6:42

fuck. I'm bringing awareness to

6:44

this shit because they stopped talking about it.

6:46

So get out of my inbox with this bullshit

6:48

and this TV and move along

6:50

bitch. Yeah. This

6:51

isn't where you go for your --

6:53

Yeah. -- your

6:54

your complaints about Flint, Michigan, and BOTOX.

6:56

Yeah. And so, you know, you you have people

6:58

that that wanna a judge. You have people that have

7:01

things that say so to everybody. But I

7:03

called me, I say, you're mad because

7:05

you can't do what I'm doing. That's why your Fed

7:07

ASM high your computer judging

7:09

me. So I don't care.

7:11

She's

7:11

been authentic since day one.

7:13

I don't know how to change. Right. That's the same.

7:16

Yeah. Don't know how to be anybody different.

7:18

I try to be a better me, but that's about

7:20

all I can

7:21

do. I don't know how to change.

7:22

It took me two season to learn how to act.

7:24

I said, oh, okay. As opposed to cry right

7:26

here. I think you do pretty good. I

7:29

mean, all comedies. That's I

7:31

mean, no offense. I could see you've taken

7:33

another role if you worked at

7:34

it, but I don't comedians, I think any

7:36

any comedian that can act. I'm like, they're doing good.

7:39

They're doing good. You know what? I I remember

7:41

sending my my I say, Rogen,

7:43

please just watch my my

7:46

pilot in Rogen. My parents don't really like

7:48

watching my friends though because I don't like being judgmental.

7:50

I said, watch it, Rogen. I'm telling you.

7:52

Just watch it and give me your honest opinion.

7:55

And I think Ruggles out in the jungle somewhere

7:57

on vacation that I could never fucking afford.

7:59

Because I'm telling you, as he was typing

8:01

the text back to him, I could hit a rain fox.

8:06

Well, the fuck are you in? Vacation

8:09

and Rohit. So

8:12

and he texts, but he's like, this is nothing

8:14

I was expecting. And he was like, this

8:16

is really fucking good.

8:19

And and I was like, well, you know, you

8:21

have somebody from totally different walks of

8:23

life than I am. And I and, you

8:25

know, he gave me his on his opinion, he was

8:27

like, If somebody don't pick this up, they're

8:29

fucking fool. And he watched

8:32

it, and he gave me his feedback. And I was like,

8:34

oh, okay. Well, I got

8:36

something here. So even after Hulu

8:38

dropped it, I always I always stuck

8:40

in the back of my head how how much

8:42

of a crossover this show is. It's

8:44

not black or it's not white. It's just

8:46

American problems. What we

8:48

do as an American people human

8:51

beings. And so, you know, I

8:54

I wanna keep I I personally

8:56

wanna keep the producing stuff

8:58

like that.

9:01

What what are some of the challenges you have

9:03

with stuff you actually wanna

9:06

say or do and then the network or

9:08

or the you

9:09

know, the the execs, like, we can't do

9:11

that. We can't go there. Like, what are some

9:13

of the challenges with 0BT plus

9:15

a streaming. So they don't say we can't, but

9:17

they do push. If

9:20

you watch if you watch the first

9:23

season at the end, me and my Tammy

9:26

Roman, who plays on the show, We had

9:28

a big argument, big fight because

9:30

she brought she had a lot of kids to bring

9:32

drugs in the house, and she's a ex drug

9:34

addict. And, you know, I

9:36

goes to fuck off in the wrong way. And

9:38

he was like, oh my god. We don't wanna see too

9:40

black when we fight like that. And I had to

9:42

tell the network, I said, people don't watch

9:45

this show to put a bow on

9:47

shit. They say regular TV. They

9:49

can go on to CBS, ABC, anywhere.

9:51

For that. I said, they watched this show because they

9:53

feel what we're going through. And

9:55

when I slammed that dough and tell me was

9:57

on the other side of that dough cry. I

9:59

was on the other side that don't crack it. I hate

10:01

we hated that episode, and

10:04

people felt it. And and, you

10:06

know, the network kinda pushed back.

10:08

And I said, let me be me.

10:10

You hired me to be me. You didn't hire

10:13

me to be you. I don't give a fuck about you

10:15

being uncomfortable. So we

10:17

did an abortion episode, and I think sometime,

10:19

I think we hit too close to home for these

10:21

eggs, and it and it fucks with them. So they

10:23

don't want it to be they don't wanna see it.

10:26

So I just told him I said, look, it's it's

10:28

it's it's authentic TV and it's my life.

10:31

Let me be me. So we've

10:33

had a few pushback. We had some stuff that

10:35

we had to remove. You know, which

10:37

I remember we we did a derogatory episode,

10:40

and we were saying stuff like the

10:43

Emrer, Chinson. You

10:46

know, at the time people was going around

10:48

being no Asian people. Mhmm. And I

10:50

wanted to say a Jap slap, which

10:53

is a old turn. Because I'm

10:55

from the

10:55

south. And they didn't they didn't really

10:57

know what Jap said was. I've

10:58

never even heard that one. Exactly.

11:01

Never heard that one. It's a waste. lot

11:03

of it. It's I didn't I didn't even know

11:05

it was racist. Okay. Because I grew up

11:07

in the inner center of Atlanta. I'm gonna say, get out and fight

11:09

Jeff's up, you guys. Didn't didn't know it was racist

11:11

until my husband told me it was. So what we

11:13

was doing is the rocketship episode. We put

11:16

everything in there. And I said, well, we

11:18

could say niggle, but we can't say ChapSlam.

11:20

What kind of shit is this? So they made us

11:22

change it to chinks, and I'm

11:24

like, chinks is worse.

11:25

I I wanna say it is too.

11:27

I wanna say it is. I'm like, what are y'all talking

11:29

about? So we ended up changing the word

11:31

to chinks. It was just is that aired?

11:34

Yes. It aired. And people loved

11:36

the episode because It was saying

11:38

how I'm fifty years old, but I got

11:40

kids. And they don't we're not out

11:42

on what we can say. Back in the day,

11:45

you know, your grandfather grandfather, your

11:47

grandfather, Daddy could walk around and say inward

11:49

freely. You're not gonna be able to say that today.

11:52

And how old people don't realize

11:54

times have changed, but a lot of

11:56

people still stuck. Like when I was

11:58

taking care of my father was down at Cassey, be like,

12:01

I live in a I live in our white neighbor. He said,

12:03

these are nice crackers. I say, dad.

12:06

These people ain't crackers. Okay. You

12:13

can't be telling people crack on that. You

12:17

say crackers. grew up with and I'm

12:18

like, daddy. But,

12:22

you know what I mean? didn't

12:23

know. I said, oh, you

12:25

can't jip me and somebody said, you can't say

12:27

that. No. You can't you

12:28

can't say what's jip? And they said it's a derogatory

12:30

from jipsy. didn't know that.

12:32

And now you're

12:33

shitting on the jip season. I'm like, what?

12:35

That's what that is. I had no idea.

12:37

No idea. This is amazing, like, where you grow

12:39

up. You don't even know some shit's

12:41

racist because Everyone is saying

12:44

it freely and openly and every

12:46

Shit. Every adult you guys are saying

12:48

it. It's because they look like you. Because

12:51

everybody looked like you. Hatch all across

12:53

that fucking railroad

12:54

train. You learn. You can't say that

12:56

shit

12:57

or or was races. Really even

12:59

zip in your neighborhood was racist back in the

13:01

day. No. We said zip. Oh, you did? No. The

13:05

what what else? We we said

13:07

zip. So Jabs labs labs labs

13:09

labs labs

13:10

labs labs labs labs

13:13

labs labs labs labs labs labs labs labs labs labs labs. Didn't

13:15

let them know it. Well, I'm my cocurator

13:18

is a twenty five year old, twenty six year old

13:20

young guy. So, you

13:21

know, of course, he had never heard

13:22

it ever. But I called a few people that was

13:24

around my age. I was like, yeah, everybody heard the jail slam.

13:27

But we couldn't you know, they wouldn't air it.

13:29

And it was all about the regulatory workers.

13:32

But I was shocked, nobody had heard

13:34

it. But I guess it was a southern thing

13:36

because I'm born and raised in Atlanta.

13:38

Yeah. And you gotta go check out the episode.

13:40

Don't be in my box saying I'm saying nothing racist.

13:43

I'm saying the words that have changed

13:45

over the years. That once

13:47

was not offensive, that's very offensive

13:49

now. And the whole episode is was,

13:51

I'm fifty and what I can't say,

13:54

which was shocking. You know

13:56

what? And then I got my young kids and they're

13:58

saying, you can't say don't words, mama.

14:01

And I'm

14:01

like, wow. I can't? So

14:04

it was a learning episode for all of us,

14:06

I hope. I watched the video

14:08

one time. It was a politician. And

14:11

it's so funny because he's a older white dude. Mhmm.

14:13

But there's two younger white kids sitting behind

14:15

him. And the guy's Redneck for

14:17

sure and he's talking about his

14:20

dad working with these people where he goes

14:22

now. You might wanna get me at twenty dollars.

14:24

But I'm a say you ain't gonna june me down and

14:26

you see the two and he's says it like it's

14:29

He's normal

14:29

conversation. He's an old white man. These

14:32

two young white kids behind him. Look at

14:34

each other. They're like, that he fucking died.

14:36

You can see him on camera, like, oh, shit.

14:39

And then all hell breaks loose and he's gotta

14:41

make an apology for

14:42

it. He's that

14:42

old white guy. He's like Yeah.

14:44

I didn't know that was a fast limiter.

14:46

Like, how the hell did you not know that one?

14:48

Because he'd been stuck in his own world. That's

14:50

right. And he never came across a railroad.

14:52

That's right. So nobody somebody would say, you can't

14:54

say that word. That's a fissome.

14:56

So, you know, that that's

14:59

why I really don't worry about what people say.

15:01

You know, when I'm creating. I'm like, get the fuck

15:03

out of my inbox. Okay? I I know

15:05

I have younger generation in my generation

15:07

in my life, which I have my kid. Hey, can I I

15:10

have a gay daughter? I talk about, you

15:12

know, I create a lot of content

15:14

about gays because my daughter is

15:16

gay on the show. And I

15:18

did a whole episode about him,

15:21

them, Darren her. Mhmm. And

15:24

I had no fucking ass deal. Someone's

15:27

I had no idea. People just go by

15:29

him and him and her. And

15:32

I'm like, when we did this shit? think

15:35

it's called. What is it called? Your pronouns.

15:37

Yeah. Pro noun. Ginger

15:40

you don't know what it is either?

15:41

Gender what? Oh, identity.

15:44

Agenda something. And we did a whole episode

15:46

on this. Well, there's him, her, there's they,

15:48

them. Yes. Yeah. And I'm like

15:50

I've been joking with my steps on too.

15:52

Like, when you say they, How

15:55

many people are coming over? You're

15:56

trying

15:57

to say we got one person

15:58

coming over. We got twenty coming over. I did a whole

16:00

episode. I'm trying to be ignorant. Jinderinderinderinderinderinderinderinderinderinderinderinderinderinderinderinderinder,

16:10

and I had never heard of this shit. And the

16:12

first thing I thought my daughter my other daughter

16:14

said, I thought she said Nutra Geneer. Y'all

16:21

shampoo

16:21

now. So wait, let me ask you this then.

16:23

Can we talk about that? What? You're

16:25

having a gay daughter. What about having

16:27

a gay

16:28

though? Well, about you. Like, were you right away

16:31

accepting of it? I mean, she was

16:33

gay eat

16:35

way before

16:37

she ever said she was

16:38

gay. But you make it a a comfortable

16:41

place for her to come out and talk to you about it? Or

16:43

were you Was didn't ever come out and talk because

16:45

she just, you know, she went to college

16:47

and ran off and then I was like, hey, are you gay?

16:50

She's like, yes. So come on home. You eat

16:52

pussy in Atlanta. There's a whole bunch of pussy there. You

16:54

can eat. And I live in his dad.

16:57

I didn't give a fuck. don't eat pussy. I'm

16:59

not gonna tell I don't want to tell me not

17:01

to eat Chick fil A. I'm quite sure because don't

17:03

taste like Chick fil A. But I'm not

17:05

gonna tell you what to eat guys off or from

17:07

that. I'm saying is don't put the pussy

17:09

on my table and eat it. But you didn't

17:11

you didn't talk to her about

17:14

that till she was in her twenties

17:15

down. Right? College? Well,

17:17

she she never came out until she went to college.

17:19

But till you asked her

17:20

Yeah. Access her, are you gay? But you waited that

17:22

long. I didn't give a

17:24

fuck. But you didn't wanna feel the need to

17:26

have a conversation about it or anything. That's what I'm

17:28

saying as a parent. You were, like, whatever. She's who

17:30

she

17:30

is, and I don't need to ask her. No. She didn't.

17:32

She didn't. She didn't. She didn't ask my

17:34

husband. She didn't fucking gay. She's

17:37

only one in the next. She's the only one in my house when trying to get no dick.

17:40

Anybody else was trying to get dick. They was claiming

17:42

not to on top of the roof, going down

17:44

street fucking dick. She was on one at the house reading

17:46

gay books.

17:51

That's why I tell people, if you don't know your

17:53

child's gave it you a end tonight.

17:55

Yeah. You're not you're not paying attention.

17:58

You're not paying attention. know,

18:00

I don't even fuck what she

18:01

do. Is is her life? Is is I

18:04

don't care.

18:04

Are your kids blown away by the upbringing

18:07

you had? Well, that one just

18:09

who just peaked in here. She was dad when

18:11

I sold drugs. You know, I kept me

18:13

up

18:13

halfway. And she pushed her brother down the street with

18:15

a dope in his pamper. But

18:18

Is that where you would keep it?

18:19

Yeah. And

18:19

they pamper. You would. Yeah. Because the police, I was

18:21

me searching. You can't be wrong. There's a

18:24

child in the next station.

18:29

You gotta be smart when you saw him. I love

18:31

the street roll. I do.

18:33

I love the fucking criminal violence.

18:35

It's one of my favorite fucking

18:36

things. What? Right. You're

18:38

right. No cop doing today. Well, even

18:40

if a cop said you need to check that baby's diaper

18:42

out. You check them off again. I will tell

18:44

you, touch my you figure my baby. To

18:51

fuck away from my baby. You touch my

18:53

don't wanna tell them how you figure my baby.

18:56

Oh, you like Finger and Babies.

18:58

Oh, that is not a fucking thing. You went

19:00

out there, but Yeah. You'd figure my

19:02

baby. You're on. But it was a whole cool

19:04

cocaine and I fuck the cocaine. I'm

19:07

talking about this figure that went my bad ass.

19:09

And I tell my baby, start crying. Oh

19:13

my god.

19:16

Tell me the scariest story

19:18

you ever had of of dealing and

19:21

I mean, you've been shot through the teddy.

19:23

I I think that was a scary as for

19:26

me. Well, no. I think

19:27

How did it go through? Did it go toward

19:29

the Yes. And then Came up

19:32

and up to the arm and out. Yeah.

19:34

I think the scare is one time when when

19:37

It was a one

19:40

what's that drug domain? Paulo?

19:42

Pablo Escobar.

19:43

Pablo Escobar. Was getting out of

19:45

Dopin America. And I

19:48

went to go meet a guy. It was a

19:50

Mexican dude. And it was it's It's

19:52

krafford Dollar Church now. Before he bought the

19:54

land over there over in on on

19:57

camera to

19:57

no. I I think it's on camera to roll. I'm

19:59

not for sure. Called Camelot Road?

20:02

No. Camelot. Okay. I

20:04

don't think it's Camelot Road. I can't think exactly

20:06

where it at, but this it was

20:09

like shopping centers there. So I went to go meet

20:11

him about like a half a key with my

20:13

with my partner. And at

20:15

this time, I'm probably like fifteen, Sickler,

20:18

talking mad shit. And I'm yelling

20:20

at the Mexican and talking

20:21

shit. And he just looked at me and said, I will put a fucking

20:23

bullet in your head. And my

20:25

friend's like, oh, you're like, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.

20:28

And, you know, I didn't know nothing about all that

20:30

shit that were going on. I woke up. My fucking

20:32

ass. Boo. Some of her, like, shut don't

20:34

fuck up, bitch. And

20:36

he was like, do you know who you dealing with? That's cartel.

20:39

And I was like, who the fuck is cartel? I'm

20:41

just trying to stay a dope and make pamper money.

20:43

ain't trying to, you know, go to jail

20:45

for real. But I think that was the most

20:47

scariest moment once we got it, and I realized

20:49

how stupid I

20:50

was. And

20:50

when they say calmly like that too.

20:52

You can't even

20:53

react. Like, I'll put a bullet right in your head. You're like

20:55

That's what he's saying. He's saying on it. He's saying

20:57

put a bullet in your fucking head. Fuck

21:00

that. So

21:02

that was one of the most scariest moment. I think,

21:04

man, I was like, I could've got killed a day.

21:05

What what got you into dealing

21:08

and stuff like that at the early eight My

21:10

kid's father my first kid's

21:12

father used to sell drugs, and so he ended up

21:14

going to jail, and I need to rent money. So just took

21:17

my welfare check-in call flipping it.

21:19

You buy two hundred fifty dollars for dope. You cut it

21:21

up. You make five hundred. K. And so I just kept

21:23

going from there. And

21:24

you're taking welfare check using

21:26

that to buy that

21:27

this is the first time.

21:28

Then you double the And

21:29

then after that, you're off and running.

21:31

I'm off I was off and running. And then I

21:33

I ended up backing my old neighbor who And

21:35

one, I just wouldn't go stop to say hi to

21:37

some friends. And this is what

21:39

crack was like, probably not even

21:41

three years in the black community. Everybody

21:44

was walking around like zombies. And I felt

21:46

like if only we had some crack and I

21:48

was like, you need crack? And he was like, yeah.

21:50

Look at all these fucking zombies out here. I

21:52

was like, I got a crack, and I think I sold, like,

21:55

I probably sold, like, three thousand

21:57

dollars off a dope in, like,

22:00

ten minutes.

22:01

Bam. Anyways, are

22:03

you? I'm, like,

22:05

Oh, three thousand dollars back then.

22:07

It's sixteen. It's, like, thirty thousand dollars.

22:09

Exactly. More. The time, you know,

22:11

I had started to gain gain a name

22:14

in the drug business, so people knew

22:16

that I had created my own trap. And

22:19

a trappers where you sell that. So I created

22:21

my own little block, and I was making a

22:23

shit ton of

22:24

money.

22:24

How many other women back then or even

22:26

Well, women day they drove killed. Yeah. didn't

22:29

date them. Right. But how many are selling?

22:31

You? You're the only female doing

22:33

this? Whatever women would known to hold

22:35

drugs for their boyfriend. I actually

22:38

sold a doll.

22:39

Yeah. So you're like the only and you're also

22:42

a teenager that you're a high school kid. Are you

22:44

still in school? No. I don't

22:45

know. When did you stop going to

22:46

school? Eighth grade.

22:47

Mhmm. Eighth grade. Yeah. I already had two kids.

22:49

So, yeah, I was I was dying. By eighth grade?

22:52

Yeah. How were you when you had your first

22:54

kid? Fourteen.

22:55

Fourteen. Mhmm. And then your next

22:57

one at what? Fifteen. So you got

22:59

two kids as a teenager.

23:01

Yes. Sixteen. Before

23:04

you had a license. I

23:06

didn't have a license, but I had a car because I

23:08

was a drunk driver.

23:09

You to fuck my license. You got two

23:11

kids. Get a license. So you needed a pair you

23:13

needed a guardian to take you to get to

23:15

for the driver says, and I didn't have

23:17

anybody. So I just heard Craighead's

23:19

teach me how to drive.

23:21

Craighead's taught you how to drive. Yeah.

23:22

Craighead taught me how to drive. And

23:24

who's helping you take care of these babies?

23:26

Me. How many should I tell them? I'll take it my home

23:28

fuck yourself.

23:28

So what what was your like, what was a good

23:31

week for you?

23:33

Drugs don't go by weeks. Girls go

23:35

by days. Alright. Those times I

23:37

made, like

23:38

Fifteen, twenty thousand dollars a day. A

23:40

day. Yeah. Oh, you don't need anybody to

23:42

help me. I didn't

23:42

need nobody. Did

23:43

you have a nice little place you kept to anyway?

23:46

Yeah, my kids dressed nice and

23:48

they went to school right in the trap

23:50

and, you know, I took care

23:52

of the people kids and, yeah,

23:54

I'm out of life.

23:55

Yeah. How many times you people try to rob

23:58

you?

24:00

had a crazy baby dance, so probably

24:02

twice. And what are they coming for?

24:04

The drugs and the money?

24:06

They came for the money.

24:08

The Yeah. I really would have thought they'd come

24:10

for the drugs. No. Crickets don't

24:12

really rob you. No. Other niggles

24:14

rob shit. No. That's a

24:16

rob. Crickets don't. There's nothing.

24:18

Don't they might steal your bomb. They mean you

24:21

don't. But they ain't gonna fucking put no piss

24:23

in your face. So at what age

24:25

do you so Sickler,

24:27

you got two kids. And then one, you realize

24:29

you start wanting out of this at what age?

24:31

Or do you need to get out of

24:33

this? Or what is it really? You never

24:35

need to take it out. The streets. And I know that, you

24:37

know, I went to jail, do some time.

24:39

For what? Selling drugs.

24:41

You got got? Yeah. I did it.

24:44

My my my cousin hit the dope

24:46

wrong. And so he issued a warrant

24:48

for me, and I got tired of

24:49

running. What's wrong? She

24:52

hid it in a place where I told her not

24:54

to put it, and the police

24:56

was on the ground up up up the

24:58

street looking at So he knew exactly what

25:00

I know he saw at

25:01

all. Yeah. He saw it all. So how long

25:03

did you go?

25:04

I did a year.

25:05

A year. Yeah. Where? Forty

25:08

County because I had other charges pending, so

25:10

I didn't go to I didn't go down the road

25:12

to prison. So I did all my

25:14

time in this in this in the county.

25:16

Okay. Because I had other I had other court

25:18

dates. So they didn't wanna keep transporting

25:21

me. Plus I had a really good lawyer that killed me

25:23

in the county. And

25:25

then you get out after a year and

25:27

it takes the kids. I had my

25:30

baby daddy friend took the kids. Okay. And

25:32

it was the fucking worst ever, but

25:35

III get out.

25:37

I start selling again. And I'm like, I'm sick

25:39

of this shit. And I just started praying.

25:41

I slowly, I need a I need a husband. I

25:43

need somebody gonna take me to fuck away from this

25:45

shit and

25:47

popped up. I went to go see a comedy

25:49

show, which was Bruce Bruce. You

25:51

want to see Bruce Bruce? Yeah. A lot of my

25:53

stuff like right here. My

25:56

friend my my my brother baby my

25:59

brother baby mama took me, and she

26:01

knew my husband brother. And we all just

26:03

went out. And I was like, hey, I'm paraged

26:05

for baby daddy. I didn't tell him that.

26:08

I'm paraged for baby daddy. And

26:10

I'm like, Hey, you weren't

26:12

really right tight, but I jumped on it. We've been together

26:14

thirty one years. That's the same guy.

26:17

Same guy. Thirty one years.

26:18

Yeah.

26:18

After a Bruce Bruce Show. Well,

26:20

we started he like, he would come over and visit

26:23

and stuff. And at the time, I was moving there. I was

26:25

moving from selling jobs to Check Forge.

26:27

And so my hope. Oh, I love

26:30

that you're moved. Yeah. You know,

26:32

one thing's bad. gotta give careers. You gotta

26:34

shift careers. If not, you get fucked up.

26:37

And so I'm

26:40

moving a check forward, didn't know. Are you

26:42

cleaning them and stuff? Are you doing all that? No.

26:44

No. No. I was a person of the checks. We will fuck

26:46

you up. Oh,

26:47

okay. You

26:47

just

26:47

take their checkbook. Yeah. I had a friend

26:49

that I you you just

26:52

get them from crackers and people working

26:54

out. You got them. You just buy checks all the

26:56

time. So I ended up getting the checks and

26:58

I'm I'm now forcing checks and

27:00

shit like a fool. Like, I meet this man.

27:02

He was like, what the fuck are you into? And

27:05

he was like, do you know what you don't those people

27:07

checks? I said, what do you I'm I'm making money.

27:09

He's like, you fucking up their lives.

27:12

I'm like, you all know them? He's like,

27:14

and you don't either. And you just sit me

27:17

down and he explain to me. He's like, what's going

27:19

happen to you if you go back to jail? Think

27:21

about your kid. You want a man to have your

27:23

kid? And I remember throwing away

27:25

my dopes in my cheek, and I said I'm gonna

27:27

get a regular job. And I remember getting

27:29

hired at McDonald's and

27:30

said, is she's so. Oh,

27:31

man. Oh, fucking man.

27:34

This shit sucks. Go

27:36

from

27:36

drugs to McDonald's.

27:38

Oh, my god. I fucking

27:40

hated

27:40

it. I never hated it. But

27:42

I just I stuck getting it because I didn't

27:44

I I didn't want my kids to end up

27:46

where I was. And I

27:48

had such a good man who was willing

27:51

to stick by me, you know, and

27:53

help me. And so I got after I got

27:55

my sister key. I mean, I thought I thought I

27:57

got him, got Mary, end up getting close

27:59

to my sister key. Which man,

28:01

you didn't mean got no key. Well, right

28:03

out the back, he got six month old and key.

28:05

Hey, the ex. Because I had two, and I got

28:07

custody of my sister

28:08

four. And we just never look back.

28:11

Do you two have children together? I have two

28:13

with him. Two with him. Yeah. So you have four

28:15

total, half four total. So

28:17

what was it about this man sitting

28:20

you down and explaining this to

28:22

you that that resonated with you? Because

28:24

you go from being a street hustler to

28:27

listen into this person, tell you about these

28:29

strangers. You don't give a fuck. What what hit you?

28:33

What made you listen to that? He

28:34

was a good man.

28:35

And and Why why do you say that based

28:37

on what? Like He

28:38

was respectful. He had a job. He

28:40

was educated. His side teeth.

28:43

He he

28:44

was inside teeth. Yeah. He had everything.

28:47

I mean, you know, he wanted he wanted

28:49

to Oh. He wants don't fucking

28:51

idiot. He was like and

28:53

what what really attracted you? Well,

28:56

he didn't go to college. He was in military. He had

28:58

just got out of military. He was just

29:00

something that I wasn't used to. Mhmm.

29:02

You know, when you that while,

29:05

you used to me, it's true, you a certain

29:07

type of

29:07

way. You know, and

29:09

he just he didn't bring none of that to the table.

29:12

But also, there's something in you that could easily

29:14

be, like, hey, go fuck fuck off with that bullshit.

29:16

I'm saying, what what was

29:17

that? I was trying to get out of And I

29:19

didn't wanna get killed and leave

29:21

my kids with and I know the daddy

29:23

wants shit. And leave my kids

29:26

getting bumped around everywhere. So

29:30

I just started when I got when I just started

29:33

thinking about my When I did that time in

29:35

jail, in jail, I

29:37

really it really opened

29:39

my mind to what I was I was handing

29:41

my keys the same thing. My mama handed me.

29:43

Same thing. My mom my grandma and her

29:46

generation occurs. And I was like, I

29:48

can't do this to my shit. My kids. You

29:50

know, I have been molested. I have been treated

29:52

wrong. And I didn't want any of that

29:54

to happen to my kids, and I remember my daughter wanted

29:56

to call her. She was like, everybody got a

29:58

child. Everybody was molested, so me.

30:00

And I remember thinking, yes, I did my

30:02

job. I

30:09

protected the shit out of her, but I think

30:12

I protected her so much eternity. Yay.

30:14

Yay. Okay. No dick. Okay, mama.

30:16

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30:18

forgot to say, don't eat pussy while

30:20

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Now let's get back to the

32:44

dupe. So tell me about your you

32:46

say it's a generational curse. Tell me about your

32:48

bringing with your mom and stuff before we get

32:50

into quit in school and eighth

32:52

grade and

32:53

dealing. What is that like? What what are

32:55

you in San Georgia then? I'm out. Yeah. Born

32:57

and raised. My mom was a alcoholic.

33:00

And she

33:02

was I never

33:04

I've never really dealt with depression. I've

33:06

seen depression. And my

33:08

mom was depressed a whole fucking

33:10

life. She was. All she did was cry.

33:13

And and my kid's gonna be, hey, you

33:15

saw like, I'm not I'm not I'm not

33:17

a very affectionate person. I love you, but

33:19

I don't want you all over me. And I think it'll

33:21

come because all I've seen this lady do was

33:23

cry. And tears to

33:25

me showed weakness. Okay.

33:29

And I already just remembered my mama crying

33:31

out fucking something like this bitch heal.

33:33

God damn. Can't you hold by details

33:35

any time? And she cried by the same

33:37

thing. Oh, your step daddy left

33:39

for me. And as I got

33:41

older, I realized why to step daddy love her.

33:43

She never won no job. All she did was drink.

33:45

And plus, he had just bought her brand new fall

33:48

seat in the bitch ran a mover. He had

33:50

them teeth on layaway for six months. You said

33:52

teeth? Yes. You ran them all. She ran

33:54

on teeth on

33:55

me. You

33:55

rubbed teeth. Oh, she got mad and said fuck,

33:58

these teeth niggle. And put him up on her

34:00

wheel and bag off of him. Honest

34:02

to

34:02

God, he looked like he

34:04

was Christ. Come like the teeth.

34:08

Yeah. The teeth are crutch. He was

34:10

like, bitch. I spent all my money. He had the

34:12

teeth on that one, and you gonna put run them

34:14

over. You

34:16

got the Wow. It's fucking fucking dope.

34:20

He left out for that. He's, like, fuck. A

34:21

bitch, somebody that you ever had a hole in

34:24

your mouth. And so he left.

34:26

And you're just growing up with a depressed mom.

34:28

Are you an only child? No. It's five of

34:31

us. Oh, man. And she's crying

34:33

all day

34:33

long.

34:34

She cried a lot. And, you know, we pretty much

34:36

raised all self in your

34:37

dad's not around at all. No.

34:39

My mom was thirty nine years old when she passed

34:41

away.

34:42

Whoa. That's really young. That's

34:45

but if you saw her, you would think as a and

34:47

it's kinda let's be hard to tell black people

34:49

age, but you would've thought she was about Sickler.

34:52

Is

34:52

that the alcohol? Like, does it I mean, just

34:54

constant drinking, just depression,

34:56

never happy, but was the funniest

34:59

motherfuck I've seen in my life. And I

35:01

think that's how I became fine. When I tell

35:03

you this lady was fucking hilarious,

35:06

hilarious. Now that I think, Bassett,

35:08

I should've she was in a wheelchair. I

35:10

I should've I should've pushed that bitch to the comedy,

35:13

because would've been rich. Aha. Aha. Aha. Aha. Aha. Aha. Aha. Aha. Aha. Aha. Aha. Aha.

35:15

Aha. Aha. Aha? Aha. Aha. Aha. Aha. Aha. Aha. Aha. Aha. Aha. Aha.

35:20

But I didn't know it was a comedy called. She

35:22

was hilarious. But in the

35:24

same time, we'll tear you a store

35:26

and then this bus icon, I'm like, oh, stop

35:28

fucking crying. She was

35:30

never happy. And

35:32

then what age are you on your own?

35:36

Fourteen. I had my first child I moved out.

35:39

And is she gone at that point?

35:40

Not a little behind

35:41

her. Okay. Got mail apartment when my

35:43

welfare check, my baby dashes, Jordan. So

35:45

he's telling George McDaniel. It was two hundred

35:48

dollars for apartment or two three hundred dollars.

35:50

Pay my rent. And motherfucking motherfucking

35:53

had more holes in wall and anything, but it was

35:55

nice. And then what

35:57

next for you? You get you meet this man,

35:59

this good man, I

36:01

meet him and I And then

36:02

do you get out of the neighborhood? Do you guys

36:03

move yeah. We moved

36:04

into we moved together into apartment

36:06

and

36:07

In Atlanta still at the time. Atlanta.

36:09

And we just started to make a life all self.

36:11

And I started, you know, look, odd jobs

36:13

here and there. He he worked

36:15

at Simmons Mattress and eventually got

36:18

got on a general I'm I worked at General Motors,

36:20

and I was like, excuse me, I said, this shit

36:22

ain't for me. I talked to fucking much work

36:24

already, old lead drunk

36:25

people. Fucking up the cars we buy.

36:27

Were

36:27

they all working drunk and shit?

36:29

Yeah. So when they got a union so

36:31

you can't find them? I love I

36:33

wonder our cars are all fun.

36:39

So I ended up I ended up

36:41

working at General Motors. He get at General Motors.

36:43

He get on permanent. We got a

36:45

life. And then I started some other shit and

36:47

and I got into comedy. How, what

36:49

makes you finally say, I'm done with this

36:52

bullshit. I wanna go to try this.

36:54

That night, you went and saw that Bruce Bruce show. Did

36:57

something get comedy was

36:59

not on my list? It was it was Bill

37:01

Clinton creating a welfare to work program.

37:03

And I went to a a whole the

37:05

whole program and a caseworker thought I was very

37:07

funny. And she just kept saying, you

37:10

did it. Yeah. You did. I'm like, bitch get away from me,

37:12

and I I did it. How old were you

37:13

then? I was probably

37:16

twenty. Okay. Maybe

37:18

twenty one. And she's

37:19

like, you should go try this. Uh-huh.

37:21

And I got on stage, and I tried this.

37:22

Where? Where's your first time? The pub. It

37:24

was no place called the pub, and I ran

37:26

over there. Marge. Georgia.

37:29

And I just went up and did, and I was like,

37:31

this shit. I can do this shit. So

37:33

I just I I went about a whole bunch

37:35

of rich prize shit because my neighbor out

37:37

of neighbor next door neighbor say, you remind me

37:39

or Richard probably all these craziest stories. And

37:42

so he's I'm telling you a storyteller. So

37:45

I didn't know nothing about comedy, about

37:47

all of Richard Price's shit, about all

37:50

of Bill Cosby's shit, because I wanted

37:52

to see how they tell stories. And I

37:54

was like, oh, I am

37:56

similar to I do tell a lot of, you

37:59

know, crazy stories like Richard. And

38:01

I just started the shit out of Richard Pryor.

38:04

I ain't know as good as he

38:05

is, but he taught me

38:07

how to tell stories. Me too. Yeah. That's

38:09

where I listen to. I mean, I

38:11

still there'll be at least once a year, I'll

38:13

go back and listen to his audio just in

38:15

the dark. And I can feel

38:18

like I'm in that room. He's talking about this cat

38:20

over here when a hat on his head and I see that

38:22

guy. You know what I mean? Like, he paints

38:24

a picture that I only

38:26

aspire to be able to do if you're you

38:28

know? Yeah. And he's crazy good.

38:30

What

38:31

was, obviously. think that's that's my personal

38:33

favorite too, Richard Pryor.

38:35

And, you know, talking

38:36

about his mom, being a prostitute

38:38

and his dad. He

38:39

grew up in a bra You're right. You're not grandpa runner.

38:41

That's what I'm saying. You don't it's not like you

38:43

don't have similar parallels as well,

38:45

but this is man in the seventies, telling

38:48

these stories. Yeah. Yeah. And yeah. Sixties

38:50

and seventies. I still watch Richard Pryor

38:53

live in concert. You watch It's nineteen seventy

38:55

nine at Long Beach Convention Center. That was the

38:57

key. And he's talking about everything

38:59

that you could it is timeless. You could

39:01

lift it up and put it into our society today,

39:03

and it's the cops beat black

39:05

people. I mean, everything right

39:07

there that we've all watched. Now everybody

39:09

just has a camera. Yeah. You know what I mean? It's

39:12

been true. It's been true. It's been true.

39:14

Now everybody's got camera to see it, and you

39:16

could lift that up and put it

39:17

up. I think it's the greatest stand up. Special

39:19

ever.

39:20

It probably

39:21

is. Yeah. That's the one. I saw

39:23

I saw Bill caused me live one

39:25

time. It was a smooth, it's

39:27

two hours I have seen in my mind. Oh, yes. It's a long.

39:29

And I remember telling my friends, like, build out my piss

39:31

me gonna fuck out. He's like, what's wrong? I said,

39:33

I paid out I paid the money. See if it's my fucking idiot.

39:35

Forty five me. Forty five minutes. My first,

39:38

like, bitch, we've been here for two hours. We've been here for

39:40

two hours. Two

39:42

fucking hours. Yeah. The long And

39:44

and he just took me on it's like he held

39:47

my hand and read a book to me.

39:49

I took I wasn't ever seen with him,

39:51

story he told. It was really fucking

39:53

good. That's when you know I mean, that's

39:55

when you know a comic. Really

39:58

work at their technique. You

40:00

know, a lot of people will take this shit for granted.

40:03

But it's it's ninety percent working

40:05

on your technique. And I tell people all the time

40:07

I say, Don't worry about the HoneyDew. The money

40:10

gonna come. If you if you

40:12

work on your fucking technique and you work on

40:14

your

40:14

craft, the money gonna come.

40:16

It will. It will. This takes a

40:18

long time, but it will.

40:20

Yeah. It takes I mean, the real money

40:22

takes a minute. You can't you can't do this

40:25

for money. No. If you're getting the comedy

40:28

thinking I'm gonna make a bunch of

40:29

money, and that's your goal, you're not gonna make

40:32

shit. You're gonna be out of the world.

40:35

IIII

40:36

You sure fucking will. You you just

40:38

really have to just do it because

40:41

you love it. Like, I love spending.

40:43

Me too. I love it. I mean, there'd be days

40:45

I'd be at home, and I don't know. I'm gonna get on

40:47

fucking stage. And, you know, and people like, look

40:49

over you at open mic. You got them right on my open

40:51

mic. When I'm not busy,

40:54

and if I take some time, I I will go hit the open

40:56

mic to work out whatever I wanted. Mhmm. But

40:58

it's very

40:58

addictive. It's something that I really fucking

41:01

love to do. So can we talk about two

41:03

things? You said you grew up in a bootleg or home.

41:05

I wanna talk about that. And I also wanna

41:07

talk about addiction for

41:08

you. I ain't been addicted to shit.

41:11

Comedy, though. You got an addiction to comedy.

41:13

Oh, comedy. Because I was a

41:15

Craig Dilts. was on dope. I

41:16

was not you never used the product. That's the

41:18

number one rule. Well, I don't know what the rule

41:20

was. Is she I thought it was turning Black people

41:22

into zombies. When crack came

41:24

out, it's dried out all the fucking jerry

41:26

girl. I wonder

41:28

Jesus, baby, crack on that. I

41:32

love your baby. Baby

41:34

curls are a big bill back your day. Yeah.

41:37

Yeah. Everybody else. Juicy hair.

41:39

Yeah. That came

41:40

The other side is what I'm

41:41

saying. Look wet, but it was dry. That's

41:43

what he always said.

41:46

Damn. I had a fucking dog. Did

41:48

get a dry deer recur with crack came

41:51

on. Fucking hook out

41:52

there. Great. But I'm looking like zomba

41:54

zhi. Mhmm. That's what these pills are

41:56

today. I'm watching people just walk down the street

41:58

and they stop and fall asleep and I'm like, how?

42:01

How do you do those pills and that heroin

42:03

and shit and just fucking sleep standing

42:05

up like that and keep

42:06

going? That's your motivation. I mean,

42:08

who would take something that would eat, they eat that in

42:10

two weeks? You're like, what the

42:12

fuck happened to your teeth

42:14

there? I don't need no teeth. Yes.

42:17

You do, bitch.

42:17

Yes. You do. Yes.

42:18

You do. You're gonna never be caught on a call

42:20

again.

42:21

So comedy is your addiction then. Yes.

42:23

You and you get it.

42:26

I think I get it. You get all these

42:29

crack heads have that Jones in for it.

42:31

Like, I I'm the same way. This is great.

42:33

This is great. But we'll we'll release

42:35

this in a week or whatever. So you

42:37

don't have that that instant gratification

42:40

that you do on stage. I'm saying this and

42:42

these people are laughing right now and hearing

42:44

it all right now. You know, that's the thing for

42:46

me. That's the drug of stand up for me is

42:48

that instant reaction. You

42:50

and I are reacting in here, but that's different

42:52

than a room for hundreds of people -- Yes.

42:55

-- laughing at what you say, and good or bad,

42:57

that reaction's

42:57

immediate. People don't like this episode.

43:00

We don't know about that for a

43:01

week. They don't like this set

43:03

I'm doing right now. They're fucking billing

43:05

me right there to see. You know what I mean?

43:07

I

43:07

love. That's what I love about stand up.

43:10

You know, I I that's what I love it about

43:12

it too. I also love that you can take.

43:14

I love how I can take two to three hundred

43:16

people in the room and control them with

43:18

my voice. You know, what

43:21

I'm saying? All my words and what

43:23

what I'm taking them on this ride and and

43:25

I work really hard to paint this picture

43:27

because I have this little thing I see at the top of my

43:29

head. Call on white people and buy to take you on a

43:31

knee, roll feel true.

43:33

That's already a great stuff. And you can

43:35

already see them in their mind putting on their

43:37

seatbelts. And they're ready to go through the hood

43:39

because they got miss Pat leading them. They gonna

43:41

be safe. And I just take them through, you

43:43

know, errors of my life and I tell these

43:45

stories of you know, these situations that

43:48

I've been in, and and they they sat there with

43:50

you laughing, ready to cry, ready

43:52

to fight, and that's what I love

43:54

about stand up. And then when I'm done,

43:56

I could say good night --

43:57

Mhmm. -- as they get the fuck out of my car and everybody

43:59

go home. Yeah. Now

44:02

tell me about growing up in a bootleg in

44:04

household, you said? My granddaughter

44:06

is so moonshine. So my granddaughter

44:08

is so moonshine. And, you know, in

44:10

this house, it was just everything

44:14

went down. You know, I did it on

44:16

my special from prostitution to

44:18

gambling it was nothing that we didn't see

44:20

as kids. Nothing was off limits.

44:23

Nothing. What I tell you the the thing that

44:25

I remember most about it is bootleg

44:27

house now is I used to I

44:29

asked myself, why the fuck do my grandmother

44:32

put a car change around his

44:34

refrigerator? One of them things

44:36

that you told, another car we looked to catch

44:38

Well, you would ride that route. Around the refrigerator.

44:41

I can't because he's saying he would say, you're

44:43

nigga they gonna get cold water. So I say you need

44:45

us to have cold water. He

44:49

didn't even want you to have the water. He

44:51

didn't. But Now that

44:53

I got older, I realized he kept his

44:55

moonshot in refrigerator also. Am

44:57

I gonna keep his money and he's pilster

44:59

in the refrigerator. So if you

45:01

try

45:01

something, oh, he popped that lot, that my fucking

45:04

chain hit the ground. He was shoot to shit. I saw

45:06

it.

45:08

You got a few seconds of the rung. Why

45:10

it's getting that changed? Ma'am,

45:13

I This is hilarious. He kept

45:15

on changing when they got their fridge. Right? You thought

45:17

that fridge was in jail. He

45:20

locked that bitch up all

45:22

the

45:22

time. Can

45:23

you imagine as a parent now

45:25

your kids seeing what you saw growing up?

45:28

Oh, my kid has bunch of pussy they beat up called

45:30

Polish something. Mommy

45:34

got that refrigerator long. You

45:37

damn right. Because back in those days,

45:39

kids didn't get fat. You ain't what

45:41

about a fat? You took your

45:43

ass outside? You ran? You played

45:45

Demovok, set it up. Video game. You look

45:47

at Demovok, got four chairs on the ass.

45:49

You would think the generation because I'm

45:51

fifty in a couple weeks. I'm

45:54

your generation. We were the

45:56

ones where the video games first came out.

45:58

You would think we'd

46:00

be the ones that were super addicted to

46:02

Well, we balanced it. We'd be going out all

46:04

the day. So let me say something. He

46:07

ruined a fucking guitar. Yeah. They were one little

46:09

die, and that was flip It was. And

46:11

you you had to play them die. That shit was

46:13

so fucking confusing. If you gave the

46:15

kids that they will beat this shit. How do you?

46:18

No. But I'm saying

46:19

the excitement of this video game

46:21

era, we're we're at the beginning of We

46:23

do have much, but I'm saying you would think we'd be

46:25

the ones that would get addicted to this new

46:27

thing that's coming in until we were

46:29

always out riding life. What have some

46:31

say don't do that. Wasn't that interested

46:33

either. Yeah. You had that little dot. Did you had the foot

46:35

right here? That. And that's all you had was a

46:37

little bit of a fucking dot.

46:40

You you

46:41

know, Neddy, they got real me a

46:42

tough shit. Yeah. Yeah. They do not.

46:45

If you ever seen grand theft auto, I was

46:47

watching my kids rape a bitch. You

46:50

do not fuck holes and don't pay them. Yeah.

46:53

So you have all that back then.

46:55

You have all that back then. So,

46:57

you know, You know,

47:00

this shit is like watching I saw my

47:02

son playing a video game before he could

47:03

play. He had to watch a whole movie on

47:06

what was going to fuck up. My up HoneyDew that.

47:08

I'm like, what

47:08

are you watching?

47:09

Are you guys watching these people play it? I

47:11

said, what? You're watching No. No. No. Not play.

47:13

No. Before before he get to play,

47:16

in between East prayer, whatever. It shows you

47:18

the whole prayer, what's going on? What about to

47:20

happen? They meet up? They talk. And I said,

47:22

this is a good ass movie. I'm on this video

47:24

again. Said they turn that shit. You

47:28

know? So it's it's

47:30

it's much better now. So you can't you really

47:32

can't blame them. I was just telling somebody

47:34

today. I said, I don't play the keys. I don't know how to

47:36

ride by us because they were ten years. They weren't because

47:38

they got these little huffle balls and shit.

47:40

You ain't gotta move you by to no more. Even if they're

47:42

gonna be so stiff by the time they get forty

47:44

five, they're gonna be

47:45

fucking, walking, they're gonna be on kings.

47:48

I feel like that now with the cars and the cameras

47:50

and shit. I don't I I can't remember the last time I

47:52

put my arm behind the

47:53

seat. Look back to back up. I'm looking here

47:55

on this camera now. Now my daddy

47:57

was seventy years old, and I remember one time I

47:59

told my daddy to bed at the club. And he's like, I said, use

48:02

your camera. He said, I came motherfucking that

48:04

camera like y'all gotta fucking TV. I tried to tell

48:06

me what to do. And my day he throw his whole

48:08

head

48:08

back, the back up.

48:09

Yeah. He would not get there. Wanna

48:11

get yeah. Yeah. He would

48:13

not get into that bullshit. Mm-mm. Tell

48:17

me this. Tell me some of the biggest challenges

48:19

you have as like a parent

48:22

growing up the way you grew up and the way you were

48:24

parented. What

48:26

did you say? I say, what are some of the biggest challenges

48:28

you had as a mom, as a parent, and

48:30

and growing up the way you grow up and now you're

48:32

trying to teach your kids.

48:34

Not saying the things that my mama said that was

48:36

hurtful. I I've said them before,

48:39

but I have to catch myself, like,

48:41

bitch and, you know, cuss

48:43

them out and I still cuss them

48:45

out. But Not as harsh as my mom would

48:47

deal with us.

48:48

She make it personal. Very. Very. Get

48:50

your uglads out of here. Really? Yeah. I

48:52

was always called ugly. Uglie. Yeah.

48:55

So I would I

48:57

I started off in the beginning and my husband I remember

48:59

my husband have on the top with me, like, hey.

49:01

You're worse. Is gonna last way long

49:04

in the last, whooping. You might wanna watch what

49:06

you say.

49:07

Man,

49:07

you got a good man.

49:09

He's a pretty good man.

49:10

Where where's where did he Like,

49:12

how did he come up? Because

49:13

He grew up in a his dad had worked for the city.

49:15

His mom

49:16

Well, somebody cared enough about him to say these

49:18

things to him.

49:18

Well, he has good families. He did. Sickler

49:21

of them.

49:21

So Yeah. It is a it is a big family

49:23

too. Yeah.

49:25

Very big family.

49:26

Very christian fight and,

49:28

you know, he grew up.

49:30

He grew up probably, like, leaving the beaver.

49:33

Yeah. Yeah.

49:35

So he had he gave him a very good

49:37

background. And

49:39

again, you listen to that. Yes, I

49:41

do. It resonates with you.

49:42

It did. Yeah. And it still do them,

49:45

still win them. I wouldn't try to say what? Thirty

49:47

years. Right? You said thirty thirty one years? I

49:49

mean, that's a hell of a long time. Yeah.

49:52

You must love them. I do some days.

49:55

Sometimes we'll keep his fucking ass, but What's

49:57

the alright. So he's dropping

49:59

some knowledge and some lessons on you. What are

50:02

some where you've told told

50:03

him? Like, oh, yeah. Well,

50:04

how about this? And he's

50:05

like, okay. I think I've told him

50:09

street knowledge. I don't think he was

50:11

I don't think he was smart in that street

50:13

area like I am. Like, when when did

50:15

the bullshit go down? I speak to fuck

50:17

up. My husband ain't gonna complain. He ain't

50:19

gonna lie. Yay. You know? But

50:22

me and I'm ready to fight about

50:24

everything. You know, I

50:26

know bullshit. I'm like, come on, well, you can't see

50:28

this bullshit. You know, my husband is a techy

50:30

as your

50:31

worker. I'm like, no. This is my fucking hell trying

50:33

to rob us. So that's that's kinda

50:35

see you.

50:37

Is that me me being more aware

50:39

of the bullshit than he are? Yeah.

50:42

What Alright. So you have

50:44

four kids. Have you raised each

50:46

one of them

50:47

differently? I imagine you've had to you had the

50:49

first one of fourteen then. You said sixty

50:51

fifteen and Sickler. The first too. I call my Medicaid

50:53

kid, the second my

50:56

second my Blue Cross Blue Shield kid. So yeah.

50:58

They the second two daddy

51:00

raised the first two kids. So If

51:02

you watch the

51:03

show, you'll see a lot of that in it.

51:05

That's a good point. Yeah. It did raise their brother

51:08

or was it you have a boy and girl?

51:09

A boy girl I have a girl, boy girl boy.

51:12

Okay. Yeah. And he raised all

51:14

four of those kids

51:15

with all four of them. Damn. This is

51:17

good. It's

51:18

a lot of and and then help with your sisters for

51:20

a little while too. And

51:20

I got custody of niece he's right now.

51:23

And how is he as a step dad versus

51:25

a dad?

51:26

He's not a step dad. He's just every body

51:28

dad. Okay. Alright. So he's

51:30

he's he's good with it.

51:32

Yeah. Everybody did. And

51:33

how is he as a father?

51:34

Great. Yeah. Yeah. You better than

51:37

me as a mom.

51:37

You think so. For real, you just joking.

51:41

Oh, you got a lot more patient than that.

51:43

Himself, like, either. Not

51:45

this motherfucker. Are you there? Don't

51:47

talk to the babies like that. Fuck

51:50

them. What's

51:56

the hardest part about marriage for you?

51:59

Hardest part about marriage is is

52:04

is man, it is work.

52:07

I mean, thirty one years. Tell me about You

52:09

gotta

52:09

keep working to stay in love. You know, because

52:11

you've gone from I mean, I hear

52:13

some people get divorce. I'm like, that that's why

52:15

you're getting

52:16

divorced. Over there, you guys have gone from

52:19

the streets.

52:21

He was in the streets. He was in the streets. Yeah.

52:23

Yeah. On the struggle? To to

52:25

now. We've been through a lot. And but now

52:27

also entertainment and growing in

52:29

comedy over the years in supporting that.

52:31

Like, this

52:32

He supported a lot of my bullshit. That's a

52:35

that's a that's a, you know,

52:37

one and I don't know what chance to someone

52:39

makes themselves successful at stand

52:41

up comedy at your

52:42

level. Right. Any supporting you doing

52:44

that? He

52:45

wanted me to quit in the beginning, but I said something

52:47

here. I wanna keep going. What

52:49

was he wanted you to just have the stability of

52:51

like

52:51

this. Well, I had a job at General Motors. Yeah. That's a good

52:53

job. Hey. This is a lot of fucking money. I was like,

52:55

hey. I don't need that.

52:57

Or HoneyDew insurance or

52:59

How's it you go do it? Whist your head?

53:01

Yeah. Yeah. Learning down.

53:03

One is enough. So I wouldn't he

53:05

wouldn't did it, and I did stand up. It

53:07

took off guess

53:08

what? He retired last year.

53:10

Did he really? Yeah. How old do you know?

53:12

He's fifth He

53:14

retired eight years

53:15

early. That's nice. Yeah.

53:17

So I was like, hey, you can retire now. We're good. Let's

53:19

go. Wow. Yeah. He put all

53:21

that time into and gets to retire a user.

53:23

How is he doing with retirement? Is he he

53:25

seems like a worker

53:26

though, at least

53:27

he'd love to work with another house. So

53:29

he So he's got projects. He's

53:31

got projects, but he get my fucking nerves

53:33

sometimes. He really do because he

53:35

he gets bored and He's

53:37

going by, like, A55 thousand

53:39

dollar drone. I'm like, what the fuck are you gonna do there?

53:42

Please. A

53:43

drone, you want Put it in the air. Can't get it down.

53:46

Thousand dollars when I know that.

53:49

You know? He don't calm down a lot. He just

53:52

he enjoyed retirement. You know, he said

53:54

at the house, he he's good.

53:56

Please get

53:57

it. Tell me some

53:59

of the stuff you miss about the streets

54:01

back in the

54:02

day. Nothing.

54:05

Nothing at all. No.

54:08

Because I lived a life. So all

54:10

that party and shit was out of me by the time I

54:12

was

54:12

nineteen. I already did it all.

54:14

God.

54:15

All of it by nineteen.

54:16

Yeah. By nineteen twenty. I was down

54:18

to a baby.

54:19

Yeah. But I was ready to be sent

54:21

it out and just have a life. How did you relate

54:23

to other kids your age?

54:25

I thought it was stupid.

54:26

Yeah.

54:27

Because I was a mom.

54:28

Did you have any friends at all at that

54:30

age that that you connected with back

54:32

then? Yeah. We was hanging in this. All my friends

54:34

was older too. Like, I'm

54:36

fifty now. My friends are

54:38

sixty. Okay.

54:39

I see. So they're all ten years old.

54:42

My friend was way older than me. I was the

54:44

only beast that was too young to get in the club.

54:46

was always with

54:48

the fake ID. Everybody else was the right

54:50

age. Right. So, you know,

54:52

by the by the time I started to get

54:54

married, they started to get married. So who was all

54:56

set it down together. I see. So

54:59

so kids, your age, we're just, like, now

55:01

-- Yep. -- you don't even know what's going on

55:03

now. They were stupid to me. Like,

55:05

you know, why you're not working?

55:07

Why you've been asshole? You know?

55:09

But I was off with a husband and a family,

55:11

so I couldn't understand why

55:13

they was being kids because they was fucking

55:15

kids. They were supposed to be having the time of

55:17

their life. Right. But I already had had the time

55:19

of my life when I was fucking in elementary

55:22

and middle

55:22

school. Yeah. And they're all just getting started.

55:25

They

55:25

all just getting started in the right way.

55:27

Yeah. Right. In the right way. Oh,

55:30

I just had a question I really wanted to ask

55:32

you now. I

55:39

don't remember now, damn it. I rarely forget

55:41

my questions. I do

55:43

wanna know, you

55:46

know, your how

55:48

were you when you got married? Like

55:50

officially married? Nineteen. Oh,

55:53

damn. No. Arms arms are twenty. Gosh.

55:55

So you knew you did everything fast.

55:57

You're married with children by

56:00

twenty years

56:00

old.

56:01

We bought off first You can't even drink five

56:03

legally. Hey, could. I could. Wow.

56:05

But my first time was twenty five,

56:09

ended up moving out to Indiana when I

56:11

was in my early thirties.

56:14

Why there? Why'd you guys go there again?

56:16

General Motors closed in Atlanta. Oh, I see.

56:18

We spent fifteen years

56:20

out there.

56:22

Yeah.

56:22

I would say when I met you, I feel like you were

56:24

out there. I probably will.

56:26

Yeah. Years ago, I met you and you were in Indiana.

56:29

So

56:29

was there, like, fifteen, sixteen years.

56:31

And now I'm back in Atlanta. What

56:33

do you like better? I'm born and raised.

56:35

That's my city. Yeah. Yeah.

56:37

Anytime to wife for me. Is

56:40

it? Yeah. I need to go places

56:42

where it's kinda

56:44

still divided. It I wouldn't

56:46

say it's

56:46

racist. It's just how the city just

56:48

cut up. You know, I lived in a place called

56:50

Plainfield in the island. And when I would tell black

56:53

people Yeah. I know Plainfield. Indiana?

56:56

Yeah. Sure do. I got a it's

56:58

crazy. girl at the time I was dating

57:00

in high school, her family moved to Plainfield

57:02

Indiana. Her dad got a job out there.

57:04

And, you know, we're all still friends. It

57:07

was her and her And they just I

57:09

just went to Indianapolis and she and her

57:11

husband and then her sister all came out, helped me

57:13

sell merch. We all hung out, but Plainfield,

57:15

and I took a grayhound from Baltimore to play

57:17

Plainfield, Indiana. It was

57:19

not easy. So I

57:21

knew that was fine too. Yeah. Fucking.

57:24

And and I'm telling people I live

57:26

there, and he's like, why? Are the school

57:28

system good motherfucker? And it's

57:30

a nice neighborhood. And so

57:33

you know, black people lived on their side

57:35

and then you it's almost like the

57:37

vibration people lived in another part of the

57:39

city, and then you had us

57:41

get over here. And I was like, y'all to divide

57:44

it. And I don't and I don't separate you

57:46

by money. Not I call them

57:48

money. I see. Okay. You have a rapper living

57:50

next door to motherfucking governor.

57:53

Oh god. Imagine. You know, money

57:55

separates you. And I just say, well, that was

57:57

kinda I didn't like

57:59

that. You know, we go anywhere

58:01

and live in Atlanta. Will you fuck?

58:04

You you gotta get recognized a lot in Atlanta

58:07

now. I do. Yeah. I get

58:09

recognized a lot. The whole same

58:11

thing I hate is the whole now I gotta put

58:13

my weed

58:13

on. Right? And put on makeup. I can't

58:15

ask your feet, Stomo. I can't even just run

58:18

to Walmart.

58:18

Yeah. I can't just throw some flip flops on

58:20

the run of all. I ran to Sam

58:22

the other day, and it Like, give me let me get a picture. Let

58:25

me get a picture. I said, never fucking get it.

58:27

I wanna make sure I have my shit together.

58:29

Yeah. I know. So that that's

58:31

the shit hate about fan, because I just keep watching

58:33

the count

58:34

away. Oh,

58:36

my god. How

58:40

about relatives? You got

58:42

relatives to support and come out? Nothing.

58:45

What about siblings? Are you close

58:47

with your siblings? No. Everybody just had

58:49

to grow up differently and fend for themselves

58:51

back then or

58:52

what? Pretty much. I mean, my I got

58:54

a brother in jail, one in North Carolina.

58:56

I don't really deal with accounted when

58:59

I made my own family. That's

59:01

what I did. You made a big one, though. I

59:04

do. have pretty big family and have some really

59:06

good friends in my life. Do

59:07

you still have your sister's kids? No.

59:10

My sister got them back. When I had them out eleven

59:12

years, they got on dope. And then now I got one

59:14

of my sister keys keys. So

59:17

I got my sister grandki. God. And

59:19

I've had them for going on ten

59:21

years. Man, I've got people

59:23

you've been taking care of. A lot.

59:25

Yeah. You've got four of your own kids.

59:27

Mhmm. I have four adopted kids,

59:30

and then I have a that's what's in the

59:32

house now. But my kids are

59:33

grown.

59:34

Yeah. But they weren't. No.

59:36

Well, they work with the other kids, but they are

59:38

now. So it's just me. I have a older daughter

59:40

that's twenty four and in the four

59:42

adopted

59:43

kids.

59:43

Who's the youngest? Twenty four?

59:45

My twin

59:46

my youngest is so twenty two year old. Twenty

59:48

two. Boy. And he's home or

59:50

he's gone too?

59:51

He's home.

59:52

How do you feel about everybody being

59:54

grown and stuff. Do you miss all them

59:56

being around? Are you real?

59:57

We do a lot together as a family, so I don't

59:59

remember. You get

1:00:00

your your girls here now?

1:00:01

Yeah. My daughter's here. I love her.

1:00:04

Yeah. I'm always traveling with somebody.

1:00:09

Listen, you're such a fascinating person.

1:00:11

Thank you. I mean, you really are. You're

1:00:14

first of all, the fact that you're not dead

1:00:17

After all that shit is amazing. I know

1:00:19

you know

1:00:19

It'll be fucked up and gone. Gave me cancel.

1:00:21

I know how to shout you and they don't get a

1:00:23

cancel. It really is amazing. The

1:00:26

numbers the stats on you getting

1:00:28

out of there alive. Number one is

1:00:30

a big

1:00:30

thing. Two, getting out of there alive and making

1:00:32

something yourself is a big deal. You ever

1:00:34

think about that?

1:00:36

I try not to.

1:00:37

Yes. It's hard. It is hard. I

1:00:38

try not think about the

1:00:41

things I accomplished. How do

1:00:43

you do that when you're including these sort

1:00:46

of story lines in your sitcom and stuff?

1:00:48

Does it do you ever have a moment like, man, you

1:00:50

really read that or hear someone else say a lie.

1:00:52

You're like, man, I live that. Have you ever

1:00:54

had that moment?

1:00:56

No. Because I just look at I put

1:00:58

everybody I put everything in a category

1:01:00

called work. So even though the

1:01:02

sitcom is ninety percent of my life,

1:01:05

I don't look at me as being a star of

1:01:07

it. I look I tell them we all stars.

1:01:09

It take all of us, even the people behind the

1:01:11

camera to make this shit

1:01:12

work. But, I mean, is there a moment, like, with

1:01:15

another actor on the set or somewhere where

1:01:17

they write you you

1:01:18

say, no, this is how it went down, and then

1:01:20

you hear it come back to you. Well, when

1:01:22

we write it, and then when we acted out,

1:01:24

yes. There's been time I've fucking bust

1:01:27

eye crying. Yeah. There've been times,

1:01:29

you know, we had to

1:01:32

move some things around. But yeah. Yeah. I feel

1:01:34

it all the time. But as far

1:01:36

as what I accomplished, I just look at everything

1:01:38

as being worked. I don't, you know, I don't

1:01:40

put no chip on my shoulder. I don't

1:01:43

I try to stay as home as possible. I'm just

1:01:45

grateful. I'm thankful. And I just

1:01:47

want people to know, you know, I

1:01:49

tell them, and we heard this a thousand times

1:01:51

for years. It's not about how you start.

1:01:53

It's about how you finish. Mhmm. So,

1:01:56

you know, I try to uplift people and let's say,

1:01:58

hey, you're looking at somebody who who was

1:02:00

just throwing away by society. And

1:02:02

when you get up and you make up

1:02:04

your mind that you wanna do something for

1:02:06

yourself, And

1:02:09

then you can do it. That's it right there.

1:02:11

That's the truth. I've been that's what this whole shows

1:02:13

about just being thrown away and thrown away

1:02:15

and thrown away and then you just gotta get your

1:02:17

ass up and go do

1:02:18

it. And that's what happened. When you get up and go do

1:02:20

it, you're fine. And you're gonna be okay.

1:02:23

You know? Yeah. Yeah. The, you

1:02:25

know, I tell everybody

1:02:28

the first step to

1:02:30

accomplish anything in life. Is

1:02:32

to learn how to love yourself. When

1:02:35

you put yourself first and you can learn

1:02:37

how to love yourself, then everything

1:02:39

else will fall into place. But you

1:02:41

cannot accomplish anything when you put

1:02:44

other people before you -- Yeah. -- and when you don't love

1:02:46

yourself. When I started to love

1:02:48

myself, I told everybody's

1:02:50

kiss my ass. I

1:02:53

wasn't searching for friends anymore. I

1:02:55

wasn't searching for love anymore. All

1:02:57

of that stuff came into my life

1:02:59

the right way. It wasn't being

1:03:01

forced. So

1:03:03

to first kill anything, I will say is to

1:03:05

love yourself. It's been a

1:03:08

great episode. I could talk to you forever. No.

1:03:10

I'm curious about how you're gonna answer this question

1:03:12

now, and then I'm gonna let you get out of here. We're gonna promote

1:03:14

everything one more time. Okay. What

1:03:17

now knowing what we've talked about, especially

1:03:19

your age too with everything that happened.

1:03:21

What advice would you give to your sixteen year

1:03:23

old self?

1:03:25

If I could give advice to my sixteen year old

1:03:27

self, I will look back and say, I'm

1:03:30

so glad we didn't give up. Fuck

1:03:33

yeah. Don't give up.

1:03:35

Yeah. I'm so glad we didn't give up. I

1:03:37

mean, I also know this too, like and

1:03:39

and lot of young people ask me this too,

1:03:41

but part of it is just staying

1:03:43

in the fucking

1:03:44

game. You stay in the game.

1:03:46

You can't quit and expect Take

1:03:48

no break. No. No. You

1:03:51

know, when all the when all the

1:03:53

shit that was thrown at me at the

1:03:54

kitchen, you'd have thought so many times I

1:03:56

wanted to quit. Oh, I should have quit. But

1:03:59

I didn't quit. Yeah. And look

1:04:02

what I'm at today. That's right. I'm glad

1:04:04

you did and good for

1:04:04

you. Thanks for doing this.

1:04:06

Thank you. Thank you for having

1:04:07

me. You're the best. Promote everything

1:04:09

one more time, please. Please go to miss pat

1:04:12

comie dot com for tour tickets. I'm getting

1:04:14

ready to start ADA tour. Hell

1:04:16

yeah. In the fall. Also, make

1:04:18

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1:04:20

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1:04:25

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1:04:27

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1:04:29

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1:04:32

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1:04:36

Pat. So make sure y'all

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check me out on my own podcast

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1:04:41

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